I Talk To Myself Like I'm On A Live Stream For Some Reason

I talk to myself like I'm on a live stream for some reason

*screams at the top of my lungs for no reason* "sorry chat I was feeling silly"

"I'm gonna KMS ISTG I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT- sorry chat I just wanted to complain"

"ick I eat too much- dw chat your bodies are perfect the way they are"

And the funny thing is I'm literally home alone I'm just going crazy

*explosion noises* oh sorry i dropped something

oh man that’s quite the hole, sorry bout that

anyway good luck with your new pool, bye-

Wow thank you I was meaning to dig a big hole

That's so helpful you're going to be credited in new cave

"Started by Anonymous on September 6th, 2024 by an accidentally dropped bomb"

No because you don't understand how badly I need Nico and Kayla to be best friends

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

AKKAKAYAKY

Ok so in my silly little head the Apollo kids, Chiron, and some of the seven are the only ones that know that Nico is trans because of his internalized homophobia

Nico is disgusted with himself and doesn't want Will to have to deal with him

And Will, ever the sweetie, doesn't really get it but lets his sister, who is ALSO TRANS help him instead

And Nico slowly realizes that they both share a lot of struggles, like he's still struggling with self harm, Kayla used to before she got help

She also somewhat understands his whole eating thing because when she's in her depressive episodes her appetite is shit

So Kayla becomes like, his main medic. Because while Will loves him and is the head doctor of the infirmary, Nico is still new to the whole being loved and accepted thing, and *gasp* Kayla can't judge him for that! And of course, Will still doesn't really get it, but it makes Nico feel better, so he lets her take care of Nico instead.

So Kayla and Nico become best friends

And Kayla is loud and proud about her gender because she was still Kyle when she came to camp, so most seniors at the camp already know she's trans.

She's also pretty open about her sexuality, seeing as she's had crushes on boys and girls and not really hidden it.

Meanwhile Nico over here is terrified of anyone finding out he's gay, let alone trans??? He'd be shamed! Because of course he's still in the fascist Italy mindset, he doesn't understand that the world is more accepting

And she's slowly helping him accept himself

NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THEY'RE SUCH BEST FRIENDS

PLS JUST LET ME HAVE THIS 🙏🙏🙏 (and write fanfics maybe??? 🥺🥺🥺)

How do people do stuff when they get home from school? When I got home I'm exhausted and frustrated and need at least 30 minutes alone to destress or I'll explode

How do people just

Function

Right after school????

I came to have a crisis and got my gender validated???

I just watched a trans tiktok compilation and I'm not even sure I'm trans anymore???

Because while I am a guy and prefer masculine terms like boy and handsome and hate looking even remotely feminine

I use any pronouns and don't get dysphoric about it?? And can't get misgendered? And also use both my birth name and chosen name?

So like

Am I really trans?????

I can't relate to like any of these experiences and it's making me question myself