I Believe That Jumin And I Have The Same Core Desire

i believe that jumin and I have the same core desire

perhaps this is a delusion, something i’ve invented to feel closer to a character i adore but i’d like to share anyone perhaps someone out there will relate

i believe jumin wants to be seen. really seen not simply looked at. i believe so many people have looked at him and assumed they see him and moved on that he feels unbearably lonely. to be seen is a rare thing. to have someone see us as we are no facades or assumptions, no role to play or weakness to hide that is a gift. jumin locks away his emotions so often that he is never seen. people label him and never look beyond that label. he is told to be strong, cordial, professional, mature and he is. he puts on those traits like a shield wears them like a cape and suddenly no one can see him.

jumin wants to be seen in a world that is filled to the brim with people to busy or blind to try.

i connect with jumin because i would like to be seen but like him i have no idea how to go about it.

listen is it really so wrong to get a massage therapy license for the soul purpose of having an excuse to touch jumin han? is it really so terrible to offer my hubby a full body birthday massage as and excuse to run my hands all over him? am i truly such a terrible person for using the idea of spoiling him as and excuse to keep him in bed with me all day and covering him with kisses?

all i want is to spoil jumin han with love and affection. on his birthday i make him fluffy japanese pancakes and kiss his eyelids gently to wake him up so he can have breakfast in bed with me and elizabeth. i wash his hair in the shower and hum the happy birthday song gently as i tie his tie for the day. he insists on going to work but i bring him homemade lunch and give him a gentle shoulder rub while he eats. i stand on my tiptoes to kiss his nose before leaving to set up his surprise party a small intimate affair with just the RFA and his father (sans the newest girlfriend) i bake him a red velvet cake and cover it with small icing cats. it’s not perfect but the effort and love put into showcase how much i care for him. for gifts i’ve spent months working on a scrap book of our relationship each picture is accompanied by a paragraph painstakingly hand written in my best writing to explain the picture and how much the moment meant to me because of him. many of them devolve into me simply rambling about how much i love him. it’s a good day.

listen you cannot convince me that jumin didn’t do this at his and MC’s wedding imagine jaehee pushing the stroller with elizabeth the third as the cutest little ring bearer. the second she reaches the new couple she meows to mc which MC responds to by giving a soft happy smile and saying “yes elizabeth i promise to make jumin the happiest i possibly can”. jumin is taken aback by this but elizabeth just settles herself down contentedly like that addressed all her concerns perfectly making him chuckle press a quick kiss to MC’s cheek. mc giggles and mock scolds him, “jumin the kiss comes later!” and everyone in the audience is like “oh my god this couple just gave me diabetes their so sweet”

The Ring Bearer understood his mission 

(Source)

thank you thank you thank you 🙏🏻

may i have your thoughts on the RFA with an MC that struggles with self care? like tends to over work herself, forget to eat, skip meds etc she’s really good about taking care of OTHER people just not herself

yes!! sorry this took so long! i kept coming back to it and adding more hfvhfv

Yoosung

He’s always so greatful and amazed by how you get so much done, that you took on a whole party very successfully with no questions asked. But the longer you two spend actual physical time together, he starts noticing you aren’t taking care of yourself as a result and he immediately wants to help. He wants to make sure you’re happy, healthy and taken care of and he’s willing to drop everything to do it. Of course, he too has a history of not taking care of himself but you helped him away from that and now he wants to help you. He starts doing everything with you, or taking over what you were doing with a “please, let me”. He gives you med reminders, offers to do your hair for you, makes sure you’re doing fun things that you want to do for yourself and not just for others. He’ll pull you into his lap to watch him game and whenever there’s a loading screen or he’s waiting for a lobby, he’ll feed you whatever snack he brought to his desk. You took care of him and changed his life around before you even locked eyes on each other and now he thinks it’s his turn to do the same for you forever.

Jumin

Jumin isn’t above teaching you selfishness, insisting that you deserve to want to be cared for. All you ever are is kind and helpful and as much as he loves that about you, he just wants to sweep you off your feet and treat you like a princess. He goes into full-on domestic husband mode, finding things like good smelling face masks that he’ll put on you himself, bringing you cups of tea or completly customized meals, even going as far to take a massage class so that he can give you massages to relax you. He also buys you things in scents/flavors you enjoy hoping you’ll be more inclined to use them, and will compliment you if he notices the scent on you (because he loves the scent of your shampoo and such) He always makes sure whenever you try to put him first to tell you that you’re his princess and all he needs is your presence to be happy.

Jaehee

Jaehee is very into schedules out of habit. She loves having at least a few constants to her daily routine and she brings you in on it. You build up some daily routines together, essentially keeping each other in check. If she has to leave earlier than you in the morning, she’ll put post-its on the bathroom mirror of little reminders and lots of hearts. You keep all of her notes in a little box because they make you happy, and it warms you up that she cares about you so much as to make sure you’re taking care of yourself even when she isn’t home with you and it really does make you want to take care of yourself.

Saeyoung

Saeyoung gets it. He understands so well because he too puts everyone before himself. So, you work on it together, helping each other better yourselves and learn to put love into your self. And it’s hard at first because you’re both so programmed to take care of each other. So you start sharing tasks- cooking dinner together, not letting each other start a new project until the old is done. You’ll go on walks or to the movies together for a bit of escapism, or dress up in Saeyoung’s costumes as an excuse to wear something other than pajamas. He isn’t afraid to set up your phone to lock itself for an hour or two when a message pops up (it’s a cat with a speech bubble of course) to say “take time for yourself meow, your own health and happiness is important too, meow!” just to make sure you aren’t always trying to worry about everyone else while neglecting yourself.

Zen

Mr. king of self care is angry at himself for not noticing sooner that you weren’t taking care of yourself. He starts trying to get you interested in self-care routines by introducing you and including you in his. He offers to let you try all of his face serums and moisturizers, his lotions. He’ll offer to do your hair (wash, comb, style, whatever your hair type needs) without wanting anything in return. Zen will take you to the store and help you pick out your own products and every night/morning you’ll stand in the bathroom together laughing as you both stand there looking silly with different colors of products all over your faces. Self care becomes quality time with him, and it stops feeling like a chore and starts feeling like something you actually love doing, and that you feel much better after taking care of yourself. Zen is there for every step of your caring for yourself as much as you care about others.

to much good content to not reblog

newbie incubus Yoosung & No bf since birth Mc AU sketches...

i don’t think i did it right >.> it told me to get a snack but i somehow cleaned my entire apartment

dam…….. that website “you feel like shit” (it’s like a questionnaire / troubleshooting guide for when you feel like shit) really works………………….. im not even all the way thru it and i even half-assed a lot of the suggestions and i already feel loads better