I Believe That Jumin And I Have The Same Core Desire

i believe that jumin and I have the same core desire

perhaps this is a delusion, something i’ve invented to feel closer to a character i adore but i’d like to share anyone perhaps someone out there will relate

i believe jumin wants to be seen. really seen not simply looked at. i believe so many people have looked at him and assumed they see him and moved on that he feels unbearably lonely. to be seen is a rare thing. to have someone see us as we are no facades or assumptions, no role to play or weakness to hide that is a gift. jumin locks away his emotions so often that he is never seen. people label him and never look beyond that label. he is told to be strong, cordial, professional, mature and he is. he puts on those traits like a shield wears them like a cape and suddenly no one can see him.

jumin wants to be seen in a world that is filled to the brim with people to busy or blind to try.

i connect with jumin because i would like to be seen but like him i have no idea how to go about it.

thank you thank you thank you 🙏🏻

may i have your thoughts on the RFA with an MC that struggles with self care? like tends to over work herself, forget to eat, skip meds etc she’s really good about taking care of OTHER people just not herself

yes!! sorry this took so long! i kept coming back to it and adding more hfvhfv

Yoosung

He’s always so greatful and amazed by how you get so much done, that you took on a whole party very successfully with no questions asked. But the longer you two spend actual physical time together, he starts noticing you aren’t taking care of yourself as a result and he immediately wants to help. He wants to make sure you’re happy, healthy and taken care of and he’s willing to drop everything to do it. Of course, he too has a history of not taking care of himself but you helped him away from that and now he wants to help you. He starts doing everything with you, or taking over what you were doing with a “please, let me”. He gives you med reminders, offers to do your hair for you, makes sure you’re doing fun things that you want to do for yourself and not just for others. He’ll pull you into his lap to watch him game and whenever there’s a loading screen or he’s waiting for a lobby, he’ll feed you whatever snack he brought to his desk. You took care of him and changed his life around before you even locked eyes on each other and now he thinks it’s his turn to do the same for you forever.

Jumin

Jumin isn’t above teaching you selfishness, insisting that you deserve to want to be cared for. All you ever are is kind and helpful and as much as he loves that about you, he just wants to sweep you off your feet and treat you like a princess. He goes into full-on domestic husband mode, finding things like good smelling face masks that he’ll put on you himself, bringing you cups of tea or completly customized meals, even going as far to take a massage class so that he can give you massages to relax you. He also buys you things in scents/flavors you enjoy hoping you’ll be more inclined to use them, and will compliment you if he notices the scent on you (because he loves the scent of your shampoo and such) He always makes sure whenever you try to put him first to tell you that you’re his princess and all he needs is your presence to be happy.

Jaehee

Jaehee is very into schedules out of habit. She loves having at least a few constants to her daily routine and she brings you in on it. You build up some daily routines together, essentially keeping each other in check. If she has to leave earlier than you in the morning, she’ll put post-its on the bathroom mirror of little reminders and lots of hearts. You keep all of her notes in a little box because they make you happy, and it warms you up that she cares about you so much as to make sure you’re taking care of yourself even when she isn’t home with you and it really does make you want to take care of yourself.

Saeyoung

Saeyoung gets it. He understands so well because he too puts everyone before himself. So, you work on it together, helping each other better yourselves and learn to put love into your self. And it’s hard at first because you’re both so programmed to take care of each other. So you start sharing tasks- cooking dinner together, not letting each other start a new project until the old is done. You’ll go on walks or to the movies together for a bit of escapism, or dress up in Saeyoung’s costumes as an excuse to wear something other than pajamas. He isn’t afraid to set up your phone to lock itself for an hour or two when a message pops up (it’s a cat with a speech bubble of course) to say “take time for yourself meow, your own health and happiness is important too, meow!” just to make sure you aren’t always trying to worry about everyone else while neglecting yourself.

Zen

Mr. king of self care is angry at himself for not noticing sooner that you weren’t taking care of yourself. He starts trying to get you interested in self-care routines by introducing you and including you in his. He offers to let you try all of his face serums and moisturizers, his lotions. He’ll offer to do your hair (wash, comb, style, whatever your hair type needs) without wanting anything in return. Zen will take you to the store and help you pick out your own products and every night/morning you’ll stand in the bathroom together laughing as you both stand there looking silly with different colors of products all over your faces. Self care becomes quality time with him, and it stops feeling like a chore and starts feeling like something you actually love doing, and that you feel much better after taking care of yourself. Zen is there for every step of your caring for yourself as much as you care about others.

listen is it really so wrong to get a massage therapy license for the soul purpose of having an excuse to touch jumin han? is it really so terrible to offer my hubby a full body birthday massage as and excuse to run my hands all over him? am i truly such a terrible person for using the idea of spoiling him as and excuse to keep him in bed with me all day and covering him with kisses?

all i want is to spoil jumin han with love and affection. on his birthday i make him fluffy japanese pancakes and kiss his eyelids gently to wake him up so he can have breakfast in bed with me and elizabeth. i wash his hair in the shower and hum the happy birthday song gently as i tie his tie for the day. he insists on going to work but i bring him homemade lunch and give him a gentle shoulder rub while he eats. i stand on my tiptoes to kiss his nose before leaving to set up his surprise party a small intimate affair with just the RFA and his father (sans the newest girlfriend) i bake him a red velvet cake and cover it with small icing cats. it’s not perfect but the effort and love put into showcase how much i care for him. for gifts i’ve spent months working on a scrap book of our relationship each picture is accompanied by a paragraph painstakingly hand written in my best writing to explain the picture and how much the moment meant to me because of him. many of them devolve into me simply rambling about how much i love him. it’s a good day.

may my lord and savior have mercy on my sinning soul because this idea HAS me

imagine his hands guiding yours his voice low and intimate he’s done this so many times it’s second nature his eyes are focused on your face you are trying to memorize the movement your brow creased in concentration and he smirks before leaning down and kissing your forehead chuckling

“you have a lifetime to learn dear it doesn’t have to be perfect the first time” he says and you blush and mumble.

“i just, i thought if i got it right you might praise me” and suddenly his arms are around you lifting you to kiss him and you can feel the smile on his lips and feel the vibration of his soft laugh before your back on your feet own two feet his forehead against yours as he says

“i love you more than you could ever understand” and your giggling and who cares if his tie isn’t tied yet he was right after all you’ll be with him for a lifetime you’ll practice everyday you’ll pick his tie each and every morning tie it with him his hands over yours and maybe you’ll feign ignorance a little longer just so he’ll show you one more time the same way you know he buys you dresses you can’t zip yourself because he enjoys helping you the same way he offers to brush your hair or asks you to show him how you french braid it for special occasions. small moments little excuses to touch and feel each others warmth tiny domestic intimacies that weave you into the fabric of each others daily lives.

when i was young my father called it “stirring the oatmeal romance” to find the beauty and joy in even the most mundane activity’s like stirring the oatmeal. to imagine that with jumin is bliss. sorry i’m simping again >.>

i— i know how to tie a shoe, i only dont know how to tie a tie😭😭😭

You know what, that's also respectable. They make it seem like it's harder than it what it is. There's just a trick to figuring out how much of the fabric that you need to feed into it when you're trying to make the knot. Hm, why don't you ask Jumin himself how to do it because it seems like he would quite enjoy guiding your hands to the answer?

all i want is to marry jumin han and run interference for him at every dinner he has to have with his dad and his dads new girlfriend like i worry that jumin is so sweet and diligent and hardworking there isn’t much I can give him but what i can do is pull chairman hans new girl aside for “girl talk” and pretend to like literally anyone for the express purpose of jumin getting to spend more genuine quality time with his dad. i don’t think chairman han is a bad dad he just losses himself when it come to girls

NOOOO BUT FR CHAIRMAN HAN SOUNDS SO SWEET LIKE HE JUST WANTS REAL LOVE I DON'T GET HOW EVERYONE HATES HIM

HE DOESSS. he's done very questionable things but when he's outside of jumins route, all he wants is to find love 😭😭

i want to run jumins shoulders

i want him to sit on the floor in front of the couch while i massage his shoulders and he tells me about some absolute jackleg trying to do business with C&R and making jumins life harder

i want him to relax against my legs as his head falls back into my lap and he smiles up at me saying “thank you for listening my love” and then chuckling when i blush before leaning down to kiss him