Cause I Found Peace In Your Violence

Cause I found peace in your violence 🕊️

Day 10: Hardest thing to give up during wl

Food.

Honestly I love food Sugar, junk food, etc. And the problem is I still haven’t given it up. I need free myself of if, make it feel like a chore, like its the last necessity for survival and then everything will be perfect. I don’t want it to be in control of my life and my thoughts, I want to be, I need to be the one in control.

you never regret not eating.

Day 9: Any negative comments ever made on your weight

I was always skinny as a kid and got called a stick (as a joke and I never took offence) As I got older I got much taller than almost everyone I knew and because of that I was “naturally” bigger because I had wider bones and needed more “muscles” to support my body. (I know that sounds like an excuse but that what I was told)

But for the last couple of years (especially these past few years) I developed a pretty bad binge and started to grow bigger. My dad would constantly “joke” about my weight saying a lottttttt of stuff about how I look. Also since I do rhythmic gymnastics (which is a sport known for long thin gymnasts) my coach made many comments on my body and depending on her mood some would be more aggressive then others.

Honestly I would never say I had a bad, it’s just those are the main negative comments I got and still get.

Day 2: How tall are you, and do you like ur height?

I am 5’9 (178cm) and overall I like it. I don’t really notice it much unless I’m with my friends because then I’m a head taller then everyone and feel like all eyes r on me 😭😭