it's my drama. appreciate my flaws & learn from my mistakes. it's okay to cry your heart out but don't forget that there's always a second chance. be strong but don't forget to be yourself. you can be wild and carefree but don't forget to be serious at times. oh remember to laugh too! life is amazing and unfair at the same time... deal with it even if it's not the reality that you wanted!
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Where Can I Find The Answer?
where can i find the answer?
It's really hard when you don't have someone you can turn into and ask for help when you are so lost and very confused. I wish there's someone who can answer all my questions right now and stay by my side until i am strong enough to face this challenge... It's scary out there and i wish i am brave like others so that i can get over this. It's gonna be a long battle but with them i bet we can make it through... Coz I have to be strong for them. I have to show them i am strong. I will keep myself from crying in front of them. I promise i'll be their strength and not the cause of their worries... I shouldn't add up to the worries dur to this battle. I am the soldier not the cause. I will give my everything to fight it! I will do everything i can because i love you and you are my life.
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this connection.
I don't understand why i hafta keep on waiting for you when everyone knows it's over. You'll never contact me again. You've already moved on. You've already got over it. I was the only one left holding onto anything i can hold onto... I hate that i hafta wait like a fool. I pity myself for thinking that you'll make an effort to keep in touch with me again... when am i going to learn my lesson? Until when am i gonna act like this? Until when do i hafta hold this thing while waiting for your message for me like a kid waiting for school year to be over??
Dad's request/reminder.
"Ate, wag ka muna mag-aasawa." And here i am already thinking what my life would be like if i get to have my own kid in 8-10 more years from now... oh sweet cupcake, am i gonna be able to still make this dream into a reality when the present is clearly telling me that i already have a handful of responsibilities??...
the last day of my 2011.
today's the last day of 2011. i've been thinking since yesterday what are the specific things i've done this year that i can be proud of or like things that made me cry coz i was stupid but somehow taught me a lesson... but until now, i still cannot think of anything. ugh now i feel like time passed by so quickly that i was not able to make the most of it and have any memorable moment i can cherish forever...
is my life that boring that even i can't think of anything... waaah this needs to be changed!!!!
i know it's hard to do a new year's resolution. i know i kept telling myself i'll do this and i'll do that every year. but things are not completed nor did i give efforts to start it... *sigh* why am i such a stupid kid? a lazy, worthless, stupid kid... OTL
i may not remember anything at the moment... but hopefully in 2012, i'll get a chance to make happy memories, learn more about life, experience new feelings and grow up into a useful human being...
i may have several regrets this year...(nah i don't want to name it one by one coz it's a lot actually)... but i'll treat them as challenges i accomplished. i, hopefully, learned something from it.
so i guess this is it... good bye 2011. thank you for a year full of happiness and sadness, success and failures, opportunities and problems, love and hatred, new friends and new relationships i made throughout the whole year. it has been a good year to me (somehow). thank you 2011
hello 2012! please be nice to me... i only wish to be successful this year. i know i can't have everything i want so i am asking you to just be nice to me. don't let me give up. i need to survive this year. i have to. i have to or my family... let's be good friends, kay?
i know my future still looks blur to all you... actually, i'm still lost right now. I thought i'll never get to see the end of this tunnel but i guess was wrong. today, i was shocked by the best surprise ever. I got a good news unexpectedly this afternoon, telling me I am going to graduate this semester with an Associate in Science majoring in Science. Lol i was speechless for awhile thinking it was not possible at all and then after i processed everything i can't help but smile and feel happy as if i forgot every problems i am facing right now. i felt so proud of myself. I felt like telling the whole world that i am finally graduating. I wanna share this happiness i am feeling right now to everyone. unfortunately, i don't think this is the right time for that. maybe it's not the right time to celebrate for it. I understand it because i still have a long way to go. this is just the beginning. i still hafta learn and experience everything this cruel world can offer me. & i believe i am ready for it. I can only celebrate and brag about this achievement once i am able to live on my own, give back to my family, share gifts to other people and succeed in my career of choice. Until then, i will work harder, with passion, and positive outlook in life. :D 11-28-2011. the day Mike E. informed me that i am going to graduate with my A.S. :D It is a memorable day, indeed.