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I Didnt Know I Needed This Until I Read It. Thank You!

i didn’t know i needed this until i read it. thank you!

Can I request for some headcanons about the RFA when MC has a nightmare about them? Like, in the dream RFA said they cared nothing about MC or the relationship anymore and just left after saying some very hurtful things. The whole dream felt so real. MC wakes up crying and apologizing to them. They also cling to RFA very tight for the rest of the night, feeling insecure. How would the group respond? Thank you. Wishing you well!

I'm sorry it took so long!

RFA + V Reacting to MC Having a Nightmare

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Zen

Zen didn't care about you

There isn't much more to say than that

"I need to focus on my career, I can't have a girlfriend."

He left in in the rain, no way home

You knew you had to call someone

But you hurt so bad

So you stood, crying in the rain

It was hard to tell which were tears and which were raindrops

Either way, he left not even looking back

You woke up, crying

Zen woke up hearing you

I'm so sorry you sobbed

Zen shushed you and pulled you close

I'm so sorry for holding you back in your career

He pulled away to see your face

"You haven't held me back, jagiya. I would choose you over my career any day."

That made you feel worse and you buried your face in his neck

He held you close all night

Telling you how much you mean to him

Yoosung

"I only loved you cause I thought you were like Rika, but I was wrong."

Wait! Please!

"Leave, please."

And you did, not because you wanted to but because you thought if you did he'd come back eventually

He never did

He wouldn't join chatrooms if you were there

He never called

If you called, he'd ignore it

You woke up, heart hurting

"MC?"

You look over and see a half asleep Yoosung

I'm sorry…

"It's okay."

No… I'm sorry… I know I'm not Rika. I know that you want her back. I know I'll never be her.

"MC, what are you talking about?"

"Yes, I miss Rika, but I love you."

He holds his arms out, inviting you to cuddle with him

"Come here, I'll always be right here for you."

Jaehee

Movie night? Zen DvDs.

Guess who I talked to today? Zen.

Zen. Zen. Zen.

You finally confronted her.

"I can't help that I love Zen. Why can't you understand how important he is to me?"

More important than me?

"Of course! You've met him."

She'd never say that… yet she just did.

You woke up and sniffed

You got up and Jaehee woke up

"MC? Where are you going?"

You sniff again and try to leave, but Jaehee grabs your wrist

"Are you okay?"

When you don't answer, she pulls you to sit back on the bed

I'm sorry… I know Zen means a lot to you… I just thought maybe I meant more…

"You do mean more, MC. I'm not with Zen, am I?"

She pulls you into her and holds you close

"Zen is just a friend, you are my best friend, lover, and partner."

Jumin

He was cold

Like before you met

When you spoke up about how you felt, you wish you'd let it be

"You just want me for my money, like every other woman."

No! That's not true!

"Leave, now."

Jumin, wait!

Bodyguards forced you to leave the penthouse

Driver Kim took you back to the apartment

It felt emptier than normal

Jumin went back to being cold in the chatrooms

He only called or even acknowledged you when he had something to say about the party

You finally called him

"Miss MC."

Jumin. I-I um…

"Is this about a guest or the party?"

No.

"Please do not waste my time."

He hung up.

You wake up, scaring Elizabeth

You feel tears on your cheeks

"MC?"

Jumin was coming back from the bathroom, the light illuminating your face

"Darling? What's wrong?"

He turned the light off and came to you

Jumin brushed tears off your cheeks

I'm sorry...

"What are you sorry for? You've done nothing wrong."

I'm sorry for everything… I shouldn't have come here, I don't just want you for your money… I want all of you

"MC, there was never a doubt as to what you wanted from me. That's why I made you my wife."

He laid next you and held you close

"I love you. I don't doubt that you feel the same."

Seven

"Leave me alone."

Seven, you need food.

"MC, what have I told you? Leave me alone. I don't love you."

It felt like you'd been shot in the heart

It hurt so much

You don't mean that

"Did I stutter?"

You quickly left so he couldn't see you cry

You wake up and hear the familiar sound of a keyboard

You hear a meow and talking

Seven comes in

"MC? Are you okay?"

I'm sorry!

He laughs

"What for?"

For pushing you and bothering you all the time and for not staying away when you told me to

"MC, that was a year ago. I'm so over that phase."

Seven sits next to you "I'm not going anywhere."

He pulls you close and lets you cry it out

"If it weren't for your pestering, I'd probably starve to death."

V

He didn't love you

He was still in love with her

You could see it in his eyes

Yet you hoped you were wrong

Jihyun, you don't have to stay with me. I know you still love her. "

It's that obvious? I still love her, I want to be by her side."

It hurt to hear it

But you had already known it was true

"Thank you for letting me be with her."

You woke up, the image of them together still in your mind

You hear the bedroom door open and V walks in

"Sorry, I just had to clean up a little."

I'm so sorry…

"What?"

He turned to look at you, tears running down your face

He was next to you in an instant

"MC, what happened? Are you hurt?"

No… I'm sorry for making you feel like you have to stay with me…

"Make me stay? I'm staying with you because I want to."

"If I were to go on a trip and you asked me to stay, begging with your beautiful eyes. I'd probably stay."

He laughed

You glare at him

"You're serious?"

You nod

"I never loved her… It was an obssession. I love you and you alone."

He pulls you into his lap and rocks you side to side.

"You are my moon."

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5 years ago

im not sure if request is still open or not. if yes, then could you write about RFA&Saeran where mc smoke cigarettes frequently as a way to cope. thanks

okay so full disclosure I don’t smoke and i know exactly zero people who smoke sooo this was really hard for me. its short but i hope you still enjoy it!

Jumin

-        Not a fan. At least that’s what he says.

-        But he can’t take his eyes off your silhouette against the sunset when your smoking after a particularly stressful RFA party.

-        He leans over you, takes the cigarette from your hand and puts it out in the ash tray as he kisses you. It’s a sly trick that you don’t approve of at all.

-        But like also dang it he’s smooth and he tastes like fine wine and now you can think of one other way to relieve stress that could be very interesting

-        He wants to help you quit. He’s worried about your health.

-        Tries to get you to drink wine instead. It helps him distress and it has many health benefits.

Yoosung

-        Listen this boy chokes on thin air don’t even let him try a cigarette.

-        That being said he’s got a thing for tasting whatever flavor cigarettes you use in your kiss.

-        And he does think it make you look cool and a little sexy. He likes when his classmates ask who you are cuz he can say you’re his.

-        He gets needing an outlet to cope with stress (he has LOLOL after all) so while he worries a little about your health he won’t be overbearing about it.

-        He is entranced by your lighter or smoke tricks. He thinks they are so cool.

Saeyoung

-        The most uptight about it (you would think Jaehee but she kinda sorta thinks it looks cool)

-        He does not like it one bit. it’s easy to track and dangerous, and he’s had enough danger for one lifetime thank you very much.

-        He might hide your cigarettes to get you to quit. Or booby trap them. Or switch them for a prank box. Honestly its infuriating

-        And don’t even think about smoking in his cars because he will know he can sense it.

-        Slowly (with a few small arguments’, calm discussions, and all out screaming matches) you find a comfortable equilibrium

-        You end up smoking less (even if you don’t quit entirely) and he helps set up a small backyard area (with cameras, security and some patio furniture) for the bunker so you have a place to smoke that isn’t going to bother him or put you at risk of being just out in the open should something happen.

Zen

-        Smokes with you of course. At least at first.

-        You absolutely share the same brand (but different flavors)

-        When you take a long drag he can’t help but watch your lips. If you catch him and smirk he turns red and you won’t be able to finish your cigarette (poor boy has no self-control)

-        Also he’s got a thing about lighting your cigarette for you whether he’s showing of his lighter tricks or pulling you close so he can light your cigarette with his own he enjoys it a lot

-        All that being said if you have to quit for some reason (pregnancy, health or anything) he’ll quit with you, he is not letting you struggle with that alone.

Jaehee

-        She worries about your health a lot but after a stressful day she’ll pick you up a pack to help you distress

-        She watches you out of the corner of her eye because she doesn’t want to admit she thinks it looks really cool

-        She carries body spray and gum around so you never smell (too much) like smoke.

-        Honestly the smoke smell is the part that bugs her.

-        She may suggest groups or books to help you quit but she won’t force you

Saeran

-        Every time you get a cigarette he gets a sucker and joins you. It’s how he feels closer to you without actually smoking because he tried once and about hacked up a lung. It’s not his thing.

-        From far away you too actually look pretty bad ass. Then you get closer and oh it’s a strawberry flavored cigarettes and he’s got yeah he’s got a bubblegum tootsie pop maybe badass its quite the right word

-        He always goes outside with you when you go out to smoke. He likes the outside a lot and honestly he appreciates that you give him an excuse to step outside

-        You can see when he needs a break from people and inside and everything and he can tell when you need to step outside to smoke it’s a good system

5 years ago

I have thoughts about Jaehee’s route.

Sympathy for Jaehee

Look no matter how you look at it Jumin failed to create a healthy and satisfying work environment for Jaehee. He refused to listen to her concerns regarding her ability to do what he was asking and completely overstepped his bounds with requests regarding her appearance and dress. He took her for granted and failed to give her the time off she needed to recover from her works physical and mental demands.

It’s clear Jaehee has low self-esteem and placed much of her self-worth in being employed and independent. She’s used to being told that she is a burden and so she works insanely hard to prove people wrong. She also forgoes asking for help to avoid seeming greedy or useless. All of this makes her very difficult for many people to read. She hides behind this mask of professional formality to avoid anyone seeing how hard things are for her. The problem with this is that she is very likely to bottle up her emotions until she does something rash (as we see in her route). She needs someone empathetic and perceptive enough to notice when she’s struggling BEFORE she makes those irrational decisions.

I understand where she’s coming from. She’s just found something she’s passionate about and wants to throw herself into it with everything she has because she’s never had something this important to her. She’s tired and frustrated in her job and she feels creatively stifled by Jumin’s strict policies. All of this culminates into a steadfast stubbornness mixed with the desire to set herself apart from the image she’s hidden behind for so long.

Had Jumin simply accepted her interest and allowed her the freedom to do the coffee project however she saw fit I believe much of the drama could have been avoided. Had he put himself in her shoes he would have been able to understand that a little encouragement and freedom goes a long way but empathy is not his strong suit so he didn’t.  

 Sympathy for Jumin

What Jaehee did WAS insubordination. Plain and simple and that is technically a fire-able offense, though I agree he over-reacted. He told her to prioritize the cat hotel over the coffee shop and even if she didn’t agree no one can say she gave the cat project her all when she used slides mad by someone else and had a social lunch rather than look over edit and prepare for the presentation. It was also very clear that Jumin wanted Elizabeth as the mascot, she had to have Known that the second he brought up the cat hotel (he also mentions it directly to MC but I’m not sure if it’s in a phone call or a chatroom so I won’t count that). So by including an alternate and unapproved logo she was absolutely out of line.

Jumin struggles with empathy and emotional expressiveness because of his cold and analytical upbringing. He’s used to people trying to use, manipulate and cheat him so he constantly has his guard up never letting people in. the problem is when you build these walls from a young age you never learn how to see the world from someone else’s point of view. This leads to people not understanding what his actions mean as well as him not understanding other people’s actions. He also learned very early to suppress and deny his emotions for the sake of professionalism and because he learned it so early he finds it difficult to understand that other people cannot do this.

I understand why he is so frustrated, he feels ganged up on by zen, seven, and Jaehee. Three of his five closest friends (and let us not overlook the fact that of the remaining two 1 is growing increasingly isolated for unknown reasons meaning that he only has Yoosung left on his side). he expresses this feeling in one of his calls asking MC if Zen and Seven are messing with him, in this moment not believing that Jaehee will go along with them. As much as he denies it Jaehee has been a constant in his life for 2 years and he trusts her loyalty and perfectionism so when she goes along with his plan it must have felt like quite the betrayal.

 Conclusion

NO-ONE is blameless in this situation. Jumin neglected Jaehee’s physical and emotional wellbeing, and Jaehee reacted rashly by rebelling against one of Jumins passion projects.

Now don’t get me wrong, I am not suggesting that Jaehee stay in her assistant position to avoid stepping on Jumin’s toes. Jaehee deserves to be happy and chase her passion. Unless Jumin exhibits REAL change and emotional growth I could never in good conscious recommend she stay at that job. That being said I think she handled her exit from the company poorly. I believe that Jumin should have accepted the coffee shop project Jaehee worked so hard on and praised her for her obvious dedication and excellence. This would have eased much of the tension on Jaehee as Mark Twain put it “I can live two months on a good compliment”. On the other side she should have done the cat hotel presentation as Jumin requested and then subsequently turned in her two weeks’ notice. This would feel much less like betrayal and manipulation to Jumin and she would have a better chance of keeping the valuable connections she made while working at C&R.

I just think the entire situation could have been handled so much better.


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5 years ago

can’t write right now cuz i’m like about to walk into work but guys you know what the world needs?

classic black and white noir romance with MC being a classy jazz singer at jumins favorite caberte wine bar he falls for her voice and begins to send her flowers after every show until she approaches him to tell him he can’t buy her talent since she’s heard how opposed to romance he is and her father owns the club she’s not going to sing anywhere else

i quite literally go to work in 20 minutes but listen imagine the banter between self possessed confidant mc and jumin when she thinks he’s all buisness but the second he tells her he would like to take her on a date shes shocked like what no that wasn’t the plan huh what. and jumin smirks because this woman that was only a moment ago been so strong and sassy is now a confused and blushing mess

she agrees to think about it and tells him she’ll have his answer after tomorrow’s show. time jump she says yes but only if they keep it on the bone low she wants her family’s buisness to thrive without being associated with C&R because she believes in skill not playing the press. jumin has never met a woman who was adamant about secrecy and low profile dates it’s perfect

guys i need this


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5 years ago

I’ve never participated in pride month before but ...

I found a thing on google and decided to use it

so first a link to where i found it 

then a blank one to make your own! (its not perfect but ya know)

Ive Never Participatedin Pride Month Before But ...

and mine with little stars for where i fall 

Ive Never Participatedin Pride Month Before But ...

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5 years ago

i cant pass up the chance to win a piece of art from you! and even if i don’t win maybe someone will see my re-blog and enter themselves and win. Good luck everyone!!!

1500+ Follower Raffle: Entry Deadline June 16th

1500+ Follower Raffle: entry deadline — June 16th

Thank you all so much! This tiny little blog has grown so fast since last August 2019. I’ve been meaning to do a raffle for a while and the watercolor polaroids are very fun to do! So, here are the rules:

1 reblog = 1 entry

Must be following (I will check). New followers welcome.

Winner will be picked randomly and announced on June 17th

Will draw:

Mystic Messenger

OCs

Light gore

Won’t draw:

NSFW

Intense gore

(I reserve the right to refuse a subject)

The winner’s art will be sent via Tumblr DMs and posted on the JMH blog. If the winner would like to receive the physical polaroid in the mail, there will be a small shipping fee of $3 (one ko-fi). Examples of watercolor polaroid pieces may be found in the #watercolor and #polaroid series tags!

If I have missed information or you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to ask! Again, thank you all so much for your support. After the raffle is over, I plan to officially open commissions too!


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