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Almost

There was always an almost with you and Geto.

Geto x f!reader. Mentions of death. This is fluff to angst. Spoilers for JJK!

Almost holding his hand.

The first year of Jujutsu Tech was interesting to say the least. Getting out of your comfort zone and meeting new people you would spend a lifetime with. It was all so sudden. You left your clan, your family behind and started a new life there.

Though after a while you managed to settle down. Your three classmates Shoko, Gojo and Geto were nice to be with. Shoko was calmer than the two and you formed a nice friendship with her faster than with them. She was there from day one, with a friendly smile on her face and a cigarette hanging between her lips.

The smell of cigarettes felt calming after a while. You always knew it was her walking around the corner and it felt comforting.

Geto and Gojo became your good friends a bit later on in the first year. As douchey as they were they understood that you needed time to feel comfortable around them and they respected that. They gave you personal space until you started talking with them more, going on missions together and coming back with tears in your eyes from all of the laughter.

It felt good. In those moments you almost forgot how much you actually missed home. Soon enough these three people became your second family.

And now as you lay on the grassy field at 3AM with Geto next to you, it feels right.

“Couldn’t sleep?” He turns his face to look at you. And as you do the same you think how angelic he truly looked. He was the opposite from Gojo, who had plenty of girls following him around and feeding into his already big ego, but you never really understood why. In your eyes Geto was the best looking guy you’ve seen. His now messy hair is free from the hair tie that always keeps his hair in place. It falls on his face framing it in a way that makes him look like a painting. His dark eyes meet yours as he awaits for your answer.

“Mhm..” you hum and give him a soft smile. “It’s a rough night.” you whisper. “The mission today sucked out my energy, but I just can’t stop thinking about the kids who died in front of our eyes. We almost saved them..” a frown etches onto your face as you sigh. “When I close my eyes that’s all I see.”

Geto shuffles closer to you and your hands touch.

“It’s not your fault.” He calmly states. “It’s life, (L/N). We’re trying to make it better, but you have to remember that we can’t save everyone.”

His hand tries to reach your palm, hold it in his bigger one, but before he can do that..

“Hey, guys!” Gojo’s annoying voice screeches. “You should’ve told me you’re having a slumber party or something.”

When he almost asked you out.

Geto was pacing around his dorm room. His hair is in a messy bun, he’s slightly irritated and you can tell by the way his eyebrows are slightly arched. He has a mean look on him and Gojo is confused as he has never seen his friend like that.

At first the white haired male doesn’t want to interfere as his friend looked out of it. ‘It’s like his whole family died’ he thinks as he keeps staring at Geto.

“Just calm down.” Gojo grins. “I’m sure everything will be fine. She likes you back for sure, dude. The way she looks at you? Like you hung the moon and the stars. Just believe in yourself, Suguru.”

“You don’t understand, Satoru. She’s different. I don’t want to ruin whatever we have.” His pace becomes faster. “I really care about her. I want her in my future. But what if she doesn’t see me like that? I can’t imagine losing her.” He frowns.

Gojo groans and stands up from Geto’s bed. He walks up to his friend and puts a hand on his shoulder and squeezes it in reassurance.

“She likes you. You just have to calm down.” Gojo smiles warmly at his friend, supporting him. “I can see it with all of my eyes.”

Geto hits Gojo’s shoulder and both of them laugh. It doesn’t feel tense anymore.

Though no matter how long Gojo stayed in his room, Geto never got the courage to ask you out. Especially not after he saw you through his window. Laughing at what Nanami said.

When he almost kissed you.

“Ugh.” Geto groans as he looks at his notepad, slowly losing his hope to understand the subject. “This is bullshit.” He throws the pen on the table and rubs his eyes in frustration.

“You think?” You sarcastically roll your eyes while trying to comprehend what you were even reading right now.

“We’re failing this, (L/N).” He sighs and closes his notepad, putting it back in his bag. “I’m done with this. I don’t care anymore. Literally could give less of a shit.”

“I get it.” You smirk and stretch also giving up on understanding the topic of math. “It’s like this isn’t even real. Who created this theory?”

Geto stands up from the chair that he was sitting on and walks towards where you were seated on the carpet in the middle of your dorm room.

“Wanna do something else?” He raises a brow. “Like.. Watch a movie?”

“I don’t have any new ones.” You answer him quickly. “Unless you want to rewatch the same old five cassette tapes I have.” You say already knowing his answer. He lets out a huff and falls into your bed groaning mumbling something about how boring it is.

You grin and stand up shuffling towards the bed and fall onto his body and he gasps as he feels the weight of someone else’s body on top of his. He starts whining and you start laughing. The room erupts with noises as he starts an argument that you’re not even participating in. It feels fresh. It feels like spring when nature is reborn again. It feels warm and inviting.

As the laughs die down you to lay next to each other, looking at each other’s faces and studying them. He smiles at you softly noticing how your cheeks are dusted in pink. He reaches out and softly, as if you were made out of glass, he follows your features with his thumb. As if he was trying to remember how your face felt. It felt like he was an artist and you were the art.

He let’s out a noice of satisfaction and his grin gets bigger. He slowly starts to inch towards your face. You look into his eyes, feeling like your heart will soon jump out of your chest. Your lips are millimetres apart, but before they can collide, loud noises can be heard from the outside.

You two jump off of the bed in a rush.

Someone was attacking Jujutsu Tech.

When he almost..

Your heart is breaking. It was stupid. So so stupid. Your hands reach into your hair and you swear you could pull everything out. Your skin felt itchy and your stomach felt like it had butterflies trying to dig their way out.

It was crushing you. Your whole life you knew and had fell apart in a few hours. As you laid in your bed, holding yourself, trying to keep yourself from falling apart, your window opens.

You don’t even need to lift your head up to know who it was.

“I’m sorry.” Were the first words you heard. “I wish things could be different.” He keeps on talking, while you stay quiet. Only broken sobs were heard from your laying body. “In another life we will be married and raising five children.” Suguru laughs bitterly, walking up to your bed. He sits down next to you and takes you in his arms. He wipes away your tears. "But the world we live in now, isn’t so kind to people like us."

“Five kids with you doesn’t sound so bad..” you whisper in tears “I hope that’s true.. And that in another lifetime things are different.”

Suguru lets out a soft chuckle, looking into your eyes. “Of course it’s true. I’m sure one of them will look just like me.” He gives you a warm embrace, feeling your tears on his chest. “Please don’t cry (Y/N), you’re making my heart ache.”

“You’re the one to say that.” Your voice breaks. “Why.. why are you choosing that path?”

“(Y/N)..” he hugs you tightly as if he always wants to remember the feeling of you laying on his chest. “Our paths are way too different. I’m sure you’ll find all of the answers on your own.” He smiles. “I can’t stay for long. They’re looking for me already.” Suguru leans in and for the first time your lips touch. Though rather than giving you joy it felt like he was taking everything away from you. It was melodramatic. He came to say goodbye and took your heart with him. “I’m sorry.” He whispers and before you can do anything, he leaves. And as you lay in bed you realised that not only did he take your heart he also took away the warmth of summer and spring and left you alone with the coldness of winter.

As he leaves the grounds of Jujutsu Tech he stops for a second and looks back. With a sigh he turns around and leaves.

When he almost stayed.

Snap out of it

Mitsuya realises he likes her more than a friend.

Mitsuya x f!reader

You two were stuck together ever since you were kids. It’s like you were glued one to another and everyone knew that if one of you was somewhere the other was nearby. It was always Mitsuya and (Y/N) and always will be. Even after Mitsuya met Draken, after he joined Toman and changed as a person. He still stuck by you. Thought as years went by Mistuya realised what he felt for you wasn’t just a typical friend bond.

Mitsuya walks towards the house where the party was happening and the moment he opens the door the music gets louder and he feels as if he stepped into another reality. All of the yelling from different people blend into one sound and he tries to push it away and concentrate on the music playing in the background. But his eyes were looking around to see one person that he came here for. And as he took in his surroundings a familiar face could be seen in a corner. Mitsuya’s lips turn upwards and he smiles to himself being glad that it didn’t take too long to find you. Thought as he walked closer he noticed you weren’t alone, you were laughing with someone else. With another guy.

And then Mitsuya suddenly stops in his tracks. And as he looks at you two he feels his thoughts slowly form into a hurricane as his stomach turns and he feels like he’s slowly losing grip from reality.

“Why do I feel like this?” He mumbles to himself.

He has seen you hanging around with plenty of guys and it was never a problem to him. Maybe because they were all Toman members and knew how close you two were? He doesn’t know. He doesn’t fully understand why he feels the ugly emotions he’s feeling now. After all you were his friend.

Ah. Maybe that’s the issue. He’s just looking out after his friend. He doesn’t know if the guy you are talking to has pure intentions with you. You were like his sister.

So he decides to look at you two for a while. You seemed happy talking to the guy. Leaning forwards to him as you laugh at his joke. And the guy gives you a look. Mitsuya knows that look.

He wants to kiss you.

And before Mitsuya can even stop himself he marches up to the two of you and grabs you by the hand. And before you can even react, he has already dragged you outside and you stood near his motorcycle. Mitsuya’s breaths were uneven as his hands now were formed into fists and his knuckles were turning white.

You stood still a bit confused as you looked at a Mitsuya you have never seen before. The weather was a bit chilly and the wind caressed the skin of your bare arms. Then suddenly the reality of the situation hits you and you step closer to Mitsuya.

“What the hell was that, huh?” You ask him with a bit of spite in your voice.

“What was what?” He rolls his eyes as he glances at your figure.

“Mitsuya. Why did you do that?”

And he stops in his tracks. What does he say now? Why did he do it? It felt like at that moment he couldn’t control himself and he just did what his body and mind wanted to do at that moment. What he felt was right. But how does he tell you that without sounding like a complete weirdo? His heart starts beating faster than ever and now thoughts start flooding his mind. Will you hate him for this? Will you two get into a fight? Will you not talk to him for a while? What if he loses you? He cannot tell you the truth.

But his thoughts stop when he feels someone shaking him lightly.

“Taka, snap out of it.” You softly say as you see him gather himself and stand straight again.

“Let’s go for a ride, (Y/N).” He suggests but you cut it short.

“No. We have to talk. What is happening?”

And you see him collecting his thoughts while he tries to speak up. His lips part open for a second and then he closes them. It feels like time slowed down while Mitsuya tries to spit the words out. But it feels like there’s a clump of dirt in his throat getting bigger than ever and for a second Mitsuya looks like a kid again. Lost and afraid, not knowing if he’s going down the right path. You take his hand into yours and with your thumb start drawing circles on his palm, trying to calm him down.

“Don’t hate me after this.” He mumbles.

“I won’t. I could never hate you, Taka.” You softly smile at him.

He needed you now, you think. More than ever. Maybe something happened at home? Maybe there were problems with the gang? Maybe-

“I got jealous.”

Oh?

“Why?” You tilt your head and he thinks you couldn’t look prettier. The moonlight shines on your face and makes it look even more angelic than ever.

“I.. (Y/N). I like you.”

“I like you too, Taka.”

“No. You don’t get it. I like you more than a friend. (Y/N) I got jealous because I want you to laugh at my jokes. I want to be the one to make you smile and I want you to look at me. It made me mad that that guy was getting your full attention and-“ he suddenly stops and his eyes get wider. “I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry, I spoke too much didn’t I?” He moves his hand away from yours and tries to sit down on his bike, but before he can do that he feels your arms snake around his torso.

“Mitsuya Takashi. You’re a complete idiot.” You whisper. “I see only you. I love you.”

He turns around and you see the shock in his eyes. He puts his hand on your cheek and stares deeply into your eyes before asking.

“Can I kiss you?”

Relationships with TR men

|Haitani Ran|Hanma Shuji|Draken x reader

Angsty in Draken’s part

Haitani Ran

Brent Faiyaz-Role model

After meeting Ran while you worked as a bartender for a club In Roppongi your life changed. With him it was like living in a movie. Everything was fast, shiny, expensive, dangerous. Every day felt like an adventure, yet a dangerous one. He was a part of a big and dangerous gang and you knew when you got with him you signed a contract with death. You became a target to other gangs going after Toman. But with his name and power he got you the best security in Japan, not wanting to risk losing you.

Ran as a person is cocky and likes when everyone in the room stares at him when he walks in. The attention always has to be on him and he does attract it with his look and expensive personality.

Still, Ran had a personality that drew you in despite his lavish appearance. He made you feel like you were the centre of his world. You were enchanted by his presence, needing both his company and the rush that came from being by his side.

You became more and more involved in Ran's life and the dangerous and dark world of organized crime. You watched the gang's threats of violence, power conflicts over territory, and tortures of the poor souls that crossed Toman. Loyalty was valued highly in that society, and betrayal may have severe consequences. Ran always made sure you were safe despite the danger.

Living with Ran was like balancing dangerously on the edge of a cliff; one false move would send everything tumbling off. But despite the chaos, you were prepared to take that chance because you discovered a love that was both thrilling and addictive.

———

Hanma Shuji

The Weeknd - house of balloons / glass table girls

You were warned about guys like him ever since you were a kid. Gangsters that always have a lingering scent of cigarettes around them, mysterious to the point of disappearing for a few days once in a while, always covered in blood with bruised knuckles. Hanma practically screamed the word “danger”.

He was tall and handsome with a straightforward personality. He always knew what he wanted and would do whatever he needed to get it. And the age of 17 Hanma knew he had to have you.

And at first, you were drawn to his dangerous personality. There was an undeniable curiosity in his presence. The way he carried himself with confidence, as if the world was his, intrigued you. He had this freedom that you dreamt of having. Hanma cared about nothing - his main goal in life was just to have fun.

Hanma's infatuation with you grew stronger, and he made his intentions clear. He desired to have you, not just physically but emotionally as well. It was a mix of passion and possessiveness that left you confused with yourself.

As your relationship with Hanma deepened, you found yourself at a crossroads. The warnings from your past echoed in your mind, reminding you of the potential dangers and the uncertain future that awaited you. Yet, you also couldn't deny the connection you felt with him, the chemistry that sparked between you. With him it was a battle between reason and desire.

But it wasn’t like you even had a choice.

Without you even knowing - you already belonged to Hanma before you two even started talking.

———

Draken

Lauv - who (ft. BTS)

You two were childhood friends. He was always your protector. He made sure bullies would never bother you and he spent almost every minute with you. Ever since you were kids he promised you he would marry you in the future. And you two waited for that promised moment in your lives. Though once he met Mikey, Draken changed. He started to push you out of his life without even noticing. His priority became Toman and Mikey’s younger sister Emma.

You saw how he looked at her and vice versa. Everyone was talking how they belonged together which left you feeling more lonely than ever. Not only did you feel like you were losing the guy you were in love with - you were also losing your best friend.

Though Draken made it complicated. At moments it felt like he was still that young boy who gifted you a plastic ring and called you his soulmate. It felt like he himself didn’t really know what he wanted.

You found yourself at a crossroads. Should you continue holding onto the hope that Draken would remember his promise and find his way back to you? Or should you just let go of him and the past?

The path forward was uncertain. All you could do was navigate the complexity of emotions, understanding that sometimes people change, and relationships evolve in unexpected ways.

When you felt like giving up Draken was always there-waiting for you. But once it felt like everything was perfect he would go back to Emma.

And with all of this happening you finally started to see your self worth. You chose yourself.

SUMMER

Mitsuya thinks the girl working at a convenience store near his house is kind of cute.

Fluff, bad humor. Around 1k words

Mikey hits Mitsuya on the back and lets out an over exaggerated yawn. He tries not to push the shorter friend away from him as they walk towards the small convenience store that was owned by an elder man who treated every Toman member as if his own grandchild. They started going to that store when they just formed Toman since everything there was cheaper than in other stores and it was a great deal especially for young punks like them who did not have a lot of money.

“We need some good snacks.” Mikey whines. “I don’t want crackers anymore. They’re dry and disgusting.”

Draken pulls Mikey away from Mitsuya and raises a brow while looking at the president of Toman. “If you have some money to buy better snacks then please do so.”

“Actually, Shinichiro gave me some cash today. So we will be eating good, boys.”

Baji pushes the door open and confidently walks into the store with the other boys, yelling out the old mans name to say a hello, but instead they see a girl their age sit behind the cash register with pyjama pants and an oversized hoodie.

“Who are you?” Mikey points his finger at her. “And what did you do to the old man working here?!”

“You mean my grandfather?” You raise a brow as you look all of the boys up and down.

While working at a convenience store, you find yourself meeting a bunch of interesting people who come in and out of the store. Some of them are regulars, stopping by for their daily coffee or snack, while others are just passing through. As you scan their items and make small talk, learning about their lives and interests. Some people are extremely nice and some are a bunch of weirdos who you hope to never see again, like for example a man who comes over to the store after his shift. Which does not sound weird, but when you realise it’s a man in his sixties dressed up as a clown buying a bottle of whiskey and complaining to you about how kids are a bunch of pieces of shit who should not exist at all, it does raise some concern. Though you only see him on Saturdays around 6PM.

What you haven’t seen before though was a young boy pointing a finger at you and blaming you for making your tired grandfather disappear. You heard stories about these boys from your grandpa, but never actually saw them, because you did not want to spend your free time at a convenience store. But your money has been getting low and you wanted to buy some new clothes before summer ends, so you decided to work for your grandpa for the summer.

“Sorry about him.” A tall guy with a tattoo on his head bows down a bit and grabs his friend by his shoulder dragging him away. The other’s scatter around the store looking for something to buy for their movie night. As you scan all of them once again you notice the boy with purple hair and a light bulb shines above your head.

“You’re Mitsuya, right?” You ask and he quickly turns around with a smile, answering with a yes.

You grab a bag full of sweets and give it to him.

“Pops said to give it to you once I see you. He bakes them fresh every day. Said your sisters like them or something.”

You notice how his eyes light up and he grabs the bag from your hands with a “thank you” and a bow.

“Please thank your grandfather for me. My sisters do enjoy his pastries a lot.” His eyes caught your own and you realise that they’re a really pretty colour. One you haven’t seen on other’s before or even if you did, you did not pat any attention to it. But something about Mitsuya is different. In a good way.

That day the boys leave with bags of snacks and you find yourself thinking about the boy with purple hair.

———

A few days pass and Mitsuya comes back again. This time without his friends, but instead with two little girls hanging around his arms. He introduces them as his sisters and you find it extremely cute how close they are to their brother and how they do not want to leave his side at all. But what you don’t expect is one of them giving you a compliment while you were scanning their items.

“You’re really pretty.” Luna states and you almost drop the can of tomato soup.

“Oh, thank you.” A smile finds a way onto your face and your cheeks have a rosey colour to them now. Receiving compliments from elders, or young boys will never be the same as receiving compliments from kids. Elders lie through their teeth, while boys just want to get with you, girls give you compliments and then talk shit behind your back. But kids.. Kids are ruthless. They always spit the truth. “You and your sister are prettier though.” You wink at them and as Mitsuya looks at you smiling at his little sisters he realises that you are very pretty indeed. How your eyes started to shine after his sister gave you a compliment and how cute your crooked smile was.

After they leave Mitsuya thinks to himself that he needs to come there more often, even if he doesn’t have a lot of money in his pockets.

———

The third time he comes, he’s there alone. He only grabs a pack of gummy bears and a milk carton.

“That’s a weird combo.” You raise a brow and tilt your head to the side.

“Don’t say anything about it.” He sighs.

“You sure this is safe? You won’t be running to the toilet in like five minutes to shit your guts out?”

“You have a foul mouth.” Mitsuya starts to laugh. “The gummy bears are for Luna and Mana, while the milk is for my mom.”

“My bad.” You smirk. “Thought you were a weirdo for a second there.” And Mistuya laughs again.

As you look at him laugh, you start to realize that he's kind of cute, and you feel a flutter in your chest. As he leaves the store you find yourself waiting for him to come back again.

And Mitsuya makes sure he does just that. He just needs to make a plan how to get your number.

High school sweethearts

My fav TR characters as your high school sweethearts.

Haitani Rindou, Kawata Nahoya, Madarame Shion, Wakasa Imaushi, Kawaragi Senju, Shiba Yuzuha x gn!reader

Haitani Rindou/the hot quiet guy

♡We all (ok maybe not all but still) knew/know a guy like that in high school. He was always so quiet, but had the best facial expressions and also sometimes had arguments with the teachers or other students. He’s smart and is probably into history and chemistry.

♡A lot of people thought he was hot and tried to get a date with him, but failed. There were rumours that he was asexual, aromantic. Some people thought that he might have a significant other that goes to another school.

♡But he was actually just into you and didn’t know how to confess. You were this artsy person who wasn’t dumb, but wasn’t the smartest either. Rindou always thought you were cute and you two actually sat together in some classes. That’s how he got to know you.

♡After he confessed and you two started dating, EVERYONE was talking about it. It was a surprise that someone managed to date with the younger Haitani. People would turn heads to look at you two when you’d enter the school halls together, holding each other’s hands.

♡Rindou’s a sweetheart. He cares a lot about you and your happiness is his number one priority.

♡Cute caffe dates, carnival dates, picnics, zoo’s and etc. Loves taking pictures of you and has a folder full of pictures of you smiling.

♡His brother calls him a simp and sometimes makes jokes about how down bad he is for you. But he’s actually really happy for Rindou and loves you and how great you two treat each other. (He’s your number one supporter).

Kawata Nahoya/the jock and class clown

♡He’s that loud guy who disrespects the teacher and never listens to anything. Has fallen asleep during lessons.

♡But his jokes are really funny. Probably says them during the lesson and the whole class just starts laughing while the teacher is turning red from all of the anger.

♡Never does any homework, but he passes all of the tests/exams?? And get’s a really good grade too.

♡The two of you are the funniest couple in school that everyone loves, but also are jealous of. Gossips about you can always be heard.

♡You two always argue, but mostly in a joking manner. Like your whole relationship is so funny, but most people don’t realise that you two are joking. And that’s when the “I think they broke up.” or “They actually hate each other. I don’t even know why they were dating.” rumours begin.

♡You wear his jersey with his name on it. He lives for the days he gets to see you in it. Your number one hype man.

♡You get along with his brother and his mom loves you.

♡They’re all waiting for the wedding invitations lol

Madarame Shion/the most annoying guy in class

♡Literally never shuts up. Rarely shows up too. And if he does he spends most of his time in detentions. How is he not expelled yet?

♡Most people find him extremely annoying. He always boasts about his achievements and lies a lot too. Is his story real? Is it fake? You will never know.

♡When you two started dating everyone was shocked.

♡The sweetest person in school dating that asshole? No way. They thought he forced you into a relationship with him and asked if you are ok.

♡You actually found him funny and loved listening to everything he had to say. He never lied to you.

♡Shion might be an asshole but he respects you a lot and he loves you too. You were the only one to shower him with so much affection.

♡He gives off golden retriever energy.

Wakasa Imaushi/hottest guy in school

♡Everyone knows how good looking he is. Those eyes that enchant people, that smirk that makes the girls and guys go crazy, his smooth voice and that fluffy blonde hair. He was basically perfect and he himself knew that.

♡He used his looks to get whatever he wants. He got candy from the people that liked him, they brought him lunch, they did his homework. He was an asshole, but he was smart.

♡He never really liked anyone, but you caught his eye.

♡You were the new kid. Got there from another country and everyone was all up on you. You were extremely beautiful and he just had to make you his.

♡He tried everything, but it was unsuccessful. You just weren’t interested in him. He was too much of a stuck up for you. You had heard stories about him from others and you could he how he used others for his own benefits.

♡Throughout the whole high school years he only managed to become your friend. But he was still into you. And on the last day of school he once again stopped besides your locker and asked you out.

♡What he didn’t expect was for you to actually agree.

♡Now all he had to do was show you that he’s worth your time.

Kawaragi Senju/nicest girl in school

♡You noticed her first. It was hard not to. She was bubbly, loud and always nice. She had a smile on her face everyday and she talked to anyone and everyone.

♡You were the quiet type and you didn’t want to approach her first so you’d just watch her from afar.

♡She noticed that you’d look at her sometimes, but you had this unreadable face and she actually thought that you hated her.

♡You two were assigned to work on a project together and that’s when she realised how cool and fun you are. After the project was done you two gad already became best friends.

♡You’d be seen everywhere together. And if one of you was alone it still meant that the other would be there soon.

♡It wasn’t surprising to anyone once you started dating. The kids from school had been rooting for you since day one.

♡You two wear matching outfits, have matching jewellery, always take pictures of you two together and post them on instagram. Literal couple goals.

♡Ice cream dates!!!

♡She loves you so much. She writes your name with her surname on her notebooks (and sometimes she writes her name with your surname and draws a lot of hearts around it). Always day dreams about your future and your wedding.

♡If she could she would propose right now.

Shiba Yuzuha/the girl that everyone likes

♡Prettiest girl in school.

♡She canonically has a fan club for her in school which is full of girls that adore her if I remember correctly lol

♡She’s so nice, but still she’s quiet and reserved. You just have to talk to her first to make her open up more. After a while she’d start coming up to you first.

♡She’s strict and cares about her grades a lot while you were a complete opposite.

♡At first she felt a disliking towards you. But it changed after she had nowhere else to sit during lunch and she had to sit next to you.

♡You made her laugh a lot and she actually had an extremely fun time. She smiled while walking home from school while thinking about you.

♡You two started hanging out around school at first. Then you’d start going to caffe’s together, then to the park, then bowling.

♡And then one day she just asked you out on a date.

♡Power couple.

♡Everyone loves you two

♡Mitsuya LOVES you and Hakkai does too but he’s a little shy so he just malfunctions whenever you talk to him

CIGARETTES

Shinichiro x gn!reader

Fluff to angst. Character death.

You always hated cigarettes. The smell, the concept - everything about them disgusted you.

Poor little Liddy used to always quit

But she never really quit

She'd just say she did

At the age of sixteen Shinichiro tried his first cigarette. He took it from Takeomi who already had the cancer stick between his lips. It was disgusting, he started coughing and tried to spit out the taste as much as possible. And when it didn’t work he tried chewing gum which Benkei forced into his palm. He bought a can of soda from a near by corner shop and stole a lolly pop from Wakasa. His friends laughed at him and Shinichiro swore to himself that he’d never smoke again.

“That’s good.” You smile at him as he sat in your bedroom after sneaking in through the window. “I hate cigarettes. They smell bad and I wouldn’t kiss you if you smoked.”

At the age of seventeen Shinichiro took his second cigarette, thinking things would be different. He stole it from Takeomi. He always had a pack of red Marlboro’s in his gang jacket. And since he accidentally left it in Shin’s room, he decided to try again. This time alone in the comfort of his own room. It was still disgusting. Shinichiro started coughing again and took a glass of apple juice that he already had prepared for himself. Though at that moment he decided to try and smoke the whole stick. Even if it meant he’d feel like vomiting.

“It looks cool.” He murmurs to himself. “I wanna be as cool as them.”

At the age of eighteen Shinichiro had a hidden pack of cigarettes in his room. He didn’t want you to know about him smoking. He thought you didn’t need to know. After all it was nothing serious. He only smoked once every couple of weeks, to look cool around the guys. He knew you hated everything about cigarettes. From the smell that lingered around people that smoked them to the fact that they killed people. “Anything can kill us.” Shinichiro once told you and you just shook your head telling him that he wouldn’t understand. And he remembered your threat about you not kissing him. So he decided to just keep this information to himself. After all what you don’t know won’t hurt you.

“Yeah I usually smoke in the mornings, outside my room.” He smirks at Benkei.

At the age of nineteen Shinichiro couldn’t hide the fact that he smoked anymore. The smell was always with him whenever he came over to visit you. It was stuck on his dirty white shirt, it was stuck in his hair, it was stuck on his hand and it was especially stuck on his lips and tongue when he kissed you. You pushed him off of you and made a disgusted face. “It’s gross. I don’t want to kiss you after you just smoked.” You sat further away from him and looked at the posters decorating your room. Shinichiro felt his heart break after you moved away from him after breaking your kiss off.

“I’m sorry. I promise I’ll quit.” He says before laying down.

At the age of twenty Shinichiro only smoked when he worked on bikes. Which was around once a week. You grew accustomed to the smell. Well slightly. You still weren’t a big fan and Shinichiro respected that. And you respected him by not being controlling and letting him do what he wants. The only rule was to not smoke before meeting you and while he was with you.

Mikey sat beside his brother watching him work with a big smile. “One day I’ll be just like you, Shin.”

At the age of twenty one Shinichiro smoked cigarettes way more often. He was stressed. He disbanded the Black Dragon and opened up his new bike shop. Of course it all went well, but he didn’t know when to stop. He overworked himself and spent almost all of his days there. You came to visit him some days when you had free time, but you had been busy working as well. After all the two of you wanted to start renting out a place together and you needed the money. You stoped bugging Shin about the smell of cigarettes and kissed him even after he smoked. The two of you were always working and you tried to cherish every minute you could be together.

At the age of twenty two you had already been living together. Everything was going great and the two of you couldn’t be happier. Shinichiro was living the life of his dreams with you by his side and he knew it was time for more. It was time to take the next step. He decided to buy you a ring and propose. With the help of his closest friends Wakasa, Takeomi and Benkei he found the perfect ring and they planned a perfect proposal. He swore he could feel his heart explode with excitement. You will finally become a Sano.

At the age of twenty three Shinichiro lost his life. It was tragedy which no one expected. And the fact that it was caused by his younger brother’s friends made the situation way more heartbreaking. A jacket which always hung in his shop, was given to you by his grandfather. And in the pocked you found something that you probably shouldn’t have.

You attended his funeral dressed in all black and with an engagement ring on your finger. “You’re Shinichiro’s girlfriend/boyfriend/partner right?” A guy asked. He was a member of the Black Dragon before it disbanded and you only met him once before. “No. I’m his fiancé.”

At the age of twenty four you became addicted to cigarettes, because only they brought you comfort. The smell reminded you of your dead lover and that was enough for now. You smoked when you were out with Shinichiro’s and now your friends, you smoked in restaurants, you smoked in parks, you smoked inside your own home. Whenever you needed to feel Shinichiro’s presence, you took out a lighter and a pack of cigarettes out of the jacket that was given to you after his death.

We'll find moonlit nights strangely empty

Because when you call my name through them

There will be no answer

Rather melodramatic, aren't you?

Bound 2

Mikey, Haitani Ran, Haitani Rindou, Shion Madarame x gn!reader

They fall for you

Bound to fall in love <3

Sano Manjiro

I know I got a bad reputation

Walking 'round, always mad reputation

He was a well known delinquent around Japan. Many already knew his last name, because of his older brother Shinichiro, but it was obvious how different they were. Mikey was ruthless, he didn’t care about anything and anyone. His main purpose in life was to create chaos and bring pain. While Shinichiro was a delinquent who cared about everyone. He did what made him happy and he tried to help out other’s as well. That’s why his death brought many to tears, Shinichiro was named as a legend which no one would ever forget.

But for Mikey.. People prayed for Mikey’s downfall and that should’ve been one of the biggest red flags for you. But you didn’t care about any of that. What you cared about was how he treated you. He saw you as an equal and promised to protect you with his whole life. He met you when he was still in Toman. He was buying midnight snacks when you came into the small shop near his house. It wasn’t love at first sight, but he knew you’d be something to him. A friend, an enemy, or a lover - he didn’t know. But he had a feeling. And he was right. You two became close extremely fast.

At nights he’d hold you close and whisper about your future. How he wants to marry you, even though he knows it’s not safe. He even thought about leaving this life behind, but that wasn’t possible. He’d ask you to never leave him. Mikey was broken, after losing so much. And you’d stay with him until the very end. Even if it meant losing your sanity.

Haitani Ran

Leave a pretty girl sad reputation

He was a playboy. Breaking the hearts of guys and girls without any shame or guilt. He had the looks and the personality and that was enough. People knew how he was, but they still expected to be the one for Ran. But the relationships ended not even a month in. Haitani was capable of having a good relationship, but he just never found the right one. Deciding to just indulge in one night stands. But that was until he met you.

You were so rude and cold towards him. You had no fear, even though you knew the power his name held. You thought he was the most annoying person to exist on this planet and he thought you were the most perfect human being. But of course it was hard for him to convince you that he actually liked you. Ran was cursing out himself for building the reputation he had and Rindou was laughing at his older brother’s problem.

He knew it would take a long while to make you believe him. But he was persistent. He wouldn’t give up. Not until he had you in his arms.

Haitani Rindou

Start a Fight Club, Brad reputation

I turnt the nightclub out of the basement

Haitani Rindou was known for a lot of things. He was a delinquent, he helped his brother kill someone at the age of twelve, he spent a lot of his teenage years in Juvie, he was known as a celebrity in Roppongi and around school he was also known for being rude and cold towards other students, pushing them around with his brother. Basically, he wasn’t a good person and everyone and their moms knew this. Following the footsteps of his older brother Ran, he built himself a name which brought fear to many. The only exceptions to this were his brother, his friends and for some reason - you.

You had just moved to Japan, not having any family there, or knowing anyone in that country in general. Your dad got a job in Tokyo and he took this opportunity to make more money. Of course you weren’t too fond of this idea, but who were you to crush his dreams. So you sucked it all in and decided to just keep quiet. Surprisingly it wasn’t too bad. Even though you were in the centre of attention (good and bad) you enjoyed making new friends and joining clubs. Mostly everything was going great, until the day you bumped into the famous Haitani Rindou. You had heard stories about him from your new friends, but he wasn’t what you had expected him to be.

He made sure you were okay and was blushing the whole time you two talked. What you didn’t know was how you managed to consume his mind. You were all he could think about. Your smile, your eyes, your cute accent and the funny way you pronounced words. Rindou managed to develop the biggest crush on you just by talking to you for a few minutes.

“Hey, there’s a party at my place.” He clears his throat. “On friday. I’ll be the dj. Come over?”

“For sure.” You smile at him and write down your number on a small piece of paper.

That was a start of a long lasting relationship.

Shion Madarame

And ay, ayo, we made to Thanksgiving

So ay, maybe we can make it to Christmas

Shion wasn’t the best at showing his emotions. He couldn’t tell you how he felt most of the time. Maybe it was because of pride, or maybe he was never taught to speak out. You didn’t know. But you did know that he loved you. You knew from the high school days, when he bumped into you on accident and then blamed it all on you.

He was a dumbass. He was forgetful, rude, way too stuck up and egoistic. Even after losing a fight, he’d walk with his head high and you didn’t know if that was a good, or a bad thing. All you knew was that you’d be there to patch him up. And even if he didn’t show it - he was grateful. Shion never thought you’d like him back. You were way too good for him. But he never regretted the stupid letter he wrote to you when he was sixteen. He’d always remember how you smiled while reading it and how you knew that it was him.

Now, he walked around the streets of Japan with you in his arms, his head still held high, but for different reasons. Shion knew they were all jealous of him. After all, you were a beauty to behold.

Hiii, it's me, the anon who sends random ideas. I have a question, who do you think have the possibility to be a toxic friend from all the tr characters ? I personally came up with a thought that Rindou and Senju could be a jealous and possessive friend bc both of them don't have things of their own, like Rindou with his brother and Senju having to follow Mikey and his friends. The type to guilt trip you to spend time with them instead of your other friends ya know.

Hey!!Oh for sure the both of them would be possessive friends. And they wouldn’t even really feel bad about it. They would be greedy in this aspect, since they didn’t really have anything of their own.

Senju, Sanzu, Rindou, Yuzuha

Senju would try to spend as much time with you as possible and would think of many different ideas on how to spend it with you. Shopping sprees, amusement parks, zoo’s, the beach and etc. Every day she would call you in the morning (or even the night prior) to make plans with you. To be sure you won’t spend your time with anyone else. She’d sometimes show up at your door at like 9AM without you expecting it. Even if it started to annoy you, you couldn’t leave her. She’d start crying and talking about her past. She’d guilt trip you into staying her best friend.

Sanzu is crazy loyal. He’d do anything for you and he expects the same from you. He’d follow you to the depts of hell if needed. So he thinks it’s normal how he wants you to only be friends with him. Why do you need other friends? Isn’t he enough? You’re going to leave him like everyone esle, won’t you? Oh, he has other friends (Mikey)? So what? He has to follow Mikey, he promised. And you promised him to stay his friend forever. So what if you made that promise when the both of you were really young? Are you really going to break it? He won’t let you.

Rindou is also a younger sibling. He grew up being jealous of everything Ran had. He was way more popular than Rindou and everything about his older brother annoyed him. So when he finally met you and had his own best friend; he made sure you stayed as far away from Ran as possible (and other people too). He took you everywhere with him and made sure you wouldn’t hang out with other people. And if you did, he’d beat them up after. You started losing friends without knowing the reason (which was Rindou himself). It made you feel sad and the only person who stayed with you was in fact the younger Haitani. He’s such a good friend isn’t he?

Yuzuha is the middle child. But after growing up in a toxic and abusive environment all she ever needed was a fresh breath of air - which was you. Of course she had Hakkai and Mitsuya. But that wasn’t the same. She wanted to have someone she could call her own best friend. And when she met you, she was so excited to finally have someone she could confide in whenever she needed, someone she could text or call at 3am and talk about anything and everything. She won’t let you go. Never.

LOVE ME ♡

Rindou, Sanzu, Senju, Mikey, Hanma x gn!reader

Yandere TR characters

Warning: Possessive behaviour, manipulation, kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome, character death, stalking, creepy behaviour, yandere. Maybe manga spoilers in Hanma’s part? Mostly a theory. Read at your own risk. This contains themes that some viewers may find disturbing.

Haitani Rindou

♡ One of the best ones in my opinion. He did get ranked 2nd as “best boyfriends” of Tenjiku.

♡ He would treat you so good. Loves spoiling you. Buys you all of the things that reminds him of you. Takes you out for dinner, or gets takeout and brings it to your apartment. Takes care of you and is always there for you when you need him.

♡ He’d make playlists for you with songs that make him think about you and loves it if you do the same. Would listen to the playlist you made on repeat for hours, maybe even while he falls asleep.

♡ He doesn’t keep his mouth shut about you. Ran always hears your name and he’s happy that his younger brother has a s/o which he loves dearly.

♡ He keeps all of the things you buy/give him or throw away in a box and takes them out whenever he misses you. Though he prefers to just meet up with you, but if you’re busy then he has no choice but to do that.

♡ A stalker. Will stalk you even after you start dating. You always feel someone behind you and it sends chills to your spine. You message your lovely boyfriend Rindou about how you feel as if you’re being followed. His responses are always “Don’t worry, it’s probably just your imagination. You know I’d never let anything bad happen to you.” And it’s true. Since he’s always wherever you are.

♡ The only times you ever notice his weird behaviour is when guys flirt with you. He’d never hurt a girl, so he just let’s them slide with a warning glare. The guys though.. He tries not to fight with them, but you do notice how tense he gets. And the cold look he gives them, makes you feel kinda scared even if that anger isn’t towards you.

♡ You don’t know it, but he kills all of those guys.

♡ Anything he needs to do to make sure you never leave, he will. Even if it meant hurting the people you hold close to your heart. After all, the only person who owns your heart should be Rindou. Right?

Sanzu Haruchiyo

♡ One of the worst yanderes. Have you seen him? The only positive is that he’ll do anything for you. Anything.

♡ He stalks you and doesn’t even try to hide it. You know he’s behind you, but you’re too scared to say anything about it to him. You knew how he could get. Your friends and people you didn’t even know did try to warn you about him, but you thought they were all just rumours. After all he was so good towards you.

♡ He doesn’t think the relationship is complicated in any way. All he wants is for you to love him. Is he asking for too much?

♡ He doesn’t understand that what he’s feeling towards you isn’t normal. He’s obsessed. He just wants to be with you always. Forever. Until death. He wants to know everything about you. He wants to know every single thought of yours.

♡ The relationship is extremely toxic. Are you surprised?

♡ You’re creeped out by him already? Oh my. You still don’t know so much. He has hidden cameras in your house. He looks at you through your window. He has old and new polaroids of you in random places that he took without you knowing he was even there.

♡ It’s too late for you to even consider leaving him. He’d do anything to keep you to himself. He’d kidnap you if needed.

♡ He most definitely has a shrine for you hidden in his room. And he keeps on adding to the collection.

Kawaragi Senju

♡ She just wants to have you to herself. Similar to Sanzu, she wants to spend every single minute of the day with you. She takes you shopping, on dates, she buys you whatever you lay your eyes on even if you tell her not to, she has pictures of you on her wall.

♡ She always somehow ends up wherever you are. Oh, you wanted to go shopping alone? She had the same idea. How cute, you can go together! You wanted to hang out with other people? Would you look at that, she bumped into you in the middle of the busy street. What a coincidence!

♡ After Brahman disbanded she got to spend more time with you. And now since she felt so so sad, you were there for her. You played with her hair, cuddled her, gave her assuring kisses. Oh how much she enjoyed it. She decided to be sad for a longer while she never really felt sad.

♡ She’s such a jealous person. She never really had any friends of her own, always following Haru and his friends, or Takeomi and his friends. And now she has you! You were all hers. And she didn’t like sharing.

♡ She showed more of her disturbing side a year into your relationship. But you didn’t really look into it. After all no one is perfect you are perfect to her.

♡ You noticed some pictures on her wall that you didn’t remember her take. Or you didn’t even remember that you spent that day with her. Weren’t you with your friends then? No. You must be mistaken. You two did meet up! Silly you. Don’t ask any more dumb questions.

Sano Manjiro

♡ Oh boy.

♡ Obsessed.

♡ Like literally doesn’t imagine a life without you. He already lost so much. He had to say his final goodbyes to so many friends and family members. He won’t take any risks with you.

♡ Kidnaps you and locks you in a room.

♡ The room is extremely huge and beautiful. It has everything you might ever need. Maybe even more.

♡ You are monitored by his men. They stand around the house while he is out to make sure that you never try to leave.

♡ You might not like him yet. But you will. He’ll make sure of it. If you don’t like the idea of loving him, he won’t give a shit. He’d be mad and force you to spend time with him. Might even use violence if needed.

♡ If you do develop stockholm syndrome, he won’t treat you that differently than before. Of course he won’t be mad at you anymore, but he isn’t okay in the head and he doesn’t understand what love is. He is also a gang leader, so he doesn’t have that much time to spare for you. But he does buy you a lot of stuff.

♡ Another yandere which loves spoiling you.

♡ He’s bad at showing his emotions so don’t expect anything from him. Like he won’t hold you close, give you sweet morning kisses and etc. He does love you. But that won’t change the man he is.

Hanma Shuji

♡ Crazy. Hates people, hates everyone, but for some reason he just has a sweet spot for you he’s literally obsessed.

♡ Will do anything to keep you his. Will chain you to the bed if needed. This man does not care about how you feel, he only thinks about himself. Whatever he wants he gets. And he wants you.

♡ Another stalker. Has pictures of you he took some even while you’re changing clothes. Has to know everything about you,but also doesn’t really care? It depends on his mood. He might sit and listen to you for hours, or he might not talk to you at all.

♡ In my opinion he is the second time leaper. So let’s say in a few futures you manage to escape him/be with someone else. He will change that. Will do whatever he needs to make sure you’re his in the future timeline too. Will go back and kill that person if needed.

♡ You know he’s messed up in the head. Knew even before you two started dating. It was obvious, he doesn’t eve try to hide the fact that he’s not normal.

♡ It was your choice to show him your attention even if you didn’t, he’d find a way to make you his now you’re stuck with him.

Kanto Manji gang Mikey who just doesn’t understand what’s going on with him. He’s never felt this way towards anyone, but as he watches you dance with your friends, moving your body to the rhythm of a song he’s never heard before, he feels his heart start beating faster. Your beauty was ethereal and as everyone else was talking about gang related stuff, his eyes just kept following you. There was a fight going on inside his head, blocking out the sound of Haruchiyo’s voice. Should he walk up to you? Or should he just watch from the sidelines as if you’re a work of art which he cannot touch.

You’re not stupid. You felt someone stare at you the whole night and you knew who that someone is. Yes, he was a sight to behold, but the aura surrounding him was dark. You knew what people like him do for a living, how the pain of others bring them joy. You kept on dancing, hoping he won’t come close to you and try to win your heart over. Because if he does, you most certainly know there won’t be any escaping him.

SERIOUSLY?

Kawata Nahoya x gn!reader

Warning: dumb relationship, maybe slightly toxic?, two teenagers in love. Fluff and humour.

You try to sleep after a fight with your boyfriend, but he has other plans.

Emma frowns after looking around and not noticing the person she was hoping to see in the crowd full of teenage boys.

"Guess you won't meet them today." She scratches her head and takes a look at Hina who was sending daggers with her eyes towards a beat up Takemichi.

"Wait why?" Hina raises her brows. She was excited to meet a new person that could possibly become her friend.

"They probably got into a fight again." She huffs.

"They?"

"(Y/N)-san is dating Smiley. The guy with curly pink hair." She nods towards a guy who was talking to another boy with curly hair, who by the looks of it is his twin. "They're both.. in an interesting relationship to say the least. They've been dating for a year now and have broken up like thirty times or something."

Hina parts her lips in surprise and widens her eyes.

"Oh but don't worry! They’re a really cool person." Emma smiles. "The both of them are good people. Just not always with each other. But it's their business. C'mon, let's leave the guys to do their thing. We can get to know each other more!"

———

You hear your phone notification go off and you open your eyes, still dazed after being woken up from the dream world.

"Who the hell has the nerve to wake me up from my beauty sleep." You angrily take your phone from the stand near your bed and look at the screen.

You hear a motorcycle engine getting closer and you step out of your house in your oversized shirt and shorts, after putting on the first pair of shoes you could find, which were ugly green crocs. You squint your eyes while looking at Nahoya and start tapping your foot on the wooden porch.

He jumps off of his bike and looks at you while laughing.

"You look like my mom who's about to give me an ass whooping." He grabs the bag that contained the food. "Also nice crocs."

"Give me the food and leave." You cross your arms on your chest.

“Nah, you gotta give me a kiss on the cheek first, cutie."

"You told me to wake my ugly ass up a few hours ago, bitchass."

He shows his signature smile, that looked more genuine now, as he walks up to you. He leans down a bit and kisses your forehead, snaking one of his arms around your waist.

"Let's go, big head. I know you're hungry." He starts pulling you into your house. You shush him as the two of you near your room.

"Your big ass mouth will wake up my parents if you don't shut the hell up." You throw him a dirty look, as he giggles loudly once again.

He closes the door and puts the bag containing the food on your table. He then runs towards your bed and jumps on it.

"Nahoya.. what are you doing?"

"Getting comfortable? How else am I supposed to eat?"

"Dude.. You are not eating on my bed. There's a thing called a table." You roll your eyes and open up the bag.

You take out the ramen and utensils. You pull a second chair near the table and sit down on one of them, patting the other so Nahoya would sit down.

He groans and slides off of the bed. As he tries to get comfortable, you already start eating.

Nahoya and his brother were always good cooks. From the start of your relationship you were always impressed by their cooking skills. Maybe they'll open up a restaurant or something in the future.

"Eat well, pretty." Nahoya smiles and starts eating as well.

"Yeah yeah you too."

After you finished eating, you thank him for the food and laid down on your bed, pulling the covers over your body. Nahoya also laid down and you gave him a questioning look.

"What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"What're you doing?"

"The fuck does it look like? I'm getting comfortable. We're having a sleepover." He answers like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

You look at him and just then realise that he came here, wearing his pyjama pants and a black shirt. You part your lips and then quickly close them after letting out a sigh.

"You're lucky my parents like you."

"Yeah yeah.. Horror movie marathon?"

BONUS:

Nahoya quickly sits up, cursing at everything. He jumps out of the bed after looking at the time and starts looking around for his stuff.

"'Hoya.. What's up?" You ask, your morning voice all scratchy.

"School already started, I have a test today!" He panics.

"Motherfucker it's a Saturday." You turn around and try to fall asleep.

He stands there in silence and slowly gets back in bed.

"This never happened."

"Mhm.."

"I can't fall asleep anymore."

"I can. Night."

"But (Y/N).." he whines. "I'm bored."

"Go annoy your brother."

Aye , this isn’t a request or an ask just a anon sendin love

That ride or die fanfic had my ass in TEARS, good job I’m lovin yo page and I hope you continue, don’t let a mfka tell you otherwise cuz yo ass is amazing ❤️❤️❤️✌🏽✌🏽

Thank you so much!! This made me so happy when I saw this first thing in the morning <33 I’m glad you enjoyed ride or die I had so much fun writing it and I’m also really glad you’re loving my page <333 I hope you have a great morning/day/night^^

Without you

Kanto Manji members (Mikey, Kokonoi, Wakasa, Benkei, Kakucho, Shion, Mocchi) x gn!reader

pt. 1 with Haitani brothers, Sanzu, Hanma

They ruin your relationship and then regret it, but it’s too late.

Mentions of drugs, blood, toxic relationships. A tiny bit suggestive in Shion’s part

♫ Now playing: 21 Savage - ball w/o you

~I thought it was a love, until I woke up

And had an epiphany~

Kokonoi Hajime

You runnin' 'round drinkin' liquor

Takin' pictures 'cause you miss me

(I know you miss me)

Kokonoi finished his fifth glass of liquor and took a look at his surroundings. His head was feeling fuzzy and he was starting to feel a little sick. He was never really a fan of alcohol, since it was a distraction from his main goal in life - money. He had to be sober and levelheaded to get as much as possible. But this time it was different. He ruined the best thing in his life and now he was drowning in his thoughts, hoping to come up with a solution to fix his problem.

Just last week he raised his voice at you, but that wasn’t the worst part. All of the anger and stress that built up from Kanto Manji problems made him blind and he let out all of his dark emotions on you. And you just stood there and listened. It wasn’t the first time and you knew it wouldn’t be the last. So without a word you went into his room and took all of your belongings, putting them in a bag.

“What the fuck are you doing?” Kokonoi punched the bedroom wall. His heart was beating extremely fast and he didn’t know what to do.

“What I should’ve done a long time ago.”

And now all he could do was take a picture of a random person and hope that you at least get jealous and decide to text or call him.

Sano Manjiro

It don't take much to love

You can love somebody just by being attached

/ I just wish your love wouldn't fade away

Mikey was lost in his own head. He didn’t feel any emotions anymore, numb to everything and everyone. In the moment he felt like it was the best choice for the both of you. You were just a distraction in his eyes and his main goal was to make sure that Kanto Manji would be on top always. So he packed your bags for you and left them in the bedroom. When you came back and saw everything you just shook your head and left with everything that you had. You knew this relationship wouldn’t work for too long. Mikey wasn’t Mikey anymore and you fell out of love a while ago.

Now Mikey sat in the meeting room and stared at the wall in front of him. Once again lost in his own thoughts. But this time they were all about you. He missed you. He needed you by his side. But as much as his hands itched to grab the phone and call you, he still knew that this was for the best. At the end of the day he only caused you pain and put you in danger.

Wakasa Imaushi

You crossed me once, it's fuck you forever

Wakasa’s head was in his hands. There were bottles of alcohol laying around his living room and Benkei was sitting near him, letting out a displeased sigh. Ever since the day he decided to betray Senju and join Kanto Manji Gang, you hadn’t spoken to him. Benkei couldn’t blame you and neither could Wakasa. The both of them knew how much Senju meant to you. She was like your kid. You were the first one to get your Brahman uniform, because Senju cherished you so much. Wakasa tried to get another can of beer, but Benkei stopped him.

“This isn’t going to help you, y’know?”

Wakasa thinks about the day you left. How heartbroken you looked even though you tried to hide your pain. But the glow and pain in your eyes showed different. You called him a lot of different names, pointing a finger at him and calling him a disgusting monster, telling him how he fucked up by losing your trust. And he knew it was true. Earning your trust was a difficult task. And he couldn’t believe that he actually managed to break the bond that the two of you had. You were and still are his world. And to you he’s just a memory.

Arashi Keizo

You could find love, get married, have kids

I'd still be realest to hit it

Benkei was a family guy. He dreamt of having a big family, wether it was by adopting or having his own kids. And he always dreamt about that future with you by his side. But that changed after he joined Kanto. The gang was way different that all of the gangs he has been in before. Except his own. The old Benkei was coming back and he knew it himself. You knew it. Everyone knew it. The blood on his hands and face was a clear sigh of it. And that caused a lot of problems in your relationship. He became cold and distant, making Kanto his priority. After the sixth fight between the two of you in the same week, you packed your bags and left him. The both of you were tired and being together only made it worse. You said that this would only be a break. That you needed to be alone for a while. But Benkei knew the truth. You weren’t coming back.

Shion Madarame

I was gettin' some head earlier

And you crossed my mind

Shion was enjoying himself after the breakup. He went to clubs with the Haitani brothers and Hanma, he did random drugs people gave him, he had one night stands. It was fun at first, doing everything he thought about doing while in a relationship with you. He was free, no one was stopping him from anything. He didn’t have to message you or call you, he didn’t need to see your angry face when he came back late, or missed a date. But after a while it got lonely. He had everything he ever wanted, but there was no you in sight. He missed the feeling of your arms around him, he missed how worried you always were when he came back home bruised and bloodied.

And while there was a person laying next to him after another one night stand it all seemed so dark and quiet. He turned his head to the side and took in the features of their face. They were similar to you. Not exactly the same, because no one could ever be you. But right now it was enough. And then something clicked in his brain. He’ll never have you again.

Kakucho

When it came to havin' your back, I'm so real

I prolly would've gave you my spine

You were Kakucho’s world. You were there when Izana was alive, you were there after his death when he was in the hospital. You were with him when he was beat up by South and had to join his gang and you were there when he joined Kanto. No matter how many stupid and dangerous mistakes he made, you were always there. You extended a helping hand towards him with the biggest smile on your face. But he was so lost in the gang life, he didn’t see how he never really did the same to you. He always left you hanging. And now he couldn’t turn back time and change the things he did. How cold he treated you. A few tears run down his face and he hopes you can forgive him. He knows you won’t take him back, but he still wants you to know that he only wishes the best for you.

Mochizuki Kanji

I'm as solid as they come, but you crossed the line

Yeah, you best start keepin' it real, I can see the signs

Mocchi was always known as a scary guy. His build and height increased the fear for other’s. But he never scared you. No matter how many people he beat up with ease, how he could easily break you without even trying. You never feared him. You held respect towards him, knowing his life wasn’t easy. And with that knowledge he used you. He used your love, since he knew you would do anything for him. But what he didn’t know was how you knew all of that. He used your kindness and then was left without it. And now he had to see you give your heart to someone else.

Oho someone who's fine with ppl sending ideas. Platonic toman with a male!member reader who lacks self-awareness. Like bby passed by an entire rival gang while wearing toman's uniform just to get donuts (and somehow came back to the hideout self and sound with a box of donuts), accidentally offended other influential delinquents while Takemichi stared in horror, wondered off somewhere during important times. Wdyt ? Btw it's inspired by your mbti since intp's have inferior fe. Wdyt of this ?

“Oh and that, and toman with a m!member reader who takes the items of the delinquents he beats, and also gifts it to the other members. There's that one time when Draken received motor parts for a week straight, Mitsuya receiving a cool looking belt, Emma receiving an earring, etc. The way he gifts it weirds people out though, like someone's just existing there, reader walks up to them, gives them something and walks away without speaking.”

Platonic!Toman x m!intp!reader

A couple of hc’s of Toman and they’re favourite weird dude.

Some violence and a couple of swear words. And that’s all I think. This was really fun to write

*You joined Toman, because you were a close friend of Peh. Since childhood you had spend almost every single day together, because your parents were neighbours. But that kinda changed after Peh met Pah and joined Toman. Since you felt left out you one day cornered Peh and forced him to “spit it out” on why he has been ignoring you so much. He explained about Toman and you asked to join. Peh wasn’t too fond of the idea, but he knew he couldn’t talk you out of this. Once you made up your mind no one could change it.

*Mikey had a talk with you after Peh mentioned your name. After you talked he realised you two are kinda similar in many ways (Mikey is also an INTP. At least he was the last time I checked). He enjoyed talking to you and after he noticed that you mostly think before you speak and also use logic in almost every sentence he came to a conclusion that the best division for you was the 5th one. So he introduced you to Mucho and Sanzu.

*Mucho liked the fact that you were quiet and only spoke when needed or when you had something to say. Otherwise no matter how much the guys from 5th division (and other divisions as well) talked your ears off, you didn’t say more than a few words. After all, you were more of a listener than a talker.

*Sanzu was glad when he found out how loyal you were to those you trusted. After he earned your trust he enjoyed having conversations with you since he knew you didn’t lie and no matter how ugly the truth was, you always spoke only the truth.

*But that was also kind of a throw off for other people. Hakkai and Angry disliked you at first. You seemed rude and you were difficult to get to know. You were insensitive at times and had struggled to express your feelings. But after a while they got used to it. They weren’t the closest ones to you, but they didn’t dislike you either. You were just another guy in the gang. Though one incident made them change their minds about you completely. Like it did a full 180

*Once you found Hakkai and Angry cornered by a bunch of rival delinquents you saved their asses and then they started seeing you as a brother and best friend.

*The closest to you were Mikey, Sanzu, Mucho, Baji and Draken (besides Peh and Pah). They enjoyed your company and how you always listened to their problems and gave good advice.

*The guys were weirded out the first time you came up to them in silence and without a word gave some random gifts (they weren’t that random. They actually needed the item you gave and were confused on how you knew about what they needed. But then they realised they probably made a side comment about it while talking to you and you remembered. That warmed their hearts a bit.). And when they found out that most of the gifts were actually stolen from the people you beat up, they were left in a bigger state of shock. Chifuyu and Baji laughed about it and said that next time they’ll also invite you to beat people up with them and then strip them naked. (That manga panel made my jaw drop the first time I saw it lmao).

*Now what they really didn’t like about you, was how much self awareness you lacked. You always put yourself in danger, but also managed to avoid it. You walked past by delinquents who had issues with Toman without even a scratch. You bought donuts and brought them to a meeting. You managed to piss off the Haitani brothers by saying something rude about them right in front of them (without even noticing that they were behind your back) (Takemichi almost had a heart attack that day). It became an inside joke of the gang about how luck is always on your side.

*Even if you were cold and stand off-ish they all knew you cared about them. And they cared a lot about you too.

Teen Romance <3

Inui Seishu x gn!reader (mentions of ex!Mikey)

Angst, a but of fluff at the end. This is short lol

Inui is in love with you and has been for a while. Though your heart still lies with Mikey

I met her by chance

I said: I really like your pants

I know you got a man

Give me your hand

Teen romance

“Whats up” Inui walks into the room with two cans of (your favourite soda). “You look.. like you’re really going through it. All gloomy and shit.”

You don’t know when exactly the two of you became close friends. It just happened on it’s own. Though you don’t really question about it, content with being so close to the blonde.

You like to call your friendship fate, since the two of you hated each other’s guts before Mikey disbanded Toman and broke you heart. After that Inui felt pity towards you and somehow managed to earn a spot in your heart. But Inui hates the though of that. You didn’t know why for the longest time and thought it was another one of his dumb theories. But once he was extremely drunk and called you, because he felt lonely and wantd to talk. He confessed that if the fate theory was real it meant that his sister’s fate was to die. And he thinks it’s bullshit. She still had years and years ahead of her. After that you stopped even saying the word “fate” in front of him. You didn’t know it, but it truly meant a lot to him. It meant that you listened to what he had to say and actually cared about his feelings. He doesn’t remember the last time someone did that to him.

“Nothin’” a soft murmur left your lips. “Just thinking.” You scratch your head and sigh. Your head was placed on your palm as you leaned on the kitchen table. Inupi and you decided to move in together in an apartment near the bike shop that he ran with Draken.

“You can talk with me about it y’know.” He tilts his head to the side and puts down one can near you. “I’ll always listen to you. And maybe give some advice. Though I can’t promise it’ll be good advice.”

“Sometimes I still think about him.” You close your eyes for a second and his face flashes in your mind. It was as clear as day. His blonde hair and dark brown, almost black, eyes. And that childish smiles of his. “And it really hurts. All of the good memories we had together.. I know he’s not the same person that he was. And sometimes I wish that I never even met him that day. I wish I had stayed in my room. But instead I just had to go to the corner store to buy some snacks. That’s where I met him..” you rub your eyes. “But I know if I ever had the chance I would do it all over again. I really miss him. I miss the old Mikey.”

You felt a palm touch your shoulder and as you look up Inui stood before you, looking at you with soft apologetic eyes. It was a bit awkward talking about your ex to the guy that you knew had a crush on you. It was obvious to you and everyone else. But deep down you knew you still need time to move on from Mikey. Even if three years have passed, it was still not enough. Just the sound of Mikey’s name made your stomach turn. That itself was a sign that you’re just not ready for new relationships yet.

“You deserve better, (Y/N). I hope you know that.” He takes a deep breath and you can see that he’s trying to form a sentence in his head that will have the best approach to this situation. “Right now you’re living in the past. You have been for three years. You can’t keep doing that. You need to focus on right now and on the future. I know you miss him. But he’s not going to change. The Mikey you knew has been gone for a while. And as much as it hurts you need to move on and create a better future for yourself.” His body’s tense and he doesn’t know if this was the right choice. Kokonoi would always comment about how he’s too blunt and Inui never really cared about it. But now he wishes he could just keep his mouth shut.

“I know, Inui.” You slightly pout, deep in thought. “Hey. Can I be a little selfish and ask you something?”

“Of course.” He smiles at you, now relaxed.

“Can you wait for me?”

“(Y/N). I’ll always wait for you. No matter how long it takes. I’ll wait.”

Better without you

They cheat on you / break up with you, but you actually get happier without them.

Sanzu Haruchiyo, Haitani Rindou, Hanma Shuji, Haitani Ran(and Mitsuya Takashi;) ) x gn!reader

PART TWO

Now playing: Don Toliver - No Idea

Sanzu Haruchiyo

Since you've been gone, I've been just okay

“You’re nothing without me.” Sanzu points at you. “You can say whatever you want, but you know that it’s true. You’ll never find anyone else like me.”

“I know.” You wipe the tears from your face. “And I think that’s for the better. I gave you the world, Sanzu. I did everything for you. For us. And this is what you do? You fuck the first bitch you see at a party?”

“Whatever. You’ll be back soon.”

———

Walking around town with a couple of people, he had the biggest smirk on his face. Kanto Manji gang was already the top gang in Japan and things couldn’t get any better.

“Yo, Sanzu.” Ran slaps his back. “Isn’t that your ex?”

And as he turned around, he saw you talking with your friends. You laughed at something one of them said. He noticed how you were glowing, looking way better than you did during the relationship. And he felt a pang in his chest. You were right, weren’t you? You don’t need someone like him. Sanzu scoffs and pretends like seeing you so happy didn’t hurt.

“Whatever. They’ll be crawling back to me soon.”

Haitani Rindou

I know you mad, you didn't see it my way

“Can you for once just understand how this whole situation makes me feel?!” You yell out frustrated. “Why can’t you just see it from my point of view! You never listen to me. You just do everything your own way and then get mad at me when I try to treat you how you treat me! You’re a fucking hypocrite, Rin.”

“Whatever.” He just rolls his eyes and looks back at his game.

“You’re doing it again! I can’t remember the last time we spent our time together. I shouldn’t even be talking about this with yo-“

“So shut it.”

“Huh?” Your eyes widen.

“Shut the fuck up. You’re so fucking annoying.” Rindou bangs his fist on the table that held his gaming set up. “Always bitching about everything. If you hate how I ignore you so much, why don’t you just leave huh? Fucking dumbass.”

———

That day you did leave. And you never answered his calls or messages. Whenever he tried to talk to you, you would just walk past him, or just switch routes so you wouldn’t even have to see him. You started treating him like he treated you the whole relationship. Rindou knew he fucked up bad and he didn’t know how to get you back.

Hanma Shuji

Since I've been gone, I've been out of space

“You make me so fucking stressed, Shuji.” You sigh as you finish wrapping bandaids over his hands. “You disappear for weeks or months and don’t text, or call. I never know where you are and if you’ll come back. I hate it.”

“Yeah, yeah. Sorry, babe. It won’t happen again. I swear.” He kisses the top of your head.

You knew his words didn’t hold any meaning. He would sweet talk you into staying and then he’d disappear again, leaving you alone with the dark thoughts of what could have happened to him. But for now you’d just stay in his arms.

———

So after he didn’t reach out to you in four months, you decided to just end it there and grabbed your belongings from his apartment. At first it was hard. You’d check your phone for any new messages or calls, but after a while you realised how better you felt after leaving.

Ran Haitani (ft. Mitsuya Takashi)

I let lil' Shawty, come here, take your place

“I can’t believe you. I gave you a chance to change after the first time..” you feel your heart breaking, a lump was forming in your throat and you wanted to scream, to throw whatever was near you into walls. “And you went ahead and cheated on me for the second time?! Do you have no fucking shame, Haitani?” You looked at him and felt your stomach drop. He had a smirk on his face and his eyebrows were raised. Like this whole thing was just a show he was watching on the tv.

“You’re stupid if you think I can and will actually change. It’s not my fault you’re so dependent on me.” He shrugs his shoulders. “If I were you, I would’ve left ages ago.”

———

Ran was walking around Roppongi with Rindou. They wanted to visit a caffe that opened not too far from their apartment. And when they walked in Ran felt his stomach explode and his hands started shaking. There you were sitting in a booth, smiling happily while a guy him and his brother hated, was holding your hand and making you blush. Mitsuya Takashi healed your heart and made you forget about him. Ran couldn’t stand the thought of you belonging to someone else.

You want a paper plane, I don't mind

I wonder why your girl always smiling

Mitsuya felt someone staring at him and as he lifted his eyes, he tried to contain a smile. The Haitani brothers were both staring at you and him. He lifted your hand which he was holding and left a gentle kiss on your wrist. He doesn’t mind giving you the world if it meant you’d smile at him like that. It was Ran’s loss.

aCk your new shion oneshot put me in a roller coaster, the whole ‘i can’t give you the world, but i try’ made me gasp 😭 im so soft for the long term lovers trope, pls!! (no need to reply to this just wanted to let u know i loved your last work!! Off to binge ur masterlist :^) )

Omg thank you sm!! Thats so nice 😭😭

Been like this

Shion Madarame was always too cocky for his own good. You never knew if it was a bad or a good thing.

Shion Madarame x gn!reader. Kinda angsty? Relationship problems, but it’s all good in the end:) this is really short like 530 words. I’ve been having the worst writers block. Also idk if this really matters but this is Kanto Manji Gang Shion so the both of you are like 21 and have been together since 16

Shion has me in a chokehold

“You always do this shit, Madarame!” Your fist meets the table that he was leaning on. “I just can’t take it anymore.” You quickly turn around and start walking towards the room that held many memories you shared together. “Every day. Every fucking day you piss me off more and more! I try my best to keep this whole relationship going and you don’t give a shit!”

Shion just stares at you. No emotion on his face. It was out of character, he always stood with a proud smirk and his head held high. Shion didn’t remember the last time he felt, like he was feeling right now. He wasn’t the best at showing his true emotions, he had to build up this wall to make him look stronger than he actually was. There was a pang in his chest and he let out a sigh. “Babe, can we just talk this out?”

“No.” Your answer was quick. “I’ve tried to talk with you about this. You just never listened. That’s your fault and not mine.” You opened the closet and started to put your clothes into an old backpack that you forgot at Shion’s apartment when you were teenagers. “For years I have been putting up with your bullshit. I waited for you when you were in juvie. Multiple fucking times! I waited for you when you were out for days with your gang, not answering your phone. We’ve been together since we were sixteen, Madarame. We’re both twenty one now and nothing’s changed!”

You feel two lean but strong arms snake around your waist. His breath tickled your neck. “I’m sorry. I’m trying. I really am. I don’t say this enough and I’m sorry. But you mean so much to me. I’ve never felt this way towards anyone. You think I would’ve stayed with you for so long if you didn’t matter to me?” He takes in a deep breath. “I know it’s hard for you. I’m a delinquent and my path has already been made. I have no bright future. And if you truly want to leave, I won’t stop you. You deserve the world and I can’t give it to you. But I do try to give you as much as I can.”

You felt a few tears go down your cheeks and you quickly wipe them off with the sleeves of the sweater you were wearing. There was a lump forming in your throat and you didn’t know what to think anymore. You knew this relationship would never be easy. There would be hard days or weeks, sometimes even months. But could you really leave the guy you’ve been in love with for years? You two would talk about your future together ever since you both turned eighteen. The bag you were holding slipped out of your hands and hit the floor.

“I can’t. No, I won’t leave you.” You turn around and fall into Shion’s arms. “I’m sorry.” More tears left your eyes and you snuggled into his chest. His arms had a strong grip around you. He was scared if he let go, you would disappear into thin air.

“I really hope you won’t.”

Listen

Songs that remind me of TR characters

Some scenarios I had in mind through out the months but didn’t have enough motivation to write full on imagines. So here’s a bunch of drabbles.

Haitani Rindou (Mentions of Haitani Ran), Kokonoi Hajime, Sano Manjiro, Sanzu Haruchiyo/Muto Yasuhiro(platonic). Angst and toxic relationships.

Haitani Rindou: Joji - SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK

Give me reasons we should be complete

You should be with him, I can't compete

You looked at me like I was someone else

Rindou knew better than to fall for you. He knew you were in love with his older brother. After all, Ran was always more popular and acknowledged by everyone, while Rindou stood in his shadows. He tried to do whatever he could to just get the spotlight at least for a little while. And for some dumb reason he thought that he might have a chance with you. He tried to distance himself from you and it was successful for a while. But that one night made all of the walls he built - fall down. And now he was left all alone to build them up again. Oh how much he wished that he hadn’t let you kiss him then. Especially when he noticed you looking at his brother while doing so.

Kokonoi Hajime: Lana Del Rey - Doin’ Time

Me and my girl, we got this relationship

I love her so bad, but she treats me like shit

Evil, I've come to tell you that she's evil, most definitely

Kokonoi never thought he’d date anyone. He was so sure that he would die alone, since he had no time for relationships. He only cared about money and ways to get more of it. But then a new Bonten member showed up and it only took one glance at them. Just one glance and he was hooked. The way you kept your head high and were never scared to show your true emotions to anyone. The scowl you’d have when you were mad at someone and the way you always thought you were better than anyone else. You were egoistic and always got whatever you wanted. He knew you were too good for him. No one was even worth your time. And he knew that you’d use him for money and for whatever else you needed. But he didn’t care. If he was the one you’d get home to at night, he was fine with whatever you did during the day. Even if it hurt him in the end. You were the sun and he was Icarus. (Icarus, in Greek mythology, son of the inventor Daedalus who perished by flying too near the Sun with waxen wings.)

Mikey: Alex G - Mary

Mary is the girl that leaves you to rot

She says, "I am real and you are not"

After losing everyone, Mikey had become completely numb. He treated everyone with disrespect and never gave them the time of day. But you had stayed. Even if it cost you your sanity. You knew your feelings weren’t as strong as they used to be and that you were living off of false hope of the old Mikey coming back. You knew it was an extremely toxic relationship from both sides. But you had been with him for far too long to just let go of it now. But some nights while laying in bed you’d let your thoughts wander. Asking yourself if it was truly worth it. The screaming, the throwing stuff at each other, him not caring and you crying your eyes out until you couldn’t even let out a sound anymore. He treated you like you weren’t even real. Like you were just a figment of his imagination and would come back to him whenever he wanted. And he was right. No matter what you always stayed.

Mucho/Sanzu: Tyler The Creator - Are We Still Friends? (I really really wanna write a fic about this, I have so many ideas. Maybe I will when I have time)

Don't say, "Goodbye, smell you later" (later)

Nah, I can't

I don't want to end the season on a bad episode

Are we still friends?

Can we be friends?

Are we still friends?

I've got to know

You met Sanzu and Mucho after being assigned to the 5th division. The three of you hit it off easily. You all spent almost every single day together, becoming extremely close. You considered them your family and had many polaroids of all of you on your wall. You watched the sunsets and sunrises together, went on quick road trips and made many memories that you’ll never forget. There were at least three of Mucho’s sweaters in your closet that he’d always tried to get back but never succeeded. You always wore Sanzu’s hair ties on your wrist. And when the day started off weird you knew something was wrong. Mucho didn’t pick you up with his car and neither of them were at the Toman meeting. They didn’t answer any of your messages or calls, and when Mikey came up to you after the meeting ended you felt your heart break. But you didn’t find it in yourself to hate either Sanzu or Mucho. So when you had to fight both of them at the Tenjiku vs. Toman fight you couldn’t stop yourself from asking them.

“Are we still friends?”

Ride or die

Platonic!Haitani brothers x gn!reader, slight Sanzu x reader. Izana, Kakucho and Mikey are mentioned. This is around 3k words

“What happens if one of us dies?”

“If I’m being honest. I think if one of us dies the other two would follow.”

“Right to the grave?”

“Yeah.”

PLEASEEE READ THE WARNINGS: drugs, guns, death, angst no comfort, no happy ending, addiction to drugs, overdose, curse words, slightly sexual themes? Like mentioned one time I think. This is just rough. I’m not too happy with how this was written but it has a lot of dark and heavy themes. Mentions of religion, atheism. Mental health problems. Mentions of abuse from family members. Mentions of suicide. Parts with the italic font are memories from the past.

“Growing up poor was shit. The ‘money doesn’t buy happiness’ was also a shit joke that probably a middle class person came up with. Maybe they were even rich? Because surely a poor person would never say something that dumb. What could be even shittier you might ask? Growing up with two drug addicts that always forgot they even had a kid.” Your fingers tap on the metal table in front of you. “For a couple of years I grew up completely alone. At the age of four I already knew how to cook myself something I could call meal and knew how to take care of myself. I thought that I didn’t need anyone else and I could be fine with being alone. But it got.. lonely after a while I guess.” A pen clicking and then touching a paper sounded way louder than it usually did. Probably because the room was nearly empty. And cold. It was very cold. It reminded you of a place you once called home.

“When did you meet the Haitani brothers?” The woman sitting in front of you pushes her glasses up and clicks her pen a few times. You smile slightly and lean your head back.

“I was six. We met in a playground. I ran away from home, because my parents went batshit crazy and started throwing plates at me. It was nothing new, but still. I always felt safer when I left that house. So I ran out every time something bad happened and came back when I knew that they would be asleep.”

Crocodile tears were running down your face, while you were running away from your parents. Your small palms reached your cheeks as you tried to wipe them off. And as you finally reached the safest place you knew of, you fell flat on your but and then laid down on the grass. The sky seemed so peaceful. Clouds looked like boats, sailing around the blue waters of the sky. And as you took in the beauty of your surroundings, you didn’t notice the two boys coming up to you, until they laid down next to you. One on each side.

“Hey. You okay?” One of them asks and you quickly snap your head to the side, your eyes meeting his.

“Yeah. Fine.”

“Doesn’t look like it.” The other boy states as they both stare at you. “I’m Rindou. And that’s my older brother Ran.”

“I’m Y/N.”

“Hm.” The woman hums and keeps on writing. “You know I’m trying to help you right? I need to give you as much information as possible. Otherwise you know what’s waiting for you.” She sniffles and straightens her posture, trying to look as professional as possible. “You all did horrible crimes. But before talking about that, I need to know about how it all lead up to that. Maybe you have any mental illnesses you don’t know of yourself. So tell me everything. Every little detail you can remember.”

“What if I don’t remember much?” You stare right at her, making her uncomfortable.

“Tell me what you remember, (L/N) (Y/N).”

“Hold my hand c’mon, (Y/N)!” Rindou yells and you grab onto his extended hand. “Move your fucking ass faster! They’re right behind us.” The both of you take quick turns, trying to mislead the cops. Growing up in Roppongi meant that the three of you knew the streets quite well. It seemed like you had it all mapped out in your head. So it wasn’t like it was too hard to run away. But in this moment it was, since you got shot in the leg.

“I can’t, Rin. Shit I can’t feel my fucking leg, how do you want me to fucking run?!” You yell right back at him and suddenly he lifts you up and throws you onto his shoulder, mumbling “c’mon, c’mon please” under his breath. A car stops right in front of you and Rindou thanks whatever gods that Ran wasn’t high out of his mind and actually came to help the both of you out. He opened the door and laid you down onto the backseat before hopping into the car himself.

“They’re bleeding.” Rindou shouts at Ran and Ran’s knuckles turn white as he grabs even harder onto the steering wheel.

“They’ll be fine.” He tries to convince himself and his younger brother at the same time. “We just need to reach Izana. He’ll help us out.”

“Stop.” The woman interrupts you. “Who is the Izana you’re speaking of?”

“He was a well known delinquent that led his own ‘kingdom’ as he liked to call it. It was a gang full of strong delinquents that took over Tokyo fast.” You smile, remembering the white haired short man. He always held a sweet spot in your heart with his scarred friend Kakucho.

“When was the last time you spoke to him?”

“Five years ago.”

“Why did the two of you stop talking to each other?” The psychiatrist asks while writing down the information that you told her. “You were smiling while talking about him. That means you cared, or maybe even still care about him. So why haven’t you spoken in such a long time. Of course, besides the fact that you’ve been in prison for a year.”

“He died.” She was shocked with your answer, but quickly cleared her throat and resumed to her stoic facial expression.

“Who killed him?”

“Some random dude I’ve never heard of.”

“Did he help you then. With your leg?”

“Yes. He had a medic on his team, that dropped out of med school. But he had good knowledge of what he was doing.”

Ran grabs the small bag that contained white powder from your hands and poured it onto the table. “If we continue on with this.. We’re gonna be rich!” He smirks as he looks down at the backpack laying on the cold cement floor of the basement. The bag was full of all kinds of drugs. Half of them you were hearing about for the first time. You didn’t know how Ran got ahold of them, but you didn’t care. The pill you took twenty minutes ago was doing wonders and you didn’t want to think of anything else. You all could enjoy yourselves with the drugs you owned and get money from selling them. Could it get any better than that?

“Man.” Rindou stretches as he was sitting on the ground in an uncomfortable position for a while now. “I don’t know what I took, but fuck did it make me not only high, but also horny as hell.” He groans. “I could really go get my dick wet right now.” You and Ran laugh at Rin’s statement and you lean your head backwards, staring into the ceiling which was full of cracks and ugly posters that only God himself knew where Rindou got them from. You grimace as you take in the naked women in some of them. They looked worn out.

“What if someone came on one of the posters here and now it’s on our ceiling.” You ask and both of the brothers look at you confused and grossed out.

“Man your high thoughts are fucking wack.”

“So that’s where it all started?”

“Yeah.” You lick your lips. “We took a bite out of the forbidden apple and enjoyed ourselves way too much. This was the first time we got so much cash. So we thought that this was the most perfect idea ever. Selling and doing drugs, and also getting so much cash? Fucking amazing, right? That’s how it felt at that moment. But I should’ve known.. I saw how my parents turned out. I know I should’ve stopped them at that moment. But it all felt so.. right.” You sigh. “I never cared about myself. I could’ve ended up in a ditch dead. I didn’t care. But I cared about them. I cared about them so fucking deeply, y’know? They were my first actual family. And I felt happy with them. I actually felt fulfilled with joy. I smiled whenever I was with them, I laughed, I felt at home. At peace. Thought at night time, I prayed.”

“Why?” The woman whispered. Without even noticing she fell deep into your story. Never really heard anything like that before probably. She looked young. If you had to guess, she probably just finished university and this was her first serious job.

“I was scared. I don’t even remember if I actually believed in God. But I begged Lord to forgive the Haitani’s and I for our sins. We did what we had to do to survive. And I hope Lord knows that. I.. I don’t know what awaits after death. But I can tell you that I fear it. I fear the unknown.” You look at the floor of the small room. It really reminded you of the basement that everything happened in. “I stopped praying after a while. Maybe a year after we started doing what we did. I thought that no matter what, no matter how much I begged and prayed it wouldn’t help anymore. We were in too deep.”

“How many people did you think you killed at that point?”

“After the first year? Hm..” your fingers tapped on the table once again, as you were deep in thought. “I think I killed around two people. But combined with the brothers.. There were around nine victims. The drugs messed with our brains. And we.. I don’t think we fully understood what was going on. At least I didn’t. It all felt like a dream, or… or a movie.”

“How did you feel when you killed your first victim?” Her fingers were shaking slightly, showing that she was nervous.

“I.. I felt scared. But I had to do it. Otherwise that would’ve been Ran. The guy pushed his gun right in the middle of Ran’s forehead. So I grabbed the metal pipe that was laying next to me and hit as many times as I had to.”

“Uhm. I have to tell you this, (L/N). But your parents want to come to court next week. To see you and hear what sentence you’ll get. Do you want me to tell them anything? Do you have a message?”

“Tell them that they can go fuck themselves.”

Different colours of dim lights were flashing around in some jocks trashy house. There were empty bottles of disgusting and cheap beer, vodka, champagne. There were also all kinds of different substances on the ground and you tried to not step on any of it. Fuck knows what the hell even was all of that. People were making out, grinding on each other, some were even actually having sex not caring about all of the people around them. Some remix of a random song you have never even heard of was blasting throughout the whole house. You take a look around and finally spot who you were looking for. With a smirk you plop down on the couch in the middle of both brothers. Trying not cringe at the thought of what happened on this couch before all of you showed up. Rindou was smoking a joint while Ran had white powder around his nose. You let out a sigh and grab a baggie of pills from the bag laying on the ground near Ran’s feet. You take the two pills without caring what kind they were and put them in your mouth, below the tongue, waiting for them to melt. “It’s ecstasy.” Rindou whispers into your ear and you just nod, too lost in your thoughts to answer. Suddenly a boost of confidence hits you and you felt so close to the pair sitting next to you. Closer then ever before. A feeling of happiness and relaxation took over your body and you started to feel free. Smiling to yourself, you look at Ran and Rindou, and close your eyes for a while.

It felt so, so peaceful. For once in your life you felt okay.

“So that was the start of your addiction to ecstasy?”

“Yeah. And also all kinds of other drugs.” You nod and take a look at her name tag. Dr. Fudo. “It felt nice to forget about everything happening. It was almost.. euphoric I guess. The drugs made me feel free. And it messed with my memory. So it made me feel like this was the only appropriate escape from the horrors happening around me.”

“So you were high most of the time all of this was happening?”

“Yup. Also almost overdosed a couple of times though. Ran just found me at the right time and saved my life I guess.” You look to the side and stare at the ugly walls. “I beat myself up for it every day. The both of them saved me so many times without even knowing, but I couldn’t save them.”

“Were you in a romantic relationship with either Haitani Ran, or Haitani Rindou?” She puts down her pen on the table and crosses her arms on her chest, leaning backwards until her back hits the chair.

“No.”

“Were you in a romantic relationship with anyone during this timeline?”

“Yes.”

“What was his name?”

“He called himself Sanzu.”

“What happened to him?” Fudo grabbed the pen once again and put it near the paper laying on the table.

“He overdosed.”

“Dude, shut the fuck up.” You laugh and hit Haru in the chest while laughing. The world seem quiet. The only two sound you heard were the voices of you and Sanzu Haruchiyo. You had met him on accident. He was buying drugs from Rindou and you walked in on them. The three of you talked for a while, before Rindou had to leave to sell some more drugs which left just the two of you. You hit it off easily and it just felt right. If anyone had to guess they would’ve thought that you and Sanzu were best friends and not some strangers that only met like fifteen minutes ago. Sanzu called it fate. Said you were his soulmate.

“Nah, I’m saying the truth.” He giggled and kissed the top of your head. “The fucker pissed his pants and was just laying on top of the couch, talking to his crush like nothing happened.” Sanzu took a hit from the joint between his lips.

You laugh even harder. And push your back against Sanzu’s chest, trying to get into a more comfortable position. The both of you were on top of some random building, popping all kinds of pills and getting high together, making out, talking about your life stories. The Haitani brothers made you feel at home. They were your family. Sanzu on the other hand made you feel good in other ways. He never judged you for anything and always beat up the people who just looked at you weird. He fit well into your group and the brothers took him in with open arms. Sanzu was now a part of your little family.

“I love you, (Y/N). I hope you know that.” Sanzu leans down and touches your lips with his.

“How did his death make you feel?”

“I wanted to kill myself. Almost tried. But the brothers mattered to me too much, I couldn’t leave them. So I just started doing even more drugs. I tried to forget about him, but he just haunted me no matter what I did. He still haunts me in my dreams sometimes even after three years.”

“The cops found three of the bodies.” Rindou punches the wall and lets out a series of curses. Ran was pulling his hair and keeping his head low, trying to think of anything.

“Let’s just run away.” You quickly butt in. “Let’s grab our shit and leave. Mikey said he has a place for us, right? He wanted us to join him so let’s just fucking go.”

“They’re right.” Ran stands up. “Let’s pack our shit and go as soon as possible.”

But before you could even do much the door of your apartment was kicked down and yelling could be heard. You duck and hide behind the table of your kitchen.

“I don’t remember much of that day. Maybe because I was high. Or maybe it was the adrenaline and fear I felt. I just remember screams. I remember Rindou getting shot first because he tried to shoot a police officer. Then I heard Ran cry. I think it was the first time ever I saw Ran cry. It was terrifying. I..” you take a deep and shaky breath. “I’ll never forget the scream he let out. Rindou meant the world to him. I don’t know why Ran got shot. They never told me.”

“He grabbed the gun laying and the floor and also tried to shoot.”

“Oh.”

Cameras were flashing everywhere as you were being led out of court. Yells of different paparazzi could be heard even inside the building.

“(L/N) (F/N) is it true that you got a death penalty for all of the crimes you, Ran Haitani and Rindou Haitani committed?”

You just smile and keep on walking.

“What happens if one of us dies?” Y/N tilts their head to the side slightly and looks at Ran, laying right next to them. It was a chilly autumn day, the park they were at was empty - people were getting ready for the upcoming cold days, working to make sure that they and their families would stay safe and warm.

“I don’t think anyone would mourn any of us. We’re nothing to everyone else. Only a burden.” Ran smirks as if this didn’t cause a pang in his chest. If he could, he would do everything differently. He would make sure that his brother and you had different lives. He just wanted you two to be happy. To make actual good memories instead of whatever this was. He hopes that in another life all of you can be happy together.

“I would mourn you. I hope you’d mourn me too.” You let out a sigh and grab his hand with yours.

“If I’m being honest. I think if one of us dies the other two would follow.”

“Right to the grave?”

“Yeah. Right to the grave.”

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Warning!! Y/N is a drug dealer. So drugs, guns, fights bc it’s a manga about gangs. Weed. Y/N was running away from the cops. MANGA SPOILERS. LIKE LITERALLY THE NEWEST CHAPTERS. DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT CAUGHT UP WITH THE MANGA. Also swear words.

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Sanzu’s life never really had peace in it. Even when he was a child. And now all he could ever think about were blood, death, adrenaline, cigarettes and drugs. But there was you. There was always you he could find peace in.

Wind caresses your face as you look at the tall abandoned building in front of you. Sanzu always called you at the most awkward and worst moments. Just twenty minutes ago you were running away from the police, the cops tailing right behind you. Luckily you knew your way around, spending your time in the streets of Tokyo more than your own home. So it was easy to outsmart the cops and get back to your small and lonely apartment. But before you could close your eyes and calm down from all of the adrenaline, maybe even smoke a blunt, your phone vibrated informing you about a message.

Sighing, you put your car keys into your pocket and enter the building. It was eerily quiet, but Sanzu was never a loud person. He was a trouble maker, that’s for sure, but with you he could chill out and relax for a minute. He never said it out loud, but you were his safe space. You climb the cement stairs and reach the roof. Sanzu was laying on the floor, looking up to the stars. There was a blanket put on the floor and you noticed his hair was all messy and not tied up. Without saying a word you lie down next to him and also take a look at the sky. The stars were shining brightly and it was a full moon.

“Rough day?” You ask and sit up, stretching your arms. Sanzu had a couple of bruises on his face, you noticed. A frown forms on your face as you try to identify what caused them. It didn’t look like they were formed because of a fist.

“Yeah. The battle of the Three Deities happened today.” He takes a puff from the cigarette, laying between two of his long fingers which were littered with little scars.

“Hm..” you nod. “Man, that’s fucked up. Wasn’t it supposed to happen later on?” You shake your head and take out a blunt out of your pocket and put it in your mouth. “How was it?”

“We won.” He smirks. “South is dead. Fucker got killed by Mikey.” A quiet ‘ah’ leaves your mouth and you let out a content sigh after finding the black lighter you carried around in the pocket of your jacket. “Rokuhara Tandai belongs to Mikey now. Brahman lost to South and then disbanded in the end to make Mikey spare Takemitchy.” He stops looking at the stars and glances at your now sitting figure. “How have you been? Haven’t seen you in a while.”

“The usual. Selling drugs, tryin’ to make money.” You take a hit from the blut and look at Sanzu’s eyes. “I like your eyes.” You squint a bit. “They’re a pretty colour. ‘M jealous.”

The first time you met Sanzu was a complete accident. You were walking back home after a “meeting” with a client. He bought a lot of your shit and you were glad. You finally had the money for the car you wanted to buy for a while now. Though your peaceful walk was interrupted soon. Yelling could be heard from around the corner. You were never the one to think too much about the consequences of your actions and lived in the moment. So without even thinking you took a peek at what was happening. A tall guy with pink hair was backed into a wall and there was a knife pressed to his neck. The guy holding the knife looked pretty beat up. The tall dude could easily kick him away,but the knife was too close to his throat and it would leave a serious cut. One thing lead to another and your gun was pressed to the man’s head, making him drop the knife. Sanzu beat up the man and then introduced himself to you. And that was the start of your friendship.

“Whatever.” Sanzu let’s out a quiet noise of dissaproval and looks back at the sky. Though his ears were now a burning red colour. He was glad it was dark, otherwise you would’ve noticed how your comment made him feel. He was beating himself up for letting himself fall for you. Neither of you lived safe lives, putting yourselves in danger every day. And not only that, you were like a distraction for him. Always on his mind. He couldn’t disappoint Mikey by not concentrating on his work. People were also getting curious on why he spent so much time with you. He didn’t want to put you in more danger, the fear of other gangs attacking you clouded his mind. So he used the only excuse he could ever think of. You were a drug dealer and he was a drug addict. He needed you to provide him with drugs and you needed him for money.

“You okay?” You tilt your head to the side, while blowing out pretty white smoke out of your parted lips. And Sanzu swears he never wanted anything more than to grab your face and kiss you. Buy instead he just let’s out a quiet hum and nods. “Can I ask you a personal question, Haru?” His heart starts beating faster when he hears the nickname. He sits up and throws away the butt of the cigarette.

“Sure. What is it?”

“How did you get those scars?” You take another hit from the blunt and move closer to Sanzu. When your shoulders touch, you lower your body slightly and put your head on his shoulder. “You don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna. I respect you and care about you. I don’t wanna be the reason why you’re uncomfortable.”

If it were anybody else, Sanzu would’ve beaten them up until they were unconscious for asking that question. No one, other than the three people that were there with him on that terrible day, knew how or why he had those scars on his face. Sometimes he wondered if taking off the mask Mucho gave him was a mistake. It did hide them and less people stared at him whenever he would try to do normal daily tasks.

“You’re tense. ‘M sorry, Haru. It’s my fault.” With your free hand you start playing with his hair. Sanzu hesitantly raises his own hand and slowly takes the blunt from between your lips and brings it near his mouth. He inhaled the smoke and you couldn’t do anything else other than stare at his pretty face, while he was exhaling it.

“Mikey.” He whispers. You raise a brow and move your head away from his shoulder. Sanzu let’s out a disappointed whine as you do that. “All I can and want to say, is that it was Mikey.” He can see the confusion paint your face. Then shock. Hurt. And lastly anger. Though you understand that it’s not your place to tell Sanzu to leave that son of a bitch named Mikey and run away with you. “I regret a lot of things in life y’know?” He slightly changes the topic of the conversation.

“Yeah?” You look back at the stars. “Like what?” You hear a sigh leave his lips.

“A lot of things I can’t even talk about. My family. Mikey. Mucho. You.” He let’s out a shaky breath and looks at you. He was looking at you like he was trying to remember every single detail about you and your body.

“Mucho?” You let out a surprised squeal. “Man I don’t remember the last time I heard his name.. It’s sad. He was a great guy. I wonder who did that to him.” You tilt your head to the side and look back at Sanzu. “Also me? What do you regret about me?”

“Meeting you.” His answer made your heart hurt. “You.. Shit. You do things to me. I hate it.” He throws the blunt he was holding to the side and grabs your face. “Fuck you, (Y/N).” He brings your face closer to him and his lips meet yours.

Heavenly

This is a quick drabble about Kurokawa Izana. I hope this makes sense? Idk I just wanted to write about him.

No matter where Izana went, at the end of the day he always found himself back at your place. He tried getting rid of you more than once, saying that you were just a distraction in his eyes. Nothing more, nothing less. But for some reason, when the sun went down and the moon came to view, lulling everyone to sleep, he would end up with you in his arms. Your hearts beating for each other, while the both of you whispered promises of love and a beautiful future.

Izana never understood what love truly meant. All he knew was, when he thought about the word “love” the first thing he thought about was your face. You were love. A warm and fuzzy feeling which was drowning his body whenever he was near you. You were the sun shining brightly over everyone. You were the summer, the bright smiles and laughs, the beach, the singing birds. Everything that could mean happiness and warmth, it was all you. You were divine.

While Izana was hatred. He was the blood that stained the dirty streets of Tokyo, he was made out of sad tears, and hurtful words. He was the winter. His cold biting everyone around him. People feared him, shivers running down their spine after hearing his name. They wanted to stay as far as possible from the boss, the four heavenly kings of Tenjiku and the gang itself. It was ironic and almost insulting how they even dared to put the word “heavenly” anywhere near the people that were in it, when the only heavenly thing about it - was you. Izana’s lover.

The both of you were laying down on the roof of your house. The moon was bright and as you looked at Izana, you realised how beautiful he looked while the moon’s light hit his face. He was like a fallen angel, a blessing but also a curse in your life. Your hand meets his and your fingers intertwine.

Hatred stirs up conflict, but love covers over all wrongs.