Its Only Just Occurring To Me I Used To Dissociate Way More Than I Thought I Did As A Kid. I Didnt Recognize

It’s only just occurring to me I used to dissociate way more than I thought I did as a kid. I didn’t recognize the less in my body dissociation was dissociation until five minutes ago and have been wondering since I was five why there are massive gaps between events in my most negative experiences

I deserve to have a cannibalism moment

I had to wear some too small shoes for work for a few days until I could get new ones ‘cause they had to be steel toe shoes (I was not aware steel toe wasn’t just hyperbole, people are putting steel in shoes and that’s cool but still wild to me) and it fucked up my toes and ankles I think. They haven’t stopped hurting and it’s been over a week, and walking’s still terrible, and every time I get up I wobble like a fucking fawn. It’s the worst. Annoying part is that after I changed the shoes they told me they could have just given me a new pair if I’d asked, and I did; all the management guys I asked about it just didn’t know. I wouldn’t be as peeved about that if I didn’t have to buy less food b/c of the cost of the shoes. Point is I don’t like walking right now

Small talk is so dumb and pointless and annoying and I keep getting accosted by it-

I really like the format of The People in the Trees, and I wanna use it for something if I ever get around to doing anything ever

I tried to read Homestuck for the hundredth time but got bored again, but it gave me a fun idea I kind of really wanna follow up on for real