A Thought

A thought

So hey Nick Valentine fandom, I was talking to my mom about how much I desperately want to romance Nick because [insert 1000000 reasons here]

And she told me a thing.

So his entire existence is detective/film noire-styled, straight out of Casablanca The Big Sleep and all the classics, right? Well, if we follow those stories and the plot tropes within them, then at every turn the guy and girl - no matter how perfect they are for each other - just can’t seem to get together. Until the very end.

Then by that logic: if Bethesda is as good at what they do as I think they are, then all we have to do is wait until Far Harbor. Despite how much Bethesda likes to jerk us around sometimes, I still believe in them and the beautiful stories they create. But this time, they’re playing the long game, true to the style that Nick embodies. All we have to do is wait for the right case to come up.

Mary Poppins! The lovely scene in the Fidelity Fiduciary Bank.

Old fans welcoming new people to a fandom:

Old fans welcoming new people to a fandom:

Hey. You.

Cutie with social anxiety AND/OR zero self esteem.

You ARE cute. I just said so. And I’m - well, never, ever wrong. So there.

And even if “cute” isn’t the yardstick by which you seek any sort of “declaration of value and/or worth” - you are VALUED. You are WORTHY. JUST FOR BEING.

No-one has to PROVE their worth/value/importance/significance. YOU ARE. JUST FOR BEING. THAT’S QUITE SUFFICIENT.

Want to go do great things? Things OTHER PEOPLE think are great? PLEASE DO. HERE. LET ME ASSIST AS NEEDED.

Don’t want to do any of that? GREAT. PLEASE DO. HERE. LET ME HANG OUT WITH YOU AND LAUGH. 

Cuz that’s ALL anyone HAS TO DO: be. Happily. Don’t let ancient religiously-inspired “work ethics” SHAME drive you into a SUICIDAL DEPRESSION.

That’s BULLSHIT. 

Be driven! IF YOU WANT. Have huge goals that make other people shake their heads in disbelief! IF YOU WANT. That’s ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL.

So is NOT DOING ANY OF THAT.

And anyone who holds up a “worth” yardstick and compares the Driven with the Not Driven and finds one of them UNWORTHY is a SHITHEEL who needs to get HIT BY A BUS. Maybe a train. Eaten by a shark? 

Ended.

That comparison is awful. DESTRUCTIVE. UNHELPFUL. 

It kills people, ends love, sacrifices children on the altar of ambition.

(And it’s okay to be ambitious - as long as you WANT to be, and don’t feel like you MUST BE in order to satisfy someone else’s DEMANDS.)

I worry about you guys sometimes. Like, a lot. I’ve reached my Quent Crisp-oid zen of “style”. It’s taken 47 years and several suicide attempts, as well as the loss of love, friends, and family. 

I choose not to suffer any of those pains anymore. And I choose my SELF over anyone else’s DEMANDS. IF that dissatisfies them, THAT’S THEIR PROBLEM NOT MINE.

This course of life is MUCH HARDER when you’re younger - I very clearly remember this struggle. But any way I can HELP, I will.

Do you perform? I will come watch and applaud.

Do you write? I will read and enjoy.

Do you sit and “be”? I will sit near you with a book and some tea. 

It’s all the same with me.

Warehouse 13? C.C.H. Pounder as Irene Frederick is one of my favorite characters in a sci-fi show ever, plus her character is a licensed badass

It saddens me that I can’t think of one tv show/movie with a plus size black actress that isn’t used for comic relief, sass, or where her weight is a part of the storyline

Over The Garden Wall pilot, anyone? Always amazing to stumble across beautiful source material. ~*dramaturgy*~