ERIC CAME BACK??$:%@^+)

ERIC CAME BACK??$:×%@^+)

Today’s the best day like the best !!

i met the girl i had a little crush on, i was walking and i saw her in the place for food while walking by but my mind went, “stop! that’s your crush. go say hi and don’t be scared” so i thought, “hmmm I’m gonna go say hi to her”, i sat down and went, “hi!” and she went “hi !! ” while waving at me and i went, “how are you” and she said she felt nice and asked me the same and i said, while brushing things off (i think she noticed i was frightened to say hi), “I’m good, i was just scared of saying hi.. haha” and she went, “hmm????” with this suprised face and i repeated and BRO LET ME TELL YOU

I panicked when she leaned across the table to say “hey,” WHILE TOUCHING MY HANDS WHILE SMILING and went, “you shouldn't be scared okay baby? Im going to be here for you so dont be frightened” AND SMILED AGAIN AND BRO MY HEART SANK SO HARD

So I went, "I tried to say hi but you walked off but I don't think you noticed cause you were probably going somewhere" and my heart went "💖" so quick.

So I said, "I was new so I didn't understand much but I really wanna be friends" and she's like "okay then sweetheart, my name is [name] and you?" And she's like "mmhh neat" when I answered

NO CAUSE SHE LITERALLY HUGGED ME AND DRAGGED MY HAND ALONG WITH HERS

the panick in my mind and face was so visible, it wasn't a joke

I was so nervous like I was panicking, my eyes widened so hard

so she's like, "mmhm so where you wanna go?" while asking me she touched me,

my fucking heart jumped out of my chest like I was so weak for this girl

SHES SO FUCKING CUTE I CANT ANYMORE

GOODNESS i JUST WANNA AAAAHHHH

No cause I almost kissed her because we got close but she scramed away

I am telling you

If I never got away or she didn't, I would've kissed her.

THERE AND THEN.

omfg SHES SO CUTE ????

Can't remember since it happened hours ago but I finally GOT TO MEET HER

we're friends.

I could not take her to the bathroom because it was raining and I had places to go and I was rushed so I had to leave her behind

I feel bad :((

someone help me please 🙏 .

what are the ways to show your support to the community? because im fr struggling.

im extremely supportive to the community but my family makes fun of me for being lgbtq since i accidentally told them or they possibly knew 😨 .

i came out two yrs ago as pansexual, and they keep making fun of that sexuality, outing me to multiple strangers or family members so i feel like they don’t know how much that affects me.

as a queer living in a household where ppl are lgbtqphobic and using slurs, it's really really disturbing for me.

i am currently closeted and not telling anyone irl atm since that happened and they don’t know my true sexuality nor gender and they lost all respect for me cause of my lgbtq identity.

they constantly make homophobic, biphobic, etc comments about me and keep mislabeling me as “bisexual” when im pansexual is SO ANNOYING.

I hate it so fucking much.

i have a hard time becoming friends with boys due to comphet so i don’t know what to do or what to say cause im stuck.

i’m currently identifying as a lesbian and they don’t know that (even though calling me a lesbian as an “insult”), so what can i do without feeling drained, feeling like i cannot support our community or actually feel like you can't do anything, etc.

i really need help w my sexuality cause im so lost.

how do i support the community without my sexuality being brought up??

and how to actually feel comfortable with labels without feeling uneasy.

i really need the best support rn, im going through a lot.

my friends are making fun of me for being lgbtq and calling me slurs, and being extremely horrible.

itaewon tragedy was so messed up :(( i cried yesterday

i am literally. this close. THIS. close. to. fucking. cry. and shout.

my family has a serious obsession w me being gay and keeps forcing me to come out and out the closet. no matter how hard I say no, I REPEATEDLY hear “oh you came out? cant hide now can you?” like no bitch i was basically out years ago at a young age w all those subtle signs of queerness but brushed it off and went w being straight until my queerness became visible to me. i just wasnt so sure and i didnt know this community existed until i was like really old. back then you never knew I was GAY LMFAO.

and they keep saying “you owe me an explanation as to why you’re gay”, “if youre gay why watch kpop boy groups?” (she keeps calling them chinese and i wanna fucking smash a wall omfg), “you owe us a coming out story”, “youre not gay stop lying” etc then I said I don’t owe them shit and they REALLY said “oh but we’re your family? we should know” like.. there’s worser they said but dear god. that house is so lgbtq+ phobic, im suprised. the homophobia, lesbophobia, biphobia, transphobia, etc was REAL and showing in that HOUSE and the whole convo was just utterly disgusting.

i had my own PERSONAL experiences, lemme keep it confidential between me, myself and I.

then she says “oh but do you like 🐱 (down there) or a 🍌 (a guys below)” ? like dont fucking sexualise me??

they kept outing me multiple times,, and keep bringing up that i am a GAY PERSON.

LEAVE ME ALONE?? then my sis had the audacity to say im making up “excuses” like you’re straight? stfu you are not GAY. don’t speak for me. ever heard of unattainable men? oh ofc not cause youre so ignorant lmfao

I hate it here so much...

y’all mfs need to understand, not every person who likes women is a fucking lesbian. People can be bi and have a gf / attraction to girls. and just like how having attraction to men doesn’t mean you’re “being gay” or “straight”. you can be bi, pan, omni, etc even ace and like men. NOT EVERYONE WHO HAS SAME SEX ATTRACTION IS GAY AND/OR LESBIAN. bi, etc people EXIST.

I feel so annoyed and upset, and they SAW my vents in my phone about everything that happened to me. like don’t go through my fucking phone w/o permission??? and then my friend blocked me cause she got jealous AFTER ALL OF THAT.

and this is ALL on christmas. YESTERDAY.

ffs this christmas is fucked up bruh.

I’m never coming out.

and then the way I said people can change lgbtq labels of their sexuality, nothing bad and then my family goes “but you aren’t cake? how the fuck can you change labels lmfao stop lying”

Well done, thanks for forcing a fucking person to come out and out me numerous times.

the only way I’ll come out in when I leave this fucking dungeon. now I can’t even like women anymore now cause i feel so disgusting....

i really need help to feel comfortable in being queer. im really going through a hard time and I need some support please.

yesterday i found 3 stripes of rainbow.

Someone shouted “omfg a rainbow!!” and i FREAKED out

then on my left, 5 stripes, my right, another 3.

at the back behind me, i saw 2.

then it faded away.

although + at lunch, i found 2 again then at home to leave, i found 2 at the window, and another one at night.

IT WAS RAINING THAT WHOLE ENTIRE DAY YESTERDAY LMFAO