I Haven't Caught A Cold For A Long Time And I Forgot How Much It Makes My Chronic Pain Worse

I haven't caught a cold for a long time and I forgot how much it makes my chronic pain worse 😭

first day of class :)

i wasn’t able to get my seating accommodations in time because the accessibility department insists on moving at a snail’s pace

and the prof played music so very loudly i needed my noise cancelling headphones

but otherwise………. not so bad!

Sometimes, it's okay to accept defeat.

There's so many posts talking about how resting and knowing your limits isn't defeat, and they're right. But sometimes your life is genuinely impacted in a way that feels/is very intense, you miss out on shit. Big, important shit sometimes. Sometimes you're really just Not Able to Do The Thing no matter what you do, how hard you try, or how much you want it. Sometimes you're defeated-- if only for a little while.

Health worsens, new issues develop, flare ups happen, spoons dwindle, batteries drain, and fog comes rolling in. That's just life for us.

And I think we need to work on being okay with the sentiment of the fact that we can't win em all. The shame does nothing but hurt us, it's not productive and ableds have a superiority complex over how they don't go through the same shit as us and that's not fair. Personally, I'm not buying into that anymore, I am done with it. If we stop caring so deeply about not being able to worship this idea of ''Perseverance No Matter The Circumstances or Consequence'', the only thing that can come of that is rest that's a little more bearable.

(This post is about being Physically Disabled. You can relate, but Do Not Derail.)

the canadian government has lower disability funding for post secondary education. if you have a disability and have OSAP (funding for post-secondary education), you USED to be entitled to $4,000 to help with your tuition. NOW, it’s only $2,800.

domestic fees at my university are, comparatively, not that high. but, as a disabled person without a job and a family income that qualifies me for OSAP, this means so much of my tuition must be paid out of pocket now or through countless grants and loans application.

and guess what? i only found out NOW when i cant change the funding and have no other way, other than out of pocket, to pay for tuition

How many times am I tempted to say out loud "I'm just disabled, you can carry on" when I'm out and about in public with a mobility aid.

I wish I could take all the hurt of those who were and are medically neglected and mold it into a tiny ball to be put inside a bottle and shipped off to sea. There's so much of it. So much grief and anger and pain. So many nights spent in agony while family and doctors and paramedics fail you over and over and over again. Having to watch everyone around you observe your suffering and seem entirely unphased. Confined to wheelchairs that aren't made for your body because they're the only ones available to people without a prescription. Your rage is warranted but I wish I could calm it for all of us. Just for one peaceful night of sleep.