It's Been A Week... Since I Started Johnnytober. Normally I Wouldn't Be Saying How Many Days Have Passed

It's been a week... Since I started Johnnytober. Normally I wouldn't be saying how many days have passed but with the fact I without YouTube it's worth it because I don't have much to do.

I mean, god I do have a lot I can do but I simply... Hate myself. There's no other words. When I stuck in place all I can think is ending it all.

Fucking hell, I going to have to block certain tags on my tumblr because I see "men don't interact" about how much men are vile creatures and I think "well there's a way to resolve at least one of this issues and it's with a bullet to my head." Jesus, is not even funny anymore.

I'm volatile it seems, probably because of the depression Im carrying. I hate this bloodsucker, draining me even if I literally just breathing.

I don't know what to do. I not actually having "problems" my life is good! I mean, as better as it can be. My parents are wonderful people to me (even if they are kinda homophobic, didn't tell them the spy I am lol) I spent my day "relaxed" but still feel like I want to disappear.

I want to scream, pull my hair out, beat my head in the wall until I go unconscious. I not brave or stupid to do it, and sincerely wish I was.

I telling you all this because, well I can't say it at real life. Only thing people can give me are sweet words that don't mean anything.

...

Well, I guess that's all. Trauma dumping on social media, let's go... Eh...

Johnnytober is certainly helping me, even if it's kinda word vomiting. I don't care if it doesn't get many hearts or reblogs. I know how to get them, it's a social game where you play what everyone wants to see.

I want to write what I want to see. It's egotistical? Extremely. But fuck it, I don't care. That's what I taking this, or what's to understand. I going to continue to scream, make art by cutting my heart and letting it all here.

Thank you for the people who see what I do and interact. Thank you to the mutuals I have. Thank you.

That high heels tell me otherwise.

sorry y'all, this character sheet I'm working on is a cis guy 😭(joking)

Johnnytober 6°: Show

Fem Valentino x GN Reader. Warning: lewd art ahead.

"Amore~ Look at me, please~"

You couldn't, you really couldn't. Your face was a red mess. As you breathed heavily you tried looking away but it was so damn hard. The clapping certainly didn't help.

Valentina grinned when you started staring, even with a hand over your mouth, as she kept twerking on her private stage, her jiggly booty cheeks glistening in the neon lights. "Is it so hard~?"

"N-No..."

"Then why don't you really take a look~?" She stopped just to spread her ass cheeks, her thong doing little to hide her wet pussy and puckered hole. "Please, Mi doce, let me spoil you~"

You gave in to her demands, gripping your pants as you stared at her, embarrassed beyond belief. She turned around, sitting on the stage as she pushed her foot against your groin. The thong actually made it's way to her breasts, which again were barely hidden. Although you were used to it, since Valentina was a... Thick lady. You moaned as she leaned in.

"I can make it all true~ apenas me digas~" her accent really did make you crazy, it dripped with a lust you couldn't possibly imagine. You looked up, your eyes gazing at hers.

"So? Spit it out~"

To the fella that send me a request for fem Valentino.

this is actually my favorite one of these I’ve seen so far

Me and my mutuals

Wow I feel so special

FINALLY REAL YOUTUBE CONTENT