Thinking About Reid's Parentification Again. Hh. Someone Yell With Me.

thinking about reid's parentification again. hh. someone yell with me.

sherlock holmes deduces you are trans before you've figured it out yourself and refers to you with those pronouns and then when you look confused is like "ah...had you not arrived at that conclusion yet?" and wafts away in his dressing gown to smoke seventeen pipes, leaving you in a gender crisis

the day i stop thinking about the ending of s02e11 sex, birth, death is the day i die.

like. reid coming extremely close to needing to be dragged away from nathan?

both garcia and reid's expressions here? reid, who cares for and identifies with nathan, garcia, who has (i believe) never seen a dead body* in person? (also, you can't see it here because it's a still image, but reid's breath is hitching here and he looks close to hyperventilating)

*i know nathan is not dead here, nor does he die at all—the point im making is that having never seen a dead body in person before would make you more unprepared for seeing the aftermath of an unsuccessful suicide attempt than someone who has

reid makes no movement to clean the blood off his hands until gideon is right in front of him. he just stands there and stares like hes dissociating until gideon comes up and, in my opinion, sort of startles him into acting.

and gideon putting an arm around reid and taking him away from the scene while morgan does the same to garcia. hhhh.

this is the most emotional we see reid get up to this point. he's yelling while he's trying to keep nathan arrive, enough to strain his voice. i dont think hes so much as raised his voice at all up to this point.

i wonder how long he washed his hands for before he deemed himself "clean".

i love this show. and i love you spencer reid. but no the hell it is not

HOLLY: (a sex worker): A lot of johns from the Hill stop by on the way to work. RHONDA (also a sex worker): We always say the same politicians yelling about cleaning up the Hill are the ones dropping fifty bucks with us before they make the speech. HOLLY: It's true. And the more important they think they are, the quicker they accidentally finish up with us. It's weird like that. EMILY: No, that's pretty much universal.

HELPPPP. emily my beloved.

I think part of the reason I feel so strongly about nathan harris' character is this line. heads up that this is going to be dark and personal:

i have never experienced homicidal thoughts, but I do have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, with Harm OCD as a major subtype, directed at both myself and others. They started while I was quite young, and often manifested as images of the aftermath of violence on people I cared about, with myself as the perpetrator. Like many people, I was at the time under the mistaken impression that Contamination OCD was the only kind (which I do also experience to a lesser extent). With no other obvious option, I came to the conclusion that I was a horrible person, that these were desires, and I had this exact thought process many times before understanding what was happening.

I don't think Nathan Harris has OCD (or, he might, but if he does, I believe it's coupled with genuine homicidal thoughts, as the thoughts he's having excite him just as much as they scare him), and I think the episode and character are more impactful if he doesn't have OCD. (if that makes sense? I would love to see more depictions of Harm OCD in media, but I don't think Nathan Harris is the character for it. Sympathetic representation of Harm OCD is very necessary, but the way to do that isn't by taking away sympathetic representation of people struggling with homicidal thoughts).

But I still relate to him on some level.