Discoveries

Discoveries

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Pt. 2 Pt. 3

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Being raised in the Burrow while knowing you’re not one of them by blood made it difficult when you were younger, but as you grew up alongside Ronald it turned out to be quite easy to fit in. Despite looking nothing like your family, you were a Weasley. You are a Weasley. You told yourself that while looking in the mirror and brushing your white hair each morning. Your mom, Mrs. Weasley, she told you to let her cut it so you wouldn’t have to walk around with it constantly falling into your face. You of course denied each request, loving the ability to swing your hair at your brothers when they annoyed you. 

Waking up to your brothers scrambling downstairs alerted you to breakfast being ready. You sat up in a hurry and rolled out of bed, stumbling into Fred on your way out of your room. You squeaked as you slammed into his side, both of you laughing before you heard your mom yelling at Ronald to not hog the bacon. A gasp left you as you pushed Fred to the side, his footsteps following you as you stumbled down the stairs to the kitchen to smack Ron upside the head. After smacking him and grabbing the bacon you claimed your seat next to Percy. 

The rest of the family settled in and began to eat, everyone thanking Molly for the food while conversation began to fill the silence. You looked around the table at the abundance of orange hair before you realized that Pig wasn’t pecking at your hand for bacon. Confusion settled on your features as Arthur caught onto your expression.

“What’s wrong, Y/N?”

You shook your head and took another bite of bacon, “Pig isn’t pecking my hand off for bacon. He’s normally always here with us.”

The rest of the Weasleys agreed and began creating theories for a few minutes. You sat finishing off your bacon when you heard the frantic flapping that always accompanied Pig. You glanced toward the window and panicked,

“Clear the table! It’s pig!”

Dishes clinked against each other as a space was cleared for his catastrophic landing. Pig head planted into the plate of scrambled eggs that wasn’t moved out of the way quick enough. Fred and George mocked the bird as Percy gathered the letters from him with many pecks to his hand. The letters were handed out to each Weasley, Ron and you gasping and ripping open your Hogwarts letters. You jump from your chair and scream little “yes”’s while the twins squish you between them in a Weasley bear hug. Ron does the same but when the twins turn to him, they speak in unison and give him rough head pats.

“Ickle Ronnie-kins got his Hogwarts letter~ He’s a big boy now!”

Molly gasps from her position at the sink, turning around to gather you and Ron into a hug.

“We must head to Diagon Alley immediately! We need to get the both of you a wand, and some supplies that we no longer have.”

Chatter spread around the room again as you were picked up by George who tossed you to Fred before the latter and former smothered you with advice on how to choose your friends. Most of it made you scoff because it mainly consisted of pulling pranks on people until you made a friend, there was no way you were doing that, you figured that wherever you got sorted you would make friends based on your common ideals.

Ron grabbing your hand to drag you upstairs pulled you from Fred’s arms and your thoughts. You stumbled after him while he chatted away about how he was going to be the best keeper and then join the Chuddley Canons while becoming the Gryffindor prefect in 7th year and winning the house cup for the Gryffindors. You stayed silent as he pulled you into your room, sitting you on your bed and taking up his spot behind you with your hairbrush.

“What about you? Do you think you’ll become prefect for Gryffindor as well?”

Sighing and shrugging you winced at a particularly hard tug to you head,

“I don’t know- Ouch Ronald! Be careful!”

“Sorry Y/N.”

“Anyways, I don’t know which house I’m going to be in-”

Ron cut you off, “Course ya do! Gryffindor like the rest of us!”

“We don’t know that Ron. I could be Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw... maybe even Slytherin! It’s impossible to know until the sorting ceremony. So.. let’s just drop house discussion.”

You felt the disappointment in Ron at your reaction to the houses but he got his pep back when you started on Quidditch,

“I don’t think I’ll try out... ever. I’ll leave that to you, Fred and George... ok? I want to stick to studying. I doubt there will be free time between classes.”

Ronald groaned and gave up on your hair, stomping out of the room with heavy steps until Molly yelled up for whoever was stomping to stop. Watching your brother go and finishing the task of brushing your hair, you focused on the floor. It wasn’t quite focusing though as your mind went blank thinking about what house you might end up in.

A few minutes later, after zoning back in, you heard crashes coming from the twins room and sighed. You were usually in that mess but after hearing Percy scream at them, you were glad you were in your own room. Molly called for the family to gather a little while after the screaming stopped from Percy. Footsteps bounded down the stairs as you were pulled by the arm to the stairs. Being used to the twins grabbing you and picking you up more than the rest of the Weasley family ever had, you sighed and clung onto George.

“Hurry up now Weasleys! We need to head out too Diagon Alley for some school supplies for your sister. Everyone gather around, remember to speak clearly now. Percy, you’re first, come on now,”

Molly patted him on the back as he stepped forward to the grate in the fireplace. You watched him grab a handful of floo powder and call out Diagon Alley. He was gone in the next second and the twins were already lined up with powder in their hands.

“Alright, Fred. You  next, dear.”

“Yes mum.”

Fred disappeared in green flames as Percy had, George followed, then Arthur went. Then Ronald, and it was finally your turn. You stepped up to Molly from the corner of the room where you were covering your eyes as the rest of the family went through. Your hand curled around the soft powder from the jar, Molly smiling at you encouragingly as you were rarely allowed to be out in public for fear of someone accusing your family of kidnapping...for whatever reason. A small smile crossed your lips while you closed your eyes and spoke as clearly as you could,

“DIAGON ALLEY”

The swoosh of green flames engulfed you as you felt a pull at your navel. You grunted when you landed on the grate of the Leaky Cauldron fire place. Stumbling and coughing, two hands grabbed you from the grate, the top of a twins head being the first thing you see when you open your eyes.

“Put me down! I want to walk!”

The twin holding you chuckled as you smacked his head while the other chimed in,

“No can do,”

The one holding you, Fred, you realized, did the normal twin thing and finished off the sentence.

“You’re too fragile to let out into the world Y/N~”

Molly stepped from the grate to hustle over and smack Fred on the shoulder.

“Let the girl walk. You know she rarely leaves the Burrow with us. Let her enjoy herself.”

Fred set you down and you jumped on the spot. Molly gathered you in a big Weasley hug to which you groaned. Once out of the hold, you ran up to the front of the group where Arthur stood chatting with Percy. They both glanced at you and Arthur sent you a smile but Percy immediately began the conversation again. You sighed and glanced around for Ron, finding him standing by the door.

“Mum! Can I go with Ron to Honey Dukes?! Please?”

Your body spins in a full circle until you’re facing Molly, her face lit up with that motherly smile.

“Fred, do go with your siblings. Make sure they don’t get into any trouble while they’re running around out there. We will be headed to Flourish and Blotts for a few books. Meet us in front of Olivanders in half an hour. Am I understood Weasleys?”

Affirmative responses chorused from the family. Percy and Arthur walked out of the shop together, George and Molly following to head out for the books. Fred smirked at you and Ron. That smirk was never good... not even when it was on your face and not one of the twins’. 

“Off we go little siblings. We’ll get your candy and then head Zonko’s joke shop. And we don’t tell mom about the joke shop. Got it?”

Ron nodded his head as you did yours. Ron grabbed your hand before Fred could say another word and pulled you away to the candy shop. Your eyes flicked around the alley in awe. It never failed to take your breath away, even if you had only been here a few times. The streets slowly cleared of people as you ran through them with your brother on your arm, screaming ‘sorry’s’ as you brushed by people. 

“Ronald slow down! We’ve passed Honey dukes!”

Ron just laughed you off and ran faster after hearing Fred yelling at the two of you to stop. You kept running, glancing back to watch Fred struggle to rush through the leaving crowds as the sky darkened. While glancing back at Fred, you ran straight into Ron’s back when he came to a stop.

“Ronald! You’re a brick wall! Why did you...”

You paused as you looked back to your brother but after you realized you were no longer alone with Ron, you froze up. The sneer that met your gaze alongside the blank face beside it made you tug on Rons arm subtlety. The head of white blonde hair meeting your gaze furrowed your eyebrows. As Fred slowed to a stop beside you, he realized the situation and began to nudge you behind him.

“Weasleys.”, the man sneered at your brothers, “Who in the good graces of Salazar let you out of the pig pen?”

You stood behind Fred with growing anger at the man. A small growl left you as insults began to spew from the man, accusations and names being called as your brothers stayed still. You stepped from behind Fred despite his nearly silent pleas for you to stay back. Pushing Ron behind you to Fred, you faced the man head on, staring up at him with a glower on your face. 

“How dare you? You have no right to just insult my family! You’re nothing but an old man desperate for attention because his wife doesn’t love him!”

The man stared at you with shock hidden behind a blank face. The woman beside him stared at you with this look in her eyes. You couldn’t place it exactly but you knew it wasn’t disgust.

“You insolent child. You have no idea who you are speaking too. Filthy blood traitors deserve no ability to speak to a pure blood. Get out of my sights and never show your dirty faces here again!”, he looked down at you for a split second during his rant before he was focused on your brothers once more, “The empty cells in Azkaban are screaming for 6 little pigs to fill them.”

You started shaking in your spot, a hand slowly rising to slap the man wherever you could reach. Before you could even get your hand above your waist, you were against Fred’s chest as him and Ron walked backwards slowly in the now light rain. A glare stayed on your face until Fred turned around to let you go, but that glare only stayed for a seconds as Ron had grabbed your hand and the running began once more. You heard Fred begin to run after you two while yelling for you to stop it already. Giggles left you as you reached Honey Dukes and slid inside. The shopkeeper greeted you with a smile while Fred walked in behind you panting from the run.

“You two rascals better hide tonight. I know where you sleep and so does Georgie~”

You tsked the twin as you gathered some sugar quills in a bag. Ron stood beside you filling a bag to the top with pumpkin pasties, murmuring about sharing some with you later if you got away from the twins. Fred stood chatting with the cashier as you and Ronald gathered another bag full of candy each, your second bag a mix of things for you and the twins to eat when they kidnapped you from your room tonight in retaliation to the running.

Fred payed for the candies and dragged you out of the shop by your hair... gently of course. Ron trudged behind with grumbles and sighs as you made your way to Flourish and Blotts to meet up the family. Seeing George and Molly talking at a bookshelf inside, you wiggled free from the grip on your hair and speed walked into the book shop, nearly bulldozing George in your attempts to hug Molly. His cry of outrage was silenced by Molly’s worrying but his mood changed quite quickly seeing his twin walk into the shop and they broke off to bother some second years they recognized from Hufflepuff or Slytherin. 

After gathering the rest of the books, Ron and the twins wandered away to the quidditch shop, which left you with your mom.

“Mum, can we go to Olivanders? I want to get my wand!”

Molly patted your head and led you along the stone path to the old shop. She opened the door for you, pushing you gently inside and out of the rain. You looked around at the dusty floors and wand boxes wondering why it was so dirty. Your thoughts changed when an old... almost ancient man slid out on a ladder from between the shelves.

“Ah Miss Weasley. I’ve been waiting for the day you would walk into my shop.”

You raised an eyebrow at the man in confusion, “I don’t understand, sir.”

He simply chuckled at you and beckoned you forward, Molly ushering you further in before she stepped out of the shop. 

“Come up here, child. I need to gather some wands for you to test out and then we can get started.”

You nodded at him but by the time you had, he was already down the row again and gathering a few boxes in his arms. You watched him curiously as he muttered to himself, sliding to the front and stepping from the ladder. 

“Ok, try these.”, he slid three wands in front of you, “Just give them each a gentle swish and the rest will be done by the wand.”

You picked up the first one, admiring the details on the handle. Flicking it gently as Olivander had said, but it went horribly as a bolt of light flew past the mans head. He simply ducked and plucked the wand from your hand, handing you the second one in apprehension, moving the third away from your reach. You swished the second wand and watched as a flower pot exploded. Cringing back from the shards and making eye contact with Olivander made you smile sheepishly.  Olivander sighed and watched you carefully for moment, gathering the wands together then sliding back between the shelves. He was gone for two minutes before you saw him carrying out two very dusty, ornate boxes. 

“Those are very pretty boxes, sir. But why do they look different from all the others?”

The man hummed at your curiosity and carefully opened the pure white box. You stood up on your tippy toes to try and see the wand. When you failed, you stood still and waited patiently for the wand to be handed to you. As it was handed to you, you gasped at the wand.

“What is it made of, sir?”

“This wand... it is one of the rarest to grace our presence in this shop. It has not been claimed in over 30 years. It would be a wonder for you to obtain this wand. You, Miss Weasley, would be the second person to obtain this wand core. We shall see. Now give it a flick.”

You stared at the wand in confusion as you slowly reached out for it. What about this wand was so special that only one other person had a wand of this type? A sigh left you, grasping the wand a little tighter before giving it a gentle flick. Witnessing no destruction confused you, but as you faced Olivander, you realized why. Charlie had told you about many things such as wand lore, mythical creatures, rarest potion ingredients and so on. 

“It’s... thestral hair.”

Olivander paused his packing away of the wand you had placed down. 

“You are correct, Miss Weasley. The only other wand with such a core is in the possession of Albus Dumbledore.”

You nodded slowly as he opened the other box, humming to himself once more while he pulled the dark wand from the box. This one, you had no idea what it was. So you stared at it in confusion while the old man in front of you chuckled with a cough following it.

“Let’s give it a try before I explain this wands properties to you, Miss Weasley.”

You agreed and grabbed the wand gently, but unlike the other wands, this one sent a tingle up your arm. It caused you to smile and so you gave it a flick. The broken vase repaired itself and the destruction was cleaned in that single swish. Olivander smiled at you proudly and rung up the wand, handing you the box, clear of dust.

“This wand, Miss Weasley, it is special. Just as you are. A beautiful poplar wood, picked from one of the oldest poplar trees out there still. The phoenix feather core is unique. Powerful. It will adapt to your magic and allow you to surge through it. It will never disappoint you, Miss Y/N. This wand will be your savior in many situations to come. Yes it will. Have a good day now, young lady.”

You stared at the wand in awe, nodding along to Olivanders speech, “Thank you, sir. I won’t let it... or you... down. I promise!”

You finished the sentence quickly having noticed the rest of your family standing outside the window, Arthur and the large blonde man from earlier seeming to have an argument. You uttered a quick goodbye, running out of the shop to your dad and tugging on his arm.

“Dad! Dad! Look I got my wand! It’s poplar and phoenix feather! Look at it, Dad. Isn’t it beautiful?”

Molly walked up to your side and guided you back into the family huddle, you showing off your wand from its place in the box. Everyone indulged you with ooo’s and ahhhh’s, but the big blonde man you yelled at was staring holes into your head. You felt the weight of his gaze and turned around in your dramatic showcase to Fred and George, meeting his cold grey eyes with your own. Feeling odd, you tilted your head at the man in confusion and made eye contact with his wife who immediately reached a dainty hand to the mans arm. They then made eye contact, sharing a silent conversation like you had seen the twins do on many, many occasions. 

Arthur cleared his throat and directed you all, minus Ron, to head to the Three Broomsticks and have some lunch before you all headed home. Everyone agreed with the idea of food and the twins carried you on their shoulders, pretending to drop you on multiple occasions. You laughed loudly, Percy muttering in annoyance behind you. This was the beginning, you thought, this is the start of my life as a witch. 

Reader x Sirius Black oneshot

Waking up surrounded by the red blankets of Gryffindor tower, you thought the day would be fairly normal. A few exploded cauldrons, sure. Professor Slughorn yelling at a student, never. Peeves pulling a harmful prank, most definitely. But you would never be prepared for the test that Professor McGonagall placed on your desk during Transfigurations. You started answering the questions with a sigh as the rest of your class began their own. After 20 minutes of staring at a question, you were completely zoned out, so far out of the present that you didn’t even notice a certain James Potter peaking over your shoulder at your answers. And while you weren’t the best at Transfigurations, you still had an average above most. But recently, your mind had been occupied. No longer with school or what new book you were going to get at Flourish and Blotts, but a special someone who had captured your heart successfully after years of trying. Feeling hot breath on the back of your neck, you glanced up towards McGonagall who was grading papers before you turned your head to meet James’s  hazel eyes as your own narrowed. Checking that McGonagall was still occupied, you reached back smacked James over the head with an open palm, the sound echoing through the silent room as you and James scrambled to make yourselves look like it wasn’t you two who had caused the disturbance. Glancing at Remus Lupin, your desk partner, you smiled in embarrassment as his broad shoulders shook in silent laughter at James’s misfortune. He shot you a crooked smile as Professor McGonagall hushed the class when some Ravenclaw girls giggled at the sound of the smack. Everyone's focus shot back to their tests as McGonagall stood to make rounds of the classroom. Your focus shifted around the room as your eyes followed your head of house around it. Focusing your gaze on the one and only Sirius Black, you sighed as you watched his grey eyes trail around the room. His eyes meeting yours, you quickly stared down at your test, speed answering the questions as a blush covered your cheeks. 

After handing in your test and rushing out of the classroom to the main staircase, you began the descent to potions in a hurry. Stumbling down a few steps and just barely catching yourself, you heard your name being called from the entrance of the Great Hall. Looking up from the stairs, your eyes met with Black’s. Heaving a sigh, you jumped the last three steps to walk briskly towards the handsome boy before he kept yelling your name. Stopping in front of him, you watch him brush his curly black hair away from his forehead before you notice his smirk. You shake your head in fear, that smirk was never a good sign. It usually meant a prank, or he was getting ready to spew a pick up line. Sirius’s smirk grew as he noticed your fear, his hands reaching out to hold your smaller ones in his. 

“My dear Y/N. We have been friends for many years-”

“NO... we have not!”

Your voice echoed around the entrance hall as eyes were drawn towards the pair of you while other students kept rushing too their next classes. Shaking your head at the situation, you heard low chuckles coming from an alcove right beside Sirius’s shoulder. You watched as he turned his head, your eyes following the movement before you noticed the rest of the marauders hiding away in the alcove. Your hands tightened around the ones holding yours, grey eyes meeting your exasperated ones. A brand new voltage of smirk crossed the boys face as he licked his lips.

“Through the many ups and downs that I have helped you through, and with the love for me that gathered in your gathered in your heart-”

A snarl crossing your lips halted his sentence before it dropped as you realized, even though he was being a dick about it, he was right. You had been slowly becoming attracted to the Black boy, and no past boyfriend throughout the years had stopped it. Sighing, you dragged him into the alcove with his friends, deciding that they had chosen to want to witness the results of Sirius Black trying to woo the girl who ignored him. 

“Just shut up, Sirius! I understand that the theatrics are for your reputation but it doesn’t-”

Your words were cut off by lips pressing against yours, your hands reaching up to tangle in silky, curly locks. Pulling back a moment later, you opened your eyes after they had closed from surprise of the touch of his lips against yours. Staring at Sirius incredulously, you saw a genuine smile cross his lips as his friends cheered in the background, their wolf whistles and clapping muffled by the shock of the kiss. 

“My beautiful Y/N. Will you be mine?”

You just barely caught yourself as you felt tears of joy gathering in your eyes, your head nodding yes before you even realized it.

“Yes, you big mangy mutt. I’ll be yours.”

And thus began the chaos of your life long relationship with the one and only, Sirius Black.    

Attention

Pt.2

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Being a Grimes was a hard life to live. Your father as an ex-sheriff, mom a cheating whore and your little brother a menace. The apocalypse didn’t help your hatred towards Lori, her cheating with Shane when you all thought your father, Rick, to be dead in the hospital bed you were dragged away from. You felt sort of relieved when Lori passed giving birth to Judith, of course it was rough to lose your mom, but she no longer felt like your mom at that point.

 Carl always hated you for how you acted towards her, but when your family reached Alexandria, you had the chance to explain and his attitude changed drastically. While Alexandria felt too good to be true to begin with, your group melded seamlessly into the community. A few months or so passed with little incident, meeting Jesus from Hilltop, living in a false sense of peace. In the time of peace you had, you were going crazy without music, the songs running through your head never letting you fall asleep easy.

 So, you fixed up an old iPod with hundreds of songs left on it from before the fall of humanity. Skipping through the house you shared with your blood family, you slid on your socks into the kitchen blasting Choke by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME. You were in your own little world of music when Daryl walked into the room, staring you down with an amused look for a little before he cleared his throat. A gasp left you in panic when you slipped and fell onto the floor, your back meeting it on a personal level once more. 

“Fuck Daryl! What the hell?!”

His laugh filled your ears as you grabbed the counter to pull yourself from the floor. You couldn’t help yourself and started laughing at yourself with your boyfriend, his hands clutching his stomach as he keels over. You make your way over and smack his shoulder lightly while wheezing out a small ‘stop it!’. The both of you kept laughing until you slipped again and pulled Daryl down with you by mistake. He landed half on top of you with a grunt as you coughed from his weight being thrown on you suddenly. The laughter stopped after you gave a few more giggles, glancing up to the doorway to see Rick staring you down with that dad look on his face. You panic and push at Daryl’s shoulders trying to get him off of you before your dad came and beat the hell out of his best friend for being on top of his little girl... again. 

Daryl stayed pinned on top of you while your dad stared holes into the back of his head. You pushed at his shoulders more urgently, your eyes filled with panic. The crossbow wielding man suffocating you looked up and over his shoulder at the sound of cowboy boots, knowing that only Rick Grimes wore those in Alexandria. He panicked as well, scrambling off you before your dad could reach you, his hands pulling you from the floor to use you as a shield of human meat. 

“What were you two just doing? You better not have been fuckin’ my little girl Dixon. If you were I swear to whatever god is-”

“Dad! Stop it! We weren’t doing anything...I sort of slipped and fell and... Daryl fell with me.”

Blue eyes pierced yours before finding that you were telling the truth and nodded, clearing his throat and scratching at his head nervously,

“Maggie's gone into labour. We have to go to Hilltop. Doc says we shouldn’t rush it though. She’s not dilatated yet, but she asked for you by her side, Y/N.”

Both you and Daryl gasp at the news, you scrambling to get your running shoes and a sweater to keep warm. Daryl stared you down as you ran around the downstairs floor of the house for your things. Once you collected them, you kissed Daryl on the cheek as well as your dad before you were out of the house in a blur of black. You no longer cared what your father would say to your boyfriend, just focused on getting to your best friend who was going to give birth soon. 

You muttered hellos towards people you passed on your sprint, their eyes wide as they watched you go. When you reached the building you slowed your pace to a walk, entering the building panting and sweating and tired, but that was easily forgettable when you saw the state that Maggie was in. Glenn was at her side as you expected, him not looking the best either as he watched over and talked to his wife. As Maggie looked up at you, relief came over her face before she winced and clutched at her stomach, Glenn grasping her hands in worry. You stumbled to her side, Glenn matching your concern that she waved away even though she looked like the dead wandering outside. 

“Maggie... you are not ok. I’m going to find my dad... you’re way worse than you seem. Stay right here!”, you pointed at her spot in the bed as you kissed her forehead and sprinted away, yelling for Eugene to get everyone to the RV. 

More people watched you like you were crazy, your hair flying behind you and your steps echoing through the safe zone. Daryl, who had escaped your dad started running with you, questions flying at you as you ran. You answered all of them and he immediately broke away to gather everyone in your group for the trip, also wanting it to be as safe as possible for Maggie and the baby. As soon as you reached your house, you called for your dad and Michonne responded in a tone of confusion and calm. You sprinted upstairs after Michonne’s call back, her stopping you from falling as you tripped on the edge of the carpet.

“Dad! Maggie is getting worse, so much worse, we have to go! Right now!”, you tugged on Michonne’s hands, beckoning your dad to hurry the fuck up because he was just staring at you like he found Daryl on you again. 

They both reacted after a minute, shushing noises coming from both of them as Rick walked towards you to gather you in a hug. You sagged into it as Michonne rubbed your back, both shushing you still before Carl walked in and asked why he heard yelling. Then was when you started up again, tugging at you dad this time, ranting about how pale and weak Maggie looked in the bed. Carl reacted similar to you and began panicking, muttering about who would take care of Judith. You insisted that Olivia should but your dad silenced conversation.

“BE QUIET. OK. Y/N, you will stay and take care of Judith, Carl, grab your gun and lets get Maggie to Hilltop before dark. Don’t fight this, Y/N. You know you can’t put Maggie under more stress.”, his eyes met yours and you sighed knowing at every turn for the worse you would breakdown more and more. 

“Ok...”, you turned to Carl again and gripped his shoulders, “Don’t do anything dumb there kiddo. Stay safe and take care of Maggie.”

He nodded and hugged you before he left the room, Rick hugging you once more as Michonne nodded at you. You followed Carl's steps out of the room and back to the streets of Alexandria. You noticed Rosita and Abraham walking from a house and sprinted to them, sliding to a stop in front of them. 

“Don’t let Carl get hurt. I trust you both. I know you’ll keep an eye out for him. I have to stay and watch Judith... be safe.”, you hugged them both quickly before jogging to find the next group of people heading out. 

You came across everyone else already at the RV, Rick holding Judith and waiting for you to approach. You know he knew you would be running around  telling everyone to stay safe and to say a goodbye to Maggie. You grabbed your little sister from his arms, smiling at her coo of content being held by her sister. Your head turned rapidly through the group, searching for your boyfriends gruff expression when you spotted him, Glenn and Abraham helping Maggie out on a cot from the infirmary. You walked over to go through your stay safe speech, Maggie holding your hand until she was in the door of the RV, Rick now helping to lift her into the back onto the bed. Daryl stayed back to give you a peck on lips, you exchanged “I love you’s” and stay safes before he was in the RV and then they were gone. You waved at the RV with Judith until it was out of sight, a sigh leaving you as you walked back to the house to play with your sister before it was time for her dinner. 

You estimated it had been at least two hours since your family had left with Maggie. Having no way to know if they were alright terrified you, but you stayed calm because if you had panicked, Judith would’ve been crying as well and you could never calm her when you weren’t. Your little sister had fallen asleep on you as you had read her a beat up children’s book in hopes of making her tired after eating. When she finally did, you placed her gently in her crib and wandered to the kitchen. You stared at the floor in contemplation of whether or not you wanted water or orange juice. During your decision you may have zoned out... but we don’t mention that. Holding your glass of orange juice, you sighed. This was the second longest you had ever gone without knowing how your group was. It made you anxious, so anxious that you left the house quietly to sit by the little pond near the back walls of the community. The calm water always allowed you to calm your thoughts but as you sat watching the small ripples, it made you more anxious. You had to move, do something with your body because you just could not sit still, your bouncing leg testifying the truth behind your thoughts (unlike Amber Heard). So you got up and began a jog. It was all you could think of until the old crap box of an ipod fell from your pocket. You stared at it reflecting the moonlight before you realized that staring at it wouldn’t turn it on and calm your thoughts as you ran. 

Turning the ipod on and stuffing the headphones into your ears, you started your journey as a light jog. Your pace slowly progressed as you made your way around the entire community, soon enough you were sprinting through streets and weaving around lamp posts under the light of the full moon and stars. The breeze caressed your shoulders as you ran for a while, only stopping when you nearly fell over the edge of a sidewalk. When you did and wiped your brow of sweat, looking around to see where you ended up. Seeing that you ended up at the gates, you sighed remembering why you had began your run in the first place. Time wasn’t really something you were entirely sure of anymore so when you glanced at the ipod time out of habit, you sighed. You never asked any member of Alexandria if they had a clock that was never changed, so your ipod time just read 1:23am. You estimated it might be right but really you just hoped it wasn’t. That would mean that your family had gone for most of the day and night, with no way of knowing when they would be back...well. Until the gates opened for the RV as you had started a slow walk back to the house. Seeing it covered in bullet holes and the look on your dads face as he drove, you knew deep down that something happened. 

Your worst fears were confirmed when the door opened and out stepped everyone except for Glenn, Maggie, Abraham and Daryl. Not seeing them brought tears to your eyes as you rushed to your dad and pulled him into an embrace, looking around for answers. Rick looked like he had died and been revived three times with no proper recovery to look like a human again, Rosita was crying, Carl was dead silent and looking angry if anything. It did not settle well with you as your little brother made eye contact with you and shook his head before he walked away from everyone. No one gave you answers as they all split ways, whatever happened out there shaking them all to the core as your dad sobbed into your shoulder. Michonne was the only one who looked semi-normal, her hand steading you under your dads weight. You stared her down curiously, wanting answers about what had happened and where your boyfriend and best friends were. She just shook her head while staring at the back of Ricks head. You knew that meant it wasn't wise to discuss what happened in front of the broken man. He hadn’t cried this much since... well, since Lori died. 

So, you went along with it and helped your dad to the house, silently as possible bringing him to his room where he could shower the blood off him and maybe regain some thought. When Michonne situated him under the stream of water and sat beside you on the couch, you didn’t ask what happened. You knew she would let you know when she was ready to put into words. The two of you sat in silence, only the water running providing background noise.

“Everything was on plan. We were making our way to Hilltop but we encountered blocks in the road. The saviors put them there. Negan. That’s the leaders name.”, Michonne took a big breath, not knowing how to explain the rest as she stared at her hands, “It was unexpected. They cornered us. Eugene took the RV the route we were going while we ran through the woods carrying Maggie on the stretcher. We were cornered that way too.”

You listened avidly, leaning forwards onto your knees and reaching to hold her hand, Michonne squeezing it lightly in thanks for your silent comfort.

“He made us kneel. On the ground, in front of him. Negan, I mean.”, she corrected herself when she saw your confusion, “There was a lot of them though. He said he was pissed about the outpost we attacked a while back. Said we had to pay for killing so many of his men, even when he sent more to kill us and we killed them.”

Michonne paused and tilted her head towards the stairs where the sound of the shower running was coming from, “Negan took your dad in the RV somewhere... he won’t talk about it. Before that... he took revenge.”

You could see the struggle in her mind on how to word the happenings before the RV trip with Negan. Michonne had just opened her mouth to phrase it gently, knowing you lost your boyfriend and two good friends without knowing it yet when Carl chimed in from the stairs as he walked down them to the kitchen. 

“He bashed in Abrahams head with his baseball bat. Daryl got angry at his taunting, punched Negan, Negan got more angry and based in Glenn’s as well.”

He vanished up the stairs after that, leaving you and Michonne to stare after him in disbelief. On your end it was because you had learned so coldly that two of your friends had had their heads bashed in brutally by a baseball bat, which Michonne soon explained is also covered in barbed wire and called Lucille. You had scoffed at that, as any person would, but the look your dad’s girlfriend sent you had you rethinking your choices. She continued to explain that because of Daryl’s burst of energy and anger despite being injured caused Negan to take an interest him. Which led to the Saviors pulling him from the ground and into a truck to be taken to the sanctuary. 

You had frozen, your mind blank with the thought that you wouldn’t be seeing your boyfriend in a long while despite seeing him earlier and everything was ok. Tears leaked down your face as you shrank into the couch, your entire body shaking as grief washed over you. Michonne rubbed your leg soothingly for a little while until the shower turned off, she then excused herself to go and stay with your dad, knowing you had your ways of dealing with sadness. She was right, you did. Sobbing still and shaking violently, you made your way outside again, walking with your head down until you made it to the gates. It would never be the same and you knew that when Rosita came up to you with tears streaming down her face as well and hugged you tightly. 

As you both stood sobbing into each others shoulders, you knew that you both had just gotten closer, but also that safety was never something you would get again. With the moon casting shadows over your hugging figures as cries of despair filled the night, something had set in steel deep down inside you. You, along with the rest of the community, would never be the same. Not even with Jesus smiling at you from Hilltop.

The way this edit had me on the floor.

Disguises pt. 2

Pt. 1

~~~~~~~

Time flew by as you heard reports coming through on the walkie talkies, your own on the dash of the truck. 

“They’re headed south, just as we suspected boss.”

Negan smirked at you and Simon as he responded with a curt ‘good’ before the trucks engine was started again and the pedal was pushed to the floor.

“Here we fuckin go!”

Panic ran through your nerves as you clutched onto Simons thigh with your older brother laughing his ass off at your pain.

“This isn’t funny! You could’ve run us off the road and attracted more walkers!”

Negan just shook his head and slowed down enough for your to see an RV headed straight for where you were now parked. You furrowed your eyebrows and chanced a look at Simon. His eyes were focused on the RV but he had his hands ready and waiting on his walkie talkie and gun.

“Ready boys?”

The walkie talkie crackled with an affirmative response before yelling filled your ears with more gunshots. You sighed in annoyance as Negan grabbed your small hand in his large one and pulled you gently from the truck. You glanced up at him when you felt him lean down, 

“How do you like our new ride, oh sister dear?”

You didn’t respond. You had no need too, and you were going in that RV one way or another. You shook your head and began the small trek towards it, your eyes set on the man with a mullet who was on his knees to the side.

“What’s his deal?”

You paused your walk and nudged a random savior, nodding to the man.

“New little fuckin pig!”

Your head turns to see your brother swinging Lucille at his side while the man on the ground cowers away in fear. 

A hand rubs your forehead as you turn your head the other way to look around for Simon. Not seeing him, you frown and walk to the RV. Glancing around inside you shrug and take a seat at the table. You drummed your fingers on the table while you waited for Negan to join you with whoever would be driving. You jumped in your seat when the door slammed open and bounced off the counter as Negan sauntered in and sat across from you. He winked your way as you stared out the window, a small smile gracing your lips at his wink.

“Let’s get this show on the road!”

A couple minutes passed as you stared out the window in the parked RV, the casual chatter as preparations were being finished greeted your ears when you tuned back in to the world.

“How long until they get here?”

Negan chuckled and reached over to pat your hand which lay on the table,

“Any minute now. Don’t you worry.”

As he finished his sentence, you heard shuffling outside and Simons voice ringing out in the clearing,

“All right! We got a full boat! Let’s meet the man.”

Two knocks sound on the side of the RV and your heart drops as your eyes dart to meet Negan's.

“No killing?”

“You know I can’t tell ya that, Y/N. These sorry shits are unpredictable. Buckle up and wait for your que. You’re the ‘nice’ one, so act like it. I don’t like ordering you around, but for this, it’s important it all goes to plan.”

You sigh and stand to hug your brother as he lets out a sigh to accompany yours. A kiss planted on your forehead has you out of view from the open door even though you know they can’t see much past a certain distance. 

Your back slams against the seat as you kick your legs up and listen to Negan give his usual speech.

“Pissin our pants yet? Boy do I have a feeling we’re getting close.”

You hear his confident walk forwards as you close your eyes, feeling the anger you know is on at least three of the faces outside the RV.

“Yep. Gonna be pee-pee pants city in here real soon!”

Your eyes rolled as you heard the fake glee behind his elongated ‘L’.

“Which one of you pricks is the leader?”

One of the men shuffles forward and you hear a grunt as he tells your brother,

“It’s this one. He’s the guy.”

You sigh as you hear an exaggerated sigh from Negan and a small huff leaves your lips as you realize your sighs were synced. You stand slowly as you hear Simon whisper over the walkie talkie for you to be ready to walk outside.

“Hi. You’re Rick, right? I’m Negan.”

Your hands run nervously through your hair and you sigh, bouncing in your spot. Your shaky hands pick up the walkie talkie and you sigh into it quietly. 

“And I do not appreciate you killing my men! Also, when I sent more people to kill your people, you killed more of my people.”

You shake your head and press on the walkie talkie buttons, 

“Simon, I don’t feel good ‘bout this one.”

“I know, but your brother calls the shots. It’s too late now.”

You toss the walkie onto the table and straighten your jacket to calm your nerves. You double check your holsters for your knife and gun while you tie your shirt into a small knot above your belt.

“Not cool. Not cool. You have no idea how not cool that shit is. But I think you’re gonna be up to speed shortly.”

One last sigh leaves your lips as you steel your nerves and set your game face. Another run through of your hair with your hand and the door swings open.

“Yeah. You are so gonna regret crossing me in a few minutes.”

Negan chuckles as he swings Lucille around in front of the group while you step from the RV into the area beside him. You cock your hip out and cross your arms, looking up and down the line of people, taking each one of them in. 

“You see Rick, whatever you do, you do not mess with the new world order.”

Your e/c eyes take in the confusion on the groups faces as they stare at you, you smirk at a few and watch as their eyes switch between your brother and you for a few seconds with realization filling their scared faces.

“Ah. See, now I realize that my sister here is a stunning sight, but I am the one talking. You look at me when I talk to you!”

You shake your head at your brother and place a hand on his arm,

“Hey, hey. They’ve been through a lot.”

You say condescendingly as you glance down the line again, absorbing the sight of the bulky redhead kneeled proudly and sitting tall, the kid with an eyepatch sitting up tall with no emotion on his face, the dirty man curled on the ground in a blanket with blood soaking through it. Your eyes stop on the woman who's curled over, pale as a ghost and sweating missiles. Concern fills you as you look at her, your façade dropping when you realize her arms are around her stomach.

“Negan.”

You whisper towards your brother as you frantically pat his arm, Simon walking to grab Lucille without instruction as he grabs both your arms to calm you down.

“Hey. Shh. Breathe.”

Your mouth moves with no words coming out of it, your eyes flickering between both of his in a panic.

“She’s- She- you can’t...”

Negan shakes you and blows in your face as you recoil, coughing and taking deep breaths as you rest your head on his chest. You straighten up and gather your emotions, signing to Simon to get you a water bottle.

“Sorry. Sorry. Girl stuff, y’know?”

You hear a laugh leave someone and you turn to the people with a smile on your face before your eyes land on the sickly woman and tears fill your eyes.

“What’s your name?”

You ask the woman in a gentle voice, handing Negan your waist holster to show that you mean no harm. You wait for Simon to hand you the water bottle as you crouch and make your way to the girl.

“Here, please. Drink some. You need it more than any of us and I promise it’s a completely fresh bottle. Look..”

You sit down on the ground in front of her and twist open the bottle, the snap of the seal breaking ringing through the clearing before you reach for her hand slowly and pass her the bottle. As she drinks slowly, you watch as Rick stares holes into the side of your face. You turn towards him and send him a small, regretful smile. A furrowed brow and small frown is all you get in return before he turns away. 

“M-maggie.”

Your head snaps to Maggie as she coughs roughly, your hand going to her back immediately to calm her. You say a thank you as you stare back at Negan for a moment and he immediately knows what you’re remembering. A few years before the apocalypse, you had had a husband with plans for a family and nice future in the country. Your plans went to shit when your husband died in a car crash and you lost your baby in the same accident. 

“I’m Y/N. Do you need anything? Where’s hurting most? Does anyone know if she's dilated?”

You look left and right at her companions and see heads shaking ‘no’. You close your eyes and let out a long sigh. Turning back to Maggie who was sat cowering away from your touch, you whisper soft ‘hey’s’ as she whimpers and groans.

“Did we bring anything medical? Any scissors, alcohol, pain killers, morphine? Bandages?”

You stand quickly and list things out to a savior, Negan clenching his jaw as he puts a hand on your shoulder. You stare him down as he does to you, his eyes conveying his dislike for you trying to help the people who caused a lot of trouble for the two of you. 

“Please. You know why. This is the only time I’ve ever wanted to help two of them. It’ll be the last and then we can keep the speech going and carry on. But she’s nearing critical condition.”

You  whispered to him as you felt the hundreds of eyes on you as you begged your brother to help them out some. Confusion radiated from a few of them, Rick being the one who gave off the strongest waves. Glancing at him and then at Maggie and the man in the blanket shivering on the ground, Negan sighs and snaps at a Savior.

“Hurry it up then.”

His head snapped to Rick soon after, his eyes narrowing at the relief he saw on the cowering mans face,

“Don’t you think I’m done with you pricks yet. My dear sister just happens to have a kind heart towards... people. Not me. And you will regret crossing us, yes you fucking will.”

The cockiness in Negan's tone was enough for Rick to look scared again, new beads of sweat rolling down his forehead and mingling with the dirt and old sweat. A bottle of rubbing alcohol and bandages was handed to you, your brother giving you a look before he went on to taunt the group as you tended to Maggie first, making sure she was warm and giving her pain killers you had in your pocket in case of a surprise migraine. 

Maggie settled down eventually, the contractions being more than a minute apart, so you knew you wouldn’t have to birth a child in the middle of the forest with loads of Saviors and her group watching. You combed her hair away from her face one last time, nodding to Negan and kneeling in front of the injured man. 

“Is it alright if I take a look? You’re bleeding a lot, it could be worse than you thought.”, you held out a hand palm up, waiting for his okay to reach and take the blanket off him. 

A growl is all you got from and you sighed, sitting on your ass in front of him, staring into his eyes.

“Listen, I know you don’t like me already, considering my brother...but I was a doctor before this all. Even if it doesn’t matter anymore, I have PHDs in Medicine and psychology. I know what I’m doing and you have every reason not to trust me. But if that gets infected, you will die a slow and painful death.”

You heard Negan chuckling at you, a ‘that’s my little sister!’ leaving him as he swung Lucille in front of Rick. An eye roll later and a short grunt from the man, you had the blanket off the wound and the area rubbed down with water to clear the blood. Your hands worked gently against the muscle of the man, his hisses and jerks away from your touch making you smile. Normally you wouldn’t be smiling while tending to a patient, but with the sounds he produces and then the way he acts being so juxtaposed you couldn’t help it. 

So, you started laughing. You heard Simon chuckle with you because your laugh was always contagious for him. You probably looked crazier than Negan, sitting in front of this injured man, rubbing alcohol and bandages in hand as your body shook with laughter. 

“And what the fuck are we laughing about over here?”, you heard your brother ask in his intimidation voice.

It didn’t intimidate you and instead had you waving your hands about like a crazy person as practically fell over onto your side as Negan approached with anger written all over his face. Seeing that made you laugh more as tears streamed from your eyes to make mud with the dirt below. Negan chuckled at you which set you off into a new round of laughter. Simon had started laughing at you laughing and crying, so you stood and walked over to him still laughing your ass off. 

Simon caught you as you stumbled into him, his laughter combined with his mustache tickling your neck as he hid in it made you both collapse to the ground. Simon was struggling to breathe as you had straight up stopped breathing. Your faces were both red as a tomato as Negan walked over and cleared his throat. You started laughing more, which caused Simon to laugh even more, your body moving automatically into Negan as you stood and wrapped him into a hug.

“I’m soryyyy!”, you wheezed, still giggling, “I don’t know why I’m laughing!”

A sigh filled you ears past the combined laughter and before you knew it, you were over your brothers shoulder, still laughing as he carried you back into the RV. Being placed on the bed had you wheezing out laughs as Negan chuckled at you and then Simon was thrown in alongside you and you both laughed at Negans pissed off face. 

“Si! Stop laughing!”, you took a deep breath and started laughing harder at the offended look on his face.

“For me to stop laughing, you have to!”, he argued back, his head taking up residence in your stomach which made his head bounce with your laughter. 

This brought on more laughter that you just knew had to be heard from outside the RV, Negan’s voice growing louder to drown out your laughter, but you were too lost in mirth to even notice. His occasional screamed words, when your laughing got too loud, caused even more laughter when you started mocking him. It was sibling mocking, nothing serious, but it threw you and Simon into a fresh round of laughs until you had both passed out on the bed in the back of the RV.

We Lost An Angel

Today, we lost a star. Astro was one of the first k-pop groups I got into and seeing the news today broke my heart. Moonbin was, is and always will be my bias wrecker. I hope the rest of the world can take another lesson from yet another su!cide of a kind soul and stop all the hate towards idols that are just trying to survive it all. May Moonbin rest in peace. He will be missed greatly and will never be forgotten. Another star is in the sky tonight, I hope you find peace, Moonbin. 🥀🕊️