My Biggest Problem Is That I Just Spend Too Much Time In My Head

my biggest problem is that i just spend too much time in my head

if you listen and pay attention you’ll start to realize how everything ties in together no matter how big or small the action is, but even so it feels like you’re outside of it all only ever looking in.

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if i ever do get around to posting i’ll just post whatever, sometimes i vent a little (will use trigger warnings in tags)

(i'm still getting used to tumblr so i'm still figuring out how it works)

(basic)dnfi if you are or support the things listed :

ableist, racist, homophobic, transphobic, terf, “maps” or “zoos” 

fun

idk

i have a few online friends and i’m really glad i have them but it’s not enough, i want irl friends (selfishly) i long to have someone to hug or some one to walk to school with. just any one to do “friend” things with like hanging out after school and sleep overs going to school dances. it’s so stupid that i’m mourning all the things i’ve never had but i’m so tired of this loneliness. my whole life i’ve been unable to connect with people no matter how hard i try, for so many years i’ve watched how people interact with each other and i’ve tried to replicate it but it never works, i pay attention to what’s “popular” and things so i just don’t get it??? am i just supposed to be lonely forever??? am i doing something wrong??? i’ve just kind of given up at this point but i’m still sad that i’ve wasted the “best years” of my life due to isolation and alienation