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Day 10: Hardest thing to give up during wl

Food.

Honestly I love food Sugar, junk food, etc. And the problem is I still haven’t given it up. I need free myself of if, make it feel like a chore, like its the last necessity for survival and then everything will be perfect. I don’t want it to be in control of my life and my thoughts, I want to be, I need to be the one in control.

Day 9: Any negative comments ever made on your weight

I was always skinny as a kid and got called a stick (as a joke and I never took offence) As I got older I got much taller than almost everyone I knew and because of that I was “naturally” bigger because I had wider bones and needed more “muscles” to support my body. (I know that sounds like an excuse but that what I was told)

But for the last couple of years (especially these past few years) I developed a pretty bad binge and started to grow bigger. My dad would constantly “joke” about my weight saying a lottttttt of stuff about how I look. Also since I do rhythmic gymnastics (which is a sport known for long thin gymnasts) my coach made many comments on my body and depending on her mood some would be more aggressive then others.

Honestly I would never say I had a bad, it’s just those are the main negative comments I got and still get.

Day 8: work out routine

Tbh I don’t really have a set workout routine. I’m a competitive rhythmic gymnast and train around 20+ hours a week.

But on days that I don’t train (or even when I train) I walk a lot, do Just Dance for at least 45 minutes (but usually an hour) and also abs (I follow Chloe ting ab workouts because I really like them)

Day 7: Do your parents know ur losing weight, do they care

My mom knows I really want to lose weight and she knows that I sometimes skip food (she doesn’t know how often I do it though) and she hates that and just wants me to eat healthy just less sugar. But she doesn’t understand that it’s easier to just eat nothing then portion control. Also doesn’t help that she is a gummy mom and we always have fast food and sugar in the house.

My dad knows I want to but he doesn’t really know anything else and doesn’t care.

It’ll all pay off. keep going 🤍

Day 6: Do you binge, why

I do have a very bad binging problem, and although right now my main reasons as to why I binge are due to emotional distress and lack of self control. I think there is a much more deeper problem.

I think binging started happening when I was around 9 and me and my friend would go to the store, buy a whole pack of Oreos and Reese’s and go to the park and eat it all before our parents found out, which I think set off the binging and then other factors prolonged it.

you never regret not eating.

Fast food won’t make you happy. Fast food makes you feel bad after the taste is gone

Pretty girls don't eat <3

Day 5: Main reason to lose weight

To be fully honest I don’t actually know my main reason as to why I want to lose weight, which I think is the main reason I don’t stick to it for as long as I want to.

In December I’m going to Dominica with around 25+ of family friends and I want to look the best. Also I do gymnastics and I want to look and feel comfortable when performing, when I’m empty I feel so light and feel much better then when I’m full, heavy and bloated

Cause I found peace in your violence 🕊️

skinny behavior🤝🏻skinny body

Day 4: greatest fears about wl

Not being able to maintain at my lw.

I’m scared that once I’ll reach where I want to be I won’t be able to maintain it and slowly start to gain it all back.

Of course I know that there are FAR more greater concerns regarding health, but I’m not too worried because my gw isn’t actually damaging for my body.

EVERY TIME YOU SAY "FUCK IT, I DON'T CARE" AND EAT THAT COOKIE OR THAT BAG OF CHIPS, THERE'S A 100% CHANCE YOU'LL CARE LATER.

Day 3: Pic of th!n$pos and why

These two are my favourite inspirations because they have really nice legs, collarbones and stomachs.

I also love how they look in active clothes because I’m a rhythmic gymnast and one main reason I want to be smaller is because of how I look during practice.

Day 2: How tall are you, and do you like ur height?

I am 5’9 (178cm) and overall I like it. I don’t really notice it much unless I’m with my friends because then I’m a head taller then everyone and feel like all eyes r on me 😭😭

Day 1: Your Stats

SW: 70kg

CW: 66kg

GW: 55kg

Ugw: 52kg

Height: 5’9 / 178cm