Heavenly
Heavenly
This is a quick drabble about Kurokawa Izana. I hope this makes sense? Idk I just wanted to write about him.

No matter where Izana went, at the end of the day he always found himself back at your place. He tried getting rid of you more than once, saying that you were just a distraction in his eyes. Nothing more, nothing less. But for some reason, when the sun went down and the moon came to view, lulling everyone to sleep, he would end up with you in his arms. Your hearts beating for each other, while the both of you whispered promises of love and a beautiful future.
Izana never understood what love truly meant. All he knew was, when he thought about the word “love” the first thing he thought about was your face. You were love. A warm and fuzzy feeling which was drowning his body whenever he was near you. You were the sun shining brightly over everyone. You were the summer, the bright smiles and laughs, the beach, the singing birds. Everything that could mean happiness and warmth, it was all you. You were divine.
While Izana was hatred. He was the blood that stained the dirty streets of Tokyo, he was made out of sad tears, and hurtful words. He was the winter. His cold biting everyone around him. People feared him, shivers running down their spine after hearing his name. They wanted to stay as far as possible from the boss, the four heavenly kings of Tenjiku and the gang itself. It was ironic and almost insulting how they even dared to put the word “heavenly” anywhere near the people that were in it, when the only heavenly thing about it - was you. Izana’s lover.
The both of you were laying down on the roof of your house. The moon was bright and as you looked at Izana, you realised how beautiful he looked while the moon’s light hit his face. He was like a fallen angel, a blessing but also a curse in your life. Your hand meets his and your fingers intertwine.
Hatred stirs up conflict, but love covers over all wrongs.
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Teen Romance <3
Inui Seishu x gn!reader (mentions of ex!Mikey)
Angst, a but of fluff at the end. This is short lol
Inui is in love with you and has been for a while. Though your heart still lies with Mikey

I met her by chance
I said: I really like your pants
I know you got a man
Give me your hand
Teen romance

“Whats up” Inui walks into the room with two cans of (your favourite soda). “You look.. like you’re really going through it. All gloomy and shit.”
You don’t know when exactly the two of you became close friends. It just happened on it’s own. Though you don’t really question about it, content with being so close to the blonde.
You like to call your friendship fate, since the two of you hated each other’s guts before Mikey disbanded Toman and broke you heart. After that Inui felt pity towards you and somehow managed to earn a spot in your heart. But Inui hates the though of that. You didn’t know why for the longest time and thought it was another one of his dumb theories. But once he was extremely drunk and called you, because he felt lonely and wantd to talk. He confessed that if the fate theory was real it meant that his sister’s fate was to die. And he thinks it’s bullshit. She still had years and years ahead of her. After that you stopped even saying the word “fate” in front of him. You didn’t know it, but it truly meant a lot to him. It meant that you listened to what he had to say and actually cared about his feelings. He doesn’t remember the last time someone did that to him.
“Nothin’” a soft murmur left your lips. “Just thinking.” You scratch your head and sigh. Your head was placed on your palm as you leaned on the kitchen table. Inupi and you decided to move in together in an apartment near the bike shop that he ran with Draken.
“You can talk with me about it y’know.” He tilts his head to the side and puts down one can near you. “I’ll always listen to you. And maybe give some advice. Though I can’t promise it’ll be good advice.”
“Sometimes I still think about him.” You close your eyes for a second and his face flashes in your mind. It was as clear as day. His blonde hair and dark brown, almost black, eyes. And that childish smiles of his. “And it really hurts. All of the good memories we had together.. I know he’s not the same person that he was. And sometimes I wish that I never even met him that day. I wish I had stayed in my room. But instead I just had to go to the corner store to buy some snacks. That’s where I met him..” you rub your eyes. “But I know if I ever had the chance I would do it all over again. I really miss him. I miss the old Mikey.”
You felt a palm touch your shoulder and as you look up Inui stood before you, looking at you with soft apologetic eyes. It was a bit awkward talking about your ex to the guy that you knew had a crush on you. It was obvious to you and everyone else. But deep down you knew you still need time to move on from Mikey. Even if three years have passed, it was still not enough. Just the sound of Mikey’s name made your stomach turn. That itself was a sign that you’re just not ready for new relationships yet.
“You deserve better, (Y/N). I hope you know that.” He takes a deep breath and you can see that he’s trying to form a sentence in his head that will have the best approach to this situation. “Right now you’re living in the past. You have been for three years. You can’t keep doing that. You need to focus on right now and on the future. I know you miss him. But he’s not going to change. The Mikey you knew has been gone for a while. And as much as it hurts you need to move on and create a better future for yourself.” His body’s tense and he doesn’t know if this was the right choice. Kokonoi would always comment about how he’s too blunt and Inui never really cared about it. But now he wishes he could just keep his mouth shut.
“I know, Inui.” You slightly pout, deep in thought. “Hey. Can I be a little selfish and ask you something?”
“Of course.” He smiles at you, now relaxed.
“Can you wait for me?”
“(Y/N). I’ll always wait for you. No matter how long it takes. I’ll wait.”
Without you

Kanto Manji members (Mikey, Kokonoi, Wakasa, Benkei, Kakucho, Shion, Mocchi) x gn!reader
pt. 1 with Haitani brothers, Sanzu, Hanma
They ruin your relationship and then regret it, but it’s too late.
Mentions of drugs, blood, toxic relationships. A tiny bit suggestive in Shion’s part
♫ Now playing: 21 Savage - ball w/o you
~I thought it was a love, until I woke up
And had an epiphany~
Kokonoi Hajime

You runnin' 'round drinkin' liquor
Takin' pictures 'cause you miss me
(I know you miss me)
Kokonoi finished his fifth glass of liquor and took a look at his surroundings. His head was feeling fuzzy and he was starting to feel a little sick. He was never really a fan of alcohol, since it was a distraction from his main goal in life - money. He had to be sober and levelheaded to get as much as possible. But this time it was different. He ruined the best thing in his life and now he was drowning in his thoughts, hoping to come up with a solution to fix his problem.
Just last week he raised his voice at you, but that wasn’t the worst part. All of the anger and stress that built up from Kanto Manji problems made him blind and he let out all of his dark emotions on you. And you just stood there and listened. It wasn’t the first time and you knew it wouldn’t be the last. So without a word you went into his room and took all of your belongings, putting them in a bag.
“What the fuck are you doing?” Kokonoi punched the bedroom wall. His heart was beating extremely fast and he didn’t know what to do.
“What I should’ve done a long time ago.”
And now all he could do was take a picture of a random person and hope that you at least get jealous and decide to text or call him.
Sano Manjiro

It don't take much to love
You can love somebody just by being attached
/ I just wish your love wouldn't fade away
Mikey was lost in his own head. He didn’t feel any emotions anymore, numb to everything and everyone. In the moment he felt like it was the best choice for the both of you. You were just a distraction in his eyes and his main goal was to make sure that Kanto Manji would be on top always. So he packed your bags for you and left them in the bedroom. When you came back and saw everything you just shook your head and left with everything that you had. You knew this relationship wouldn’t work for too long. Mikey wasn’t Mikey anymore and you fell out of love a while ago.
Now Mikey sat in the meeting room and stared at the wall in front of him. Once again lost in his own thoughts. But this time they were all about you. He missed you. He needed you by his side. But as much as his hands itched to grab the phone and call you, he still knew that this was for the best. At the end of the day he only caused you pain and put you in danger.
Wakasa Imaushi

You crossed me once, it's fuck you forever
Wakasa’s head was in his hands. There were bottles of alcohol laying around his living room and Benkei was sitting near him, letting out a displeased sigh. Ever since the day he decided to betray Senju and join Kanto Manji Gang, you hadn’t spoken to him. Benkei couldn’t blame you and neither could Wakasa. The both of them knew how much Senju meant to you. She was like your kid. You were the first one to get your Brahman uniform, because Senju cherished you so much. Wakasa tried to get another can of beer, but Benkei stopped him.
“This isn’t going to help you, y’know?”
Wakasa thinks about the day you left. How heartbroken you looked even though you tried to hide your pain. But the glow and pain in your eyes showed different. You called him a lot of different names, pointing a finger at him and calling him a disgusting monster, telling him how he fucked up by losing your trust. And he knew it was true. Earning your trust was a difficult task. And he couldn’t believe that he actually managed to break the bond that the two of you had. You were and still are his world. And to you he’s just a memory.
Arashi Keizo

You could find love, get married, have kids
I'd still be realest to hit it
Benkei was a family guy. He dreamt of having a big family, wether it was by adopting or having his own kids. And he always dreamt about that future with you by his side. But that changed after he joined Kanto. The gang was way different that all of the gangs he has been in before. Except his own. The old Benkei was coming back and he knew it himself. You knew it. Everyone knew it. The blood on his hands and face was a clear sigh of it. And that caused a lot of problems in your relationship. He became cold and distant, making Kanto his priority. After the sixth fight between the two of you in the same week, you packed your bags and left him. The both of you were tired and being together only made it worse. You said that this would only be a break. That you needed to be alone for a while. But Benkei knew the truth. You weren’t coming back.
Shion Madarame

I was gettin' some head earlier
And you crossed my mind
Shion was enjoying himself after the breakup. He went to clubs with the Haitani brothers and Hanma, he did random drugs people gave him, he had one night stands. It was fun at first, doing everything he thought about doing while in a relationship with you. He was free, no one was stopping him from anything. He didn’t have to message you or call you, he didn’t need to see your angry face when he came back late, or missed a date. But after a while it got lonely. He had everything he ever wanted, but there was no you in sight. He missed the feeling of your arms around him, he missed how worried you always were when he came back home bruised and bloodied.
And while there was a person laying next to him after another one night stand it all seemed so dark and quiet. He turned his head to the side and took in the features of their face. They were similar to you. Not exactly the same, because no one could ever be you. But right now it was enough. And then something clicked in his brain. He’ll never have you again.
Kakucho

When it came to havin' your back, I'm so real
I prolly would've gave you my spine
You were Kakucho’s world. You were there when Izana was alive, you were there after his death when he was in the hospital. You were with him when he was beat up by South and had to join his gang and you were there when he joined Kanto. No matter how many stupid and dangerous mistakes he made, you were always there. You extended a helping hand towards him with the biggest smile on your face. But he was so lost in the gang life, he didn’t see how he never really did the same to you. He always left you hanging. And now he couldn’t turn back time and change the things he did. How cold he treated you. A few tears run down his face and he hopes you can forgive him. He knows you won’t take him back, but he still wants you to know that he only wishes the best for you.
Mochizuki Kanji

I'm as solid as they come, but you crossed the line
Yeah, you best start keepin' it real, I can see the signs
Mocchi was always known as a scary guy. His build and height increased the fear for other’s. But he never scared you. No matter how many people he beat up with ease, how he could easily break you without even trying. You never feared him. You held respect towards him, knowing his life wasn’t easy. And with that knowledge he used you. He used your love, since he knew you would do anything for him. But what he didn’t know was how you knew all of that. He used your kindness and then was left without it. And now he had to see you give your heart to someone else.
Listen
Songs that remind me of TR characters
Some scenarios I had in mind through out the months but didn’t have enough motivation to write full on imagines. So here’s a bunch of drabbles.
Haitani Rindou (Mentions of Haitani Ran), Kokonoi Hajime, Sano Manjiro, Sanzu Haruchiyo/Muto Yasuhiro(platonic). Angst and toxic relationships.

Haitani Rindou: Joji - SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK
Give me reasons we should be complete
You should be with him, I can't compete
You looked at me like I was someone else
Rindou knew better than to fall for you. He knew you were in love with his older brother. After all, Ran was always more popular and acknowledged by everyone, while Rindou stood in his shadows. He tried to do whatever he could to just get the spotlight at least for a little while. And for some dumb reason he thought that he might have a chance with you. He tried to distance himself from you and it was successful for a while. But that one night made all of the walls he built - fall down. And now he was left all alone to build them up again. Oh how much he wished that he hadn’t let you kiss him then. Especially when he noticed you looking at his brother while doing so.
Kokonoi Hajime: Lana Del Rey - Doin’ Time
Me and my girl, we got this relationship
I love her so bad, but she treats me like shit
Evil, I've come to tell you that she's evil, most definitely
Kokonoi never thought he’d date anyone. He was so sure that he would die alone, since he had no time for relationships. He only cared about money and ways to get more of it. But then a new Bonten member showed up and it only took one glance at them. Just one glance and he was hooked. The way you kept your head high and were never scared to show your true emotions to anyone. The scowl you’d have when you were mad at someone and the way you always thought you were better than anyone else. You were egoistic and always got whatever you wanted. He knew you were too good for him. No one was even worth your time. And he knew that you’d use him for money and for whatever else you needed. But he didn’t care. If he was the one you’d get home to at night, he was fine with whatever you did during the day. Even if it hurt him in the end. You were the sun and he was Icarus. (Icarus, in Greek mythology, son of the inventor Daedalus who perished by flying too near the Sun with waxen wings.)
Mikey: Alex G - Mary
Mary is the girl that leaves you to rot
She says, "I am real and you are not"
After losing everyone, Mikey had become completely numb. He treated everyone with disrespect and never gave them the time of day. But you had stayed. Even if it cost you your sanity. You knew your feelings weren’t as strong as they used to be and that you were living off of false hope of the old Mikey coming back. You knew it was an extremely toxic relationship from both sides. But you had been with him for far too long to just let go of it now. But some nights while laying in bed you’d let your thoughts wander. Asking yourself if it was truly worth it. The screaming, the throwing stuff at each other, him not caring and you crying your eyes out until you couldn’t even let out a sound anymore. He treated you like you weren’t even real. Like you were just a figment of his imagination and would come back to him whenever he wanted. And he was right. No matter what you always stayed.
Mucho/Sanzu: Tyler The Creator - Are We Still Friends? (I really really wanna write a fic about this, I have so many ideas. Maybe I will when I have time)
Don't say, "Goodbye, smell you later" (later)
Nah, I can't
I don't want to end the season on a bad episode
Are we still friends?
Can we be friends?
Are we still friends?
I've got to know
You met Sanzu and Mucho after being assigned to the 5th division. The three of you hit it off easily. You all spent almost every single day together, becoming extremely close. You considered them your family and had many polaroids of all of you on your wall. You watched the sunsets and sunrises together, went on quick road trips and made many memories that you’ll never forget. There were at least three of Mucho’s sweaters in your closet that he’d always tried to get back but never succeeded. You always wore Sanzu’s hair ties on your wrist. And when the day started off weird you knew something was wrong. Mucho didn’t pick you up with his car and neither of them were at the Toman meeting. They didn’t answer any of your messages or calls, and when Mikey came up to you after the meeting ended you felt your heart break. But you didn’t find it in yourself to hate either Sanzu or Mucho. So when you had to fight both of them at the Tenjiku vs. Toman fight you couldn’t stop yourself from asking them.
“Are we still friends?”
Oho someone who's fine with ppl sending ideas. Platonic toman with a male!member reader who lacks self-awareness. Like bby passed by an entire rival gang while wearing toman's uniform just to get donuts (and somehow came back to the hideout self and sound with a box of donuts), accidentally offended other influential delinquents while Takemichi stared in horror, wondered off somewhere during important times. Wdyt ? Btw it's inspired by your mbti since intp's have inferior fe. Wdyt of this ?
“Oh and that, and toman with a m!member reader who takes the items of the delinquents he beats, and also gifts it to the other members. There's that one time when Draken received motor parts for a week straight, Mitsuya receiving a cool looking belt, Emma receiving an earring, etc. The way he gifts it weirds people out though, like someone's just existing there, reader walks up to them, gives them something and walks away without speaking.”
Platonic!Toman x m!intp!reader

A couple of hc’s of Toman and they’re favourite weird dude.
Some violence and a couple of swear words. And that’s all I think. This was really fun to write

*You joined Toman, because you were a close friend of Peh. Since childhood you had spend almost every single day together, because your parents were neighbours. But that kinda changed after Peh met Pah and joined Toman. Since you felt left out you one day cornered Peh and forced him to “spit it out” on why he has been ignoring you so much. He explained about Toman and you asked to join. Peh wasn’t too fond of the idea, but he knew he couldn’t talk you out of this. Once you made up your mind no one could change it.
*Mikey had a talk with you after Peh mentioned your name. After you talked he realised you two are kinda similar in many ways (Mikey is also an INTP. At least he was the last time I checked). He enjoyed talking to you and after he noticed that you mostly think before you speak and also use logic in almost every sentence he came to a conclusion that the best division for you was the 5th one. So he introduced you to Mucho and Sanzu.
*Mucho liked the fact that you were quiet and only spoke when needed or when you had something to say. Otherwise no matter how much the guys from 5th division (and other divisions as well) talked your ears off, you didn’t say more than a few words. After all, you were more of a listener than a talker.
*Sanzu was glad when he found out how loyal you were to those you trusted. After he earned your trust he enjoyed having conversations with you since he knew you didn’t lie and no matter how ugly the truth was, you always spoke only the truth.
*But that was also kind of a throw off for other people. Hakkai and Angry disliked you at first. You seemed rude and you were difficult to get to know. You were insensitive at times and had struggled to express your feelings. But after a while they got used to it. They weren’t the closest ones to you, but they didn’t dislike you either. You were just another guy in the gang. Though one incident made them change their minds about you completely. Like it did a full 180
*Once you found Hakkai and Angry cornered by a bunch of rival delinquents you saved their asses and then they started seeing you as a brother and best friend.
*The closest to you were Mikey, Sanzu, Mucho, Baji and Draken (besides Peh and Pah). They enjoyed your company and how you always listened to their problems and gave good advice.
*The guys were weirded out the first time you came up to them in silence and without a word gave some random gifts (they weren’t that random. They actually needed the item you gave and were confused on how you knew about what they needed. But then they realised they probably made a side comment about it while talking to you and you remembered. That warmed their hearts a bit.). And when they found out that most of the gifts were actually stolen from the people you beat up, they were left in a bigger state of shock. Chifuyu and Baji laughed about it and said that next time they’ll also invite you to beat people up with them and then strip them naked. (That manga panel made my jaw drop the first time I saw it lmao).
*Now what they really didn’t like about you, was how much self awareness you lacked. You always put yourself in danger, but also managed to avoid it. You walked past by delinquents who had issues with Toman without even a scratch. You bought donuts and brought them to a meeting. You managed to piss off the Haitani brothers by saying something rude about them right in front of them (without even noticing that they were behind your back) (Takemichi almost had a heart attack that day). It became an inside joke of the gang about how luck is always on your side.
*Even if you were cold and stand off-ish they all knew you cared about them. And they cared a lot about you too.
Rooftop
Sanzu x gn!reader
Sanzu and Y/N are 17-18 here.
Warning!! Y/N is a drug dealer. So drugs, guns, fights bc it’s a manga about gangs. Weed. Y/N was running away from the cops. MANGA SPOILERS. LIKE LITERALLY THE NEWEST CHAPTERS. DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT CAUGHT UP WITH THE MANGA. Also swear words.
Uhh like 1.3k words
Sanzu’s life never really had peace in it. Even when he was a child. And now all he could ever think about were blood, death, adrenaline, cigarettes and drugs. But there was you. There was always you he could find peace in.

Wind caresses your face as you look at the tall abandoned building in front of you. Sanzu always called you at the most awkward and worst moments. Just twenty minutes ago you were running away from the police, the cops tailing right behind you. Luckily you knew your way around, spending your time in the streets of Tokyo more than your own home. So it was easy to outsmart the cops and get back to your small and lonely apartment. But before you could close your eyes and calm down from all of the adrenaline, maybe even smoke a blunt, your phone vibrated informing you about a message.
Sighing, you put your car keys into your pocket and enter the building. It was eerily quiet, but Sanzu was never a loud person. He was a trouble maker, that’s for sure, but with you he could chill out and relax for a minute. He never said it out loud, but you were his safe space. You climb the cement stairs and reach the roof. Sanzu was laying on the floor, looking up to the stars. There was a blanket put on the floor and you noticed his hair was all messy and not tied up. Without saying a word you lie down next to him and also take a look at the sky. The stars were shining brightly and it was a full moon.
“Rough day?” You ask and sit up, stretching your arms. Sanzu had a couple of bruises on his face, you noticed. A frown forms on your face as you try to identify what caused them. It didn’t look like they were formed because of a fist.
“Yeah. The battle of the Three Deities happened today.” He takes a puff from the cigarette, laying between two of his long fingers which were littered with little scars.
“Hm..” you nod. “Man, that’s fucked up. Wasn’t it supposed to happen later on?” You shake your head and take out a blunt out of your pocket and put it in your mouth. “How was it?”
“We won.” He smirks. “South is dead. Fucker got killed by Mikey.” A quiet ‘ah’ leaves your mouth and you let out a content sigh after finding the black lighter you carried around in the pocket of your jacket. “Rokuhara Tandai belongs to Mikey now. Brahman lost to South and then disbanded in the end to make Mikey spare Takemitchy.” He stops looking at the stars and glances at your now sitting figure. “How have you been? Haven’t seen you in a while.”
“The usual. Selling drugs, tryin’ to make money.” You take a hit from the blut and look at Sanzu’s eyes. “I like your eyes.” You squint a bit. “They’re a pretty colour. ‘M jealous.”
The first time you met Sanzu was a complete accident. You were walking back home after a “meeting” with a client. He bought a lot of your shit and you were glad. You finally had the money for the car you wanted to buy for a while now. Though your peaceful walk was interrupted soon. Yelling could be heard from around the corner. You were never the one to think too much about the consequences of your actions and lived in the moment. So without even thinking you took a peek at what was happening. A tall guy with pink hair was backed into a wall and there was a knife pressed to his neck. The guy holding the knife looked pretty beat up. The tall dude could easily kick him away,but the knife was too close to his throat and it would leave a serious cut. One thing lead to another and your gun was pressed to the man’s head, making him drop the knife. Sanzu beat up the man and then introduced himself to you. And that was the start of your friendship.
“Whatever.” Sanzu let’s out a quiet noise of dissaproval and looks back at the sky. Though his ears were now a burning red colour. He was glad it was dark, otherwise you would’ve noticed how your comment made him feel. He was beating himself up for letting himself fall for you. Neither of you lived safe lives, putting yourselves in danger every day. And not only that, you were like a distraction for him. Always on his mind. He couldn’t disappoint Mikey by not concentrating on his work. People were also getting curious on why he spent so much time with you. He didn’t want to put you in more danger, the fear of other gangs attacking you clouded his mind. So he used the only excuse he could ever think of. You were a drug dealer and he was a drug addict. He needed you to provide him with drugs and you needed him for money.
“You okay?” You tilt your head to the side, while blowing out pretty white smoke out of your parted lips. And Sanzu swears he never wanted anything more than to grab your face and kiss you. Buy instead he just let’s out a quiet hum and nods. “Can I ask you a personal question, Haru?” His heart starts beating faster when he hears the nickname. He sits up and throws away the butt of the cigarette.
“Sure. What is it?”
“How did you get those scars?” You take another hit from the blunt and move closer to Sanzu. When your shoulders touch, you lower your body slightly and put your head on his shoulder. “You don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna. I respect you and care about you. I don’t wanna be the reason why you’re uncomfortable.”
If it were anybody else, Sanzu would’ve beaten them up until they were unconscious for asking that question. No one, other than the three people that were there with him on that terrible day, knew how or why he had those scars on his face. Sometimes he wondered if taking off the mask Mucho gave him was a mistake. It did hide them and less people stared at him whenever he would try to do normal daily tasks.
“You’re tense. ‘M sorry, Haru. It’s my fault.” With your free hand you start playing with his hair. Sanzu hesitantly raises his own hand and slowly takes the blunt from between your lips and brings it near his mouth. He inhaled the smoke and you couldn’t do anything else other than stare at his pretty face, while he was exhaling it.
“Mikey.” He whispers. You raise a brow and move your head away from his shoulder. Sanzu let’s out a disappointed whine as you do that. “All I can and want to say, is that it was Mikey.” He can see the confusion paint your face. Then shock. Hurt. And lastly anger. Though you understand that it’s not your place to tell Sanzu to leave that son of a bitch named Mikey and run away with you. “I regret a lot of things in life y’know?” He slightly changes the topic of the conversation.
“Yeah?” You look back at the stars. “Like what?” You hear a sigh leave his lips.
“A lot of things I can’t even talk about. My family. Mikey. Mucho. You.” He let’s out a shaky breath and looks at you. He was looking at you like he was trying to remember every single detail about you and your body.
“Mucho?” You let out a surprised squeal. “Man I don’t remember the last time I heard his name.. It’s sad. He was a great guy. I wonder who did that to him.” You tilt your head to the side and look back at Sanzu. “Also me? What do you regret about me?”
“Meeting you.” His answer made your heart hurt. “You.. Shit. You do things to me. I hate it.” He throws the blunt he was holding to the side and grabs your face. “Fuck you, (Y/N).” He brings your face closer to him and his lips meet yours.