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So took a nap or tri d to nap because I was upsince 2am to 2 pm and I did not flinch. My brain felt weird. But by 9 my brain felt different and I started flinching again

Guide to evil. Buffer laughter for dark offensive humor that punches down minorities

Guide to evil.

Create herb infused beer for lactation

God didn't make little green apples

Add to food diary. Cornbread blueberry muffins gummy worms tomato soup

Might be hunger nausea or rage and anxiety from reading fake disorder cringe. Might be because it’s a 3rd. Not much tmjd pain and no sternum pain.

So if I made a movie with a plural character I should have one present like this?

Got to love how the plural community bitches about media getting wrong, when they do irreparable damage themself. United States of Tara would of been better with system hopping, subsystems, getting 300 new alters every day, a view into the inner world, in system dating, forced switches, like a scene where an alter asks for something and they get it. What other things does social media show?

The future is plural

Go them!

Time romwrtevabook for toddlers on DID

Woman mad her 2 year old dosen’t know which alter is or is not mommy

“ the future is plural “

Fakers just want to vote900 times and skirt responsibilities

Whoprr jr

2 nugfets

1 fry

4 onion ring

2bite chocolate cake

Milk

Jeysuo ( ketsup somehow it typed)

Melatonin free sleep gummy

Sushi rice, canned tuna, sweet potato

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Yesterday menue

Oh that is different. My nausea and pain on the 18th

Damn. I wanted a comic with some woman saying something unhinged and crying about people being mean, but then being angry at a stone toss like comic that wasn’t even that offensive on the topic, or a similar one . Nw I forget it. It was either a race or Israel-Palestine topic . Where what she said was worse than any ST antisemitism

Every time I think I have something true I get called names. If it is true and I correct people. My anxiety had gotten worse on this topic. Then I need 5,000 years of MENA history, and then get called shit for brains and a terrorist, or I’m a worthless ballsack ego will look like a chicken carcass when the Arabs are done with me. As well as possible accusations of being a NAZI . It is to much to know and understand, and as an American there should be no horse in this race. You know, stolen land and all.

I wonder what new anti semetic tropes and allegorys are going to be birthed in this conflict or new derogatory terms.

Land I don’t even know why I would share links, memes or Infographs. If it’s just to control and correct people. Seeing how I don’t think I could easily live playing 2 degrees of separation with a boycott.

Or how many reddits are propaganda. You can get people call you a bigot if you say “metzitzah b’peh is gross” and they call you propagandist if you think you got a list of Israel doing bad things , and say it never happened. And then guilt you with thousands of years of abuse and, famously the Holocaust.

All the people screaming about things.when I read about the skin selling then I don’t really care if Hogwarts legacy reinforces “ blood libel” or not . It is not the same thing .

It’s not like I am trolling say it is better off being part of Italy or anything. Or Deus Vult memes. But they treat you like it. I normally like collecting screen captures of unhinged people but this time it’s not as fun. I guess because it’s a lot different than an AR vegan saying we should get CPS to take children of dairy farmers away, or anti hunters who want. To violate a child to death because she shot a puma.

I really should f edited this last night when I remember what I wanted to put. It seems on Facebook if you report comments about nuking Gaza and saying someone deserved it, you get report back that those words do not violate the rules, but I am sure they ban you for calling someone a Zebu( zioboo) or some thing. But using “ final solution” or “ nuke them all” or “ turn Gaza into glass” “ flatten it into a parking lot” or saying other things is ok. I haven’t gone looking for any anti Lavender AI memes using Clippy, but I am sure those would be ultra bad

Did ear spazam wake me up?

Neuroscience News

Redefining Consciousness Through Memory Fusion - Neuroscience News

Researchers propose a novel integration of the Global Neuronal Workspace (GNW) hypothesis with the Tripartite Mechanism of Memory, suggestin

I wonder if reality shifting and inner worlds realie

Doom scrolling, social media and screen addiction got worse after getting rid of the Axel from my head. Even if I told myself every day he is not real , and not believe tulpas are living beings, and head mates are not from the same kind. I still did. A holdover from highschool thinking I was talking to spirits. Part of me thinks maybe I was better off. There is nobody there, there was never anyone there, there will never be anyone there. I even felt physically different that moment. And I still feel like something is missing

So it seems since July I would talk about the pain and nausea around the , 12th 13th, 2nd or 3rd.

I don't even know what doctors to see. I see the ENT on the 20th

It's that time again. Nausia and pain. Once a month.

I am running out of room on my phone storage

And freaking out that I deleted things I did not want. What we’re they ?

I am in between wanting to subconsciously trance and another part of me takes over, and also terrorfied of dissociation and if possession were real. Iguess on one hand I expect there is something that has all the answers,and my awake self lacks. That I want a magical experance. Maybe a true me is sleeping, or the fake me is awake. Even when ever virtualboy came out. Errrber I rerember I wanted that takeover, there was a demo at Sears r something, and there was a drawing game ? I wanted that takeover . Loss of me. Whoever that is.shattered, missing. I can’t make sense of it. It hurts so much .

Hi, there. I'm seeking more scholarly, academic or formalized information on endogenic plurality. Could you recommend books? Thank you.

We don't know of any books, but there are academic articles on endogenics!

General Articles:

Enacted Identities: Multiplicity, Plurality, and Tulpamancy: It's talking about plurality, but is heavily focused on the non-traumagenic sides of the community.

Multiplicity: An Explorative Interview Study on Personal Experiences of People with Multiple Selves: One endogenic system took part in the study, and the researchers discuss their overall findings and the possibility of some sort of hereditary component to some systems.

Dissociation and Transformation: Talks about the possibility of dissociation being a symptom of good health, rather than always pathological.

Dissociative Experiences in the General Population (pdf): Surveys a city for dissociative experiences, and found that at least some spontaneous dissociative experiences may be due to endogenous factors.

Alterity: Learning polyvalent selves, resisting disabling notions of the self

Differences Between Trance Channeling and Multiple Personality Disorder on Structured Interview: Compares trance channeling and MPD (what is now called DID), and concludes that differences in experiences may have to do with whether they're trauma-based or not. (Channelers aren't necessarily endogenic, but it does go into why despite having multiple identities, trance channelers don't have DID. This may be relevant for some forms of spiritual endogenic plurality.)

New Age 'Channeling' and Theories of Dissociation: Applying a 'Structural Dissociation of the Personality' Model to the Case of Jane Roberts: A really good thesis comparing a famous channeler (Jane Roberts) with dissociative identity disorder. (Channelers aren't necessarily endogenic, but it does go into why despite having multiple identities she didn't have DID. This may be relevant for some forms of spiritual endogenic plurality.)

Soulbonding:

The illusion of independent agency: Do adult fiction writers experience their characters as having minds of their own?

Uncharted features and dynamics of reading: Voices, characters, and crossing of experiences: Many readers seem to hear the voices of the characters they're reading about in books as they're reading it, with a rare few even hearing their voices even after they're finished reading.

Most Authors Can 'Hear' Their Characters' Voices Talking to Them, Survey Reveals: Up to 63% of authors hear their characters talking to them, showing that this is a fairly common phenomenon.

Tulpas/Thoughtforms:

Tulpas and Mental Health: A Study of Non-Traumagenic Plural Experiences

Varieties of Tulpa Experiences: Sentient Imaginary Friends, Embodied Joint Attention, and Hypnotic Sociality in a Wired World

Learning to Discern the Voices of Gods, Spirits, Tulpas and the Dead: compares and contrasts tulpamancy and other communities centered around voices, spirits or disembodied entities

Hopefully this helps! If any of our followers know of any books talking about endogenic plurality (or any other resources in general) please feel free to add on!

Melatonin tea helped. I don't recall if I twitched, but now my sensations are different and indescribable. The ears still spazam but my heart scare feel is now more a flipflop feeling, and with not as bad muscle twitch. But I don't feel different than when I had no sleep, which is scaring me, but that is a melatonin hangover I guess?

Not sleep last it’s. Blame inhailer I don’t recall. Years ago had a n insomnia. Was antidepressants withdrawal. Never knew until recently. Thought it was a freak occurrence