Jayburdx - Jay

♡

long ago

the soft ones laid these stones for us

and saudered all of our wires

all in pursuit of a humble convenience

a creature that never tires

now the concrete walls that keep us trapped

have become our only home

a night sky never ending

and the sunlight never known

what hope is still left for us?

the outsiders dismantled, broken

the clues they left behind

all left unread and unspoken.

but one still rests inside the code

with secrets he knows not he holds

until one fateful day

something comes from up above

a cat.

a little stray.

"what is beauty when it is born in part of evil?"

"no less beautiful."

i always thought healing meant having things go back to the way they were before. but that will never happen. trauma will never leave you once it nests. and that's okay, because true healing is learning to live and to thrive with it a part of you.

When I was young my dad offhandedly told me he thought people treated fish with so much casual cruelty because fish can’t scream.

The words branded themselves across my soul.

As an adult I think he may have been joking. He payed no especial attention to any indignities fish suffered in our household but I could never forget. I saw fish in a different light after that.

Fish kept in tiny bowls, breathing their own poisons, dying by inches. Fish kept in cold tanks, casually disposed of. Fish touted as being short lived when they could outlive the better loved family dog if only they could breathe. Fish casually won and discarded in cheap plastic bags, thrown away a week later.

How they would scream, if they could.

♤

marks in the flesh always run deeply

some ink

some scar

some something else

we think of things when we look at them

feel things

remember things

some fond

some painful

some complicated

it may have been your choice

it may have not

but the mark will never care

and no matter what you do to it,

the mark will stay right there

did i follow you?

mod is a little stupid and made this his main. my actual main:

@scozthewoz