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frankiebirds
9 months ago

the day i stop thinking about the ending of s02e11 sex, birth, death is the day i die.

On a bed, a man applies pressures to a bloody arm. The subtitle at the bottom of the image reads: PARAMEDIC: "You can let go now."
A paramedic in a blue uniform grabs the arm of a man wearing a warm grey sweater vest over a grey shirt, who is focused on applying pressure.
A close-up of the man in the sweater vest, distressed, his hair obscuring his face as he looks down. The subtitles at the bottom of the image read: -"Sir." and -GARCIA: "Reid."
A close-up of one of the paramedics. The subtitle at the bottom of the image reads: "Let go. Sir."

like. reid coming extremely close to needing to be dragged away from nathan?

The man in the sweater vest stands back, next to a woman in a light blue top. Both look distressed, the man more upset and the woman more frightened.

both garcia and reid's expressions here? reid, who cares for and identifies with nathan, garcia, who has (i believe) never seen a dead body* in person? (also, you can't see it here because it's a still image, but reid's breath is hitching here and he looks close to hyperventilating)

*i know nathan is not dead here, nor does he die at all—the point im making is that having never seen a dead body in person before would make you more unprepared for seeing the aftermath of an unsuccessful suicide attempt than someone who has

Outside a building with floor-to-ceiling windows, the man in the sweater vest holds a towel in his hands, both of which are covered in blood, staring blankly off as a man in a brown jacket approaches.

reid makes no movement to clean the blood off his hands until gideon is right in front of him. he just stands there and stares like hes dissociating until gideon comes up and, in my opinion, sort of startles him into acting.

and gideon putting an arm around reid and taking him away from the scene while morgan does the same to garcia. hhhh.

this is the most emotional we see reid get up to this point. he's yelling while he's trying to keep nathan arrive, enough to strain his voice. i dont think hes so much as raised his voice at all up to this point.

i wonder how long he washed his hands for before he deemed himself "clean".

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ive also always headcanoned that diana attempted suicide at some point so in my head there are some lovely lovely flashbacks after this too not sure why im leaving that in the tags. maybe because its a reading based off headcanon and not a reading of canon? anyway god the ending of this episode destroys me im glad it ends with hope with nathan living ive seen a lot of fics about nathan coming back as an unsub and im not saying those fics are bad AT ALL ive read a lot of them its an interesting and plausible concept but i like to believe that nathan goes on to lead a relatively normal life. maybe reaches out to reid again sometime in his adult years to thank him for not letting him die all those years ago like he'd begged him to spencer reid not fic criminal minds criminal minds rewatch criminal minds s02e11 sex birth death scene analysis tw blood tw self harm TW: Suicide favourites
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frankiebirds
7 months ago

the day i stop thinking about the ending of s02e11 sex, birth, death is the day i die.

On a bed, a man applies pressures to a bloody arm. The subtitle at the bottom of the image reads: PARAMEDIC: "You can let go now."
A paramedic in a blue uniform grabs the arm of a man wearing a warm grey sweater vest over a grey shirt, who is focused on applying pressure.
A close-up of the man in the sweater vest, distressed, his hair obscuring his face as he looks down. The subtitles at the bottom of the image read: -"Sir." and -GARCIA: "Reid."
A close-up of one of the paramedics. The subtitle at the bottom of the image reads: "Let go. Sir."

like. reid coming extremely close to needing to be dragged away from nathan?

The man in the sweater vest stands back, next to a woman in a light blue top. Both look distressed, the man more upset and the woman more frightened.

both garcia and reid's expressions here? reid, who cares for and identifies with nathan, garcia, who has (i believe) never seen a dead body* in person? (also, you can't see it here because it's a still image, but reid's breath is hitching here and he looks close to hyperventilating)

*i know nathan is not dead here, nor does he die at all—the point im making is that having never seen a dead body in person before would make you more unprepared for seeing the aftermath of an unsuccessful suicide attempt than someone who has

Outside a building with floor-to-ceiling windows, the man in the sweater vest holds a towel in his hands, both of which are covered in blood, staring blankly off as a man in a brown jacket approaches.

reid makes no movement to clean the blood off his hands until gideon is right in front of him. he just stands there and stares like hes dissociating until gideon comes up and, in my opinion, sort of startles him into acting.

and gideon putting an arm around reid and taking him away from the scene while morgan does the same to garcia. hhhh.

this is the most emotional we see reid get up to this point. he's yelling while he's trying to keep nathan arrive, enough to strain his voice. i dont think hes so much as raised his voice at all up to this point.

i wonder how long he washed his hands for before he deemed himself "clean".

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spencer reid not fic criminal minds criminal minds s02e11 criminal minds 2x11 sex birth death scene analysis tw blood tw self harm TW: Suicide <- my prev tags ive also always headcanoned that diana attempted suicide at some point so in my head there are some lovely lovely flashbacks after this too not sure why im leaving that in the tags. maybe because its a reading based off headcanon and not a reading of canon? anyway god the ending of this episode destroys me im glad it ends with hope with nathan living ive seen a lot of fics about nathan coming back as an unsub and im not saying those fics are bad AT ALL ive read a lot of them its an interesting and plausible concept but i like to believe that nathan goes on to lead a relatively normal life. maybe reaches out to reid again sometime in his adult years to thank him for not letting him die all those years ago like he'd begged him to
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