Snoozin On His Paws T~T

snoozin on his paws T~T

it was as if i fucking killed the queen myself

i didnt find out ppl took best friends so seriously until like last year. like my best friends were just like the people i deemed best in the group?? like yeah the others are okay but you're genuinely sound. turns out that's just friends, and people dont acc tolerate eachother shit they just pretend to their faces

and its not until i looked back at everyone in college i realised that. like okay yeah theres some aspects i dont like abt them but okay? that's expected, we are here to learn and have fun too and ima have fun with you despite that, that was an unspoken rule i assumed until i realised everybody in college actually hated eachother and were just too faced. and then seeing them be hardcore abt best friendships was so ?? like oh i completely got the whole friendship chart wrong sorry, oops ig, i just assumed we had out FAVOURITES EVER EVER EVEREVERRR and then like oh yeah the best ones outta the group and then just the rest of them with purgatory between each stage. best friend is way to casual of a term for how people act, im like a dog wagging its tail so hard its swinging its entire body whenever i get to talk abt my absolute favourites i dont wanna have to introduce them as my best friend i want their soul entangled into mine so i get to carry a piece of their spirit with me everywhere i go and i want people to feel their energy as well as mine especially when im talking about them and i want them spoilt rotten and worshipped.

its so fucked up the whole "dont ask friends" expectation. i will literally give you my blood if you were thirsty and there was no water in the taps, id let you actually consume me if ever we were starving, id give u my soul just because it looks prettier on you. like girls please ask me for everything i will always fucking provide.

Having cats is great because i order something and we both get a thing, i get whats in the box and the cats get to alter their state of being.

layed up in bed thinking abt the times i smiled when i shouldve punched him in his fucking face n swung his fucking jaw smackhead style