Transethnic

transethnic

transethnic, a new term so weeaboos can feel good?

so, this is more of "I was born in Kansas, raised by very very American people, good old flag lov'n folks. but I can't quite shake this feeling that I should of been born into another nationality, It's not just that I am a Francophile, but I really feel I should of been born in France, to French parents"

horrible

self loating and season born misery and lost of  lostness of selfitude and withdrawls of mood stablelizing drugs

and i am so indesscriblbly miserable I hope this is not waht drunk feels like.

because wtf. why

and i just do not like myself always and hate it all. my head swims with the confussion and lack of knowing how to fix anything while doing it alone and having only people that might not be the best to do it

to fix me.

just shut up and buck up and do it and fly right and stand tall.

just don't

it is one odd thing to dream of "dead friends", in which when you do, you have the idea of "I know you are a ghost, hey someone else can see you? that is cool"

and then their sibling is in the dream, "oh good you see them too?" during that one time I thought the other had died to.

but then she did.  and now there is a "didn't you die? why/how are you here?" but their sister is no longer in the dream and I don't know why.

it is so weird.

and dogs. I dream of our dead dogs, and family wants me to feed the dogs. but I'm not taking care of ghost dogs

The moment I knew I would love 10

something was missing

it had dawned one me, that I think I have no swag. and you just can't buy that in a box. but then I saw some purple hair dye called "purple swag". so I guess you can.