In One Day, I Got Told My Tests Came Back Normal AND Got My Disabilities Invalidated. Ableism Is Really

in one day, i got told my tests came back normal AND got my disabilities invalidated. ableism is really a demon

Disabled, Trans, Afroindigenous, Full Time Student and Artist IN NEED OF CANE and otc pain meds!!! If you can't d0nate, please share!🍧🩶

Kwé! My name is Oronhiò:kon, and it's going to be over a month before I can start my campus job or even see a doctor :( and my back (and legs. And feet and arms) HURT!

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August 7th, 2023

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in the life of a disabled person, little things can build up very quickly into something that you just can’t fuckinh deal with

if you missed a bus, and forgot dinner, and didn’t drink enough water, and other things that seem “small” to other people, can be a big deal to a disabled person.

because many of us are living in pain, for me it’s physical pain. so the ability to cope with these things, the ability to move on, is sort of stripped away because i already have to cope with so many things at once.

the body may change with disability

for me, i used to take some pride in the size and strength of my calf muscles. but since i developed chronic pain and have required mobility aids to walk, the size of those muscles have decreased drastically.

and rather than allowing myself to sink into feelings of insecurity and inferiority, i remind myself that bodies are inherently neutral and are given worth (or not given worth) based on politics, biases, etc. and also! i cut myself some slack because i am disabled!! i couldn’t work out those muscles back to their original size even if i wanted to

and that’s okay

my joints are stiff like the tin man. i bend over and that shit goes creeeeeak

sometimes i worry that i’m faking with my pain. but then i realize i’m not in pain because i’m not moving. and when i move. i’m in pain.

so really i just need to stop listening to internalized ableism