Xiumin - Power At Asian Song Festival [170924]

Xiumin  -  Power at Asian Song Festival [170924]

idols can date whoever they want and they should not be receiving hate for loving a person

perfect life

◇ Don’t make promises you can’t keep.

◇ Taemin x reader

◇ gang!au

◇ ugh taemin has been ruining me lately i need to take a step back

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When Taemin knocks on your door at 3 in the morning, you know to bring your first aid kit with you. You heave open the door with effort, coming face to face with a familiar sight - your boyfriend, lip busted, eye swollen, and blood flowing from a gash in his temple and matting in his bleach blonde hair.

He still manages to smirk cheekily, leaning on the door frame tiredly, although he winces as pain rushes through his chapped lips. “Hey, sweetheart.”

Even though you’ve seen him like this what seems like millions of times, you still gasp, opening your door wider and allowing him to stumble passed you. “Oh, my God,” your eyes widen worriedly as you guide him towards the kitchen, where you had set your first aid kit before you had answered the door.

Taemin doesn’t answer, letting you grasp his wrist and lead him to a bar stool while you unpacked your first aid kit. “You always do this,” you’re ranting under your breath, picking some rubbing alcohol out and a pack of cotton balls. The anger always settles in after the initial shock and concern. “You always disappear for days and turn up beaten up and bloody. When was the last time you had even told me you loved me?”

“I love you,” Taemin murmurs, clasping your hand in his as you turn back to him and reach up to clean the cut on his temple. Sighing, you roll your eyes, allowing him to intertwine your fingers and hold your interlinked hands close to his chest. You’re not angry with him anymore - but you still refrain from cuddling up to him as you usually do to send your message to him: ‘I hate when you do this, and I’m not happy that it’s happened again.’

With your other hand, you start to dab at the cut carved into his tanned skin, staining the fluffy white cotton ball with vibrant red.

After a moment of silence, you sigh deeply, throwing a cotton ball in the bin and starting to reach for more. “What was it this time?” There have been many excuses in the past; looking at him in the wrong way, saying something that shouldn’t have been said, an enemy of his friends that he had come across and couldn’t let get away. Taemin is silent and you look up from where you’ve been gently cleaning the cut on his top lip. “Tae?”

“He said something about you,” he murmurs, avoiding your incredulous eyes and focusing on the stinging pain coming from his lip. He doesn’t know if he should look up and meet your eyes or continue to let you clean his injuries in silence, but he doesn’t have a choice as you tilt his head up gently. “He said something about you that I didn’t like.”

“You’ve always had the worst temper,” you chuckle softly, pressing a kiss to his lips so softly he wondered if you’d actually kissed him. Taemin shrugs, letting a gentle smile bloom on his face, the smile he reserved for you.

“It seems to get worse when it involves you,” he comments, allowing you to put the gauze on his temple. You bite your lip, shaking your head.

“I don’t think that’s a good thing,” you observe quietly, finally finishing up and moving away from him to start cleaning up. Taemin raises an eyebrow, slipping off the bar stool and following you over to the sink, where you’re rinsing your hands off and drying them on the tea towel you kept by the sink.

He sighs softly as he wraps his arms around your form, pulling you as close as he possibly could and burying his face in the crook of your neck, inhaling your sweet scent and unconsciously pressing kisses to your soft skin. “You know that I only do this because I love you.”

You don’t answer for another few seconds, looking down before you turn to him, allowing him to wrap his arms around your waist as you faced him. Your hands trail up and down his biceps, eventually coming up to hold onto his broad shoulders. “Someone who loved me wouldn’t leave me for days on end and return to me beaten up and bloody.”

“Come on, _____ ,” Taemin frowns, trying to meet eyes with you, though you kept avoiding his advances. “You know how much I love you. ‘To the moon and back’, remember?”

You can’t help but smile faintly at the distant memory, letting your eyes close gently and inhaling deeply. “I love you so much,” you whisper, “but it feels as if I’m loving a dead man walking. SHINee isn’t safe - it never was, and it never will be.”

You know how tied up Taemin is with SHINee, and you hate it - it was set up with 4 of his closest friends, a dangerous gang that dabbled in dangerous things. You never knew when he disappeared for 3 or 4 days if he was going to return home to you.

You can see how torn Taemin is as he utters his next words desperately. “I - I’ll leave, jagi,” he pleads, “for you, I swear. We’ll - we’ll go somewhere. Somewhere far away, and we’ll get married and start a family like we’ve always wanted. I promise.”

He’s pulling you close before you can register it, tightening his hold on you and soothingly rubbing circles into your shoulder with his thumb. He loves you, and you love him - so why is everything so difficult for the two of you?

You screw your eyes shut, feeling the cold leather of his jacket on your cheek and knowing that tears were welling up behind your eyelids. As much as you’d like to believe that having a perfect white picket fence and apple pie life was an option for you, you couldn’t and wouldn’t lie to yourself.

Don’t make promises you can’t keep.

i love this. this right here is art

guys kajsjsnsna

VIXX Mafia Reaction: You wanting to go on a “business” run with him

Cha Hakyeon:

Absolutely not. Not in a million years would he let you put yourself in danger like that. Even though he’d never admit it out loud when anyone but the two of you were in the room, he loved you and cared about way too much to put you any where remotely in harms way. Not even your puppy eyes, which was your secret weapon to get him to do anything you’d like, would work now. Every time you asked him why he wouldn’t let you go with him, he would always say the same thing.

“Y/N, honey. Please, try to understand, but you mean too much to me to take you out into the line of fire. Maybe one day I’ll take you out, but until then I’m not letting you in my line of business. But if you really want to see some danger, how about we get you out of the clothes and I’ll show you how dangerous it could get.”

Jung Taekwoon:

Just like Hakyeon, Taekwoon would immediately refuse your idea. He would immediately sit you down on the closest piece of furniture he could get you on and immediately start showing you how much you mean to him. Whether it be slight touches or passionate kisses, he would lightly mumble to you how much you meant to him.

“Baby, please, believe me, if it wasn’t as dangerous as it is, I’d love to take you with me. Unfortunately, I love you too much to put you in harms way but I can give you all my attention, right here, right now.” 

Lee Jaehwan:

Jaehwan wouldn’t know how to tell you no as sweetly as possible but would end up just disagreeing with everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, you said from there on out. Even if you told him you loved him, he would make damn sure that he knew he loved you more than you loved him and that’s why he couldn’t take you to ANY of his runs.

“NO! Y/N I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE ME AND THAT’S THE EXACT REASON WHY I’M NOT TAKING YOU! I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’D DO IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO YOU!” 

Kim Wonshik:

Wonshik would be somewhat surprised you even wanted anything to do with the mafia let alone go out on runs with. He’d be very hesitate but you’d eventually get him to say yes, very grudgefully. Your first run with him was supposed to be a simple drug run, nothing big and shouldn’t have ended in a gun fight because someone had their panties rammed to far up their ass. When you guys finally got out, thankfully unharmed, he immediately took you home, both mad at you for asking him to go and himself for being as stupid as he was to actually AGREE to take you.

“Oh my fucking god, are you okay baby? Fuck I should’ve never agreed to this. I almost got you killed. I’m so sorry Y/N. I’ll live the rest of my life making this up to you. I’ll never let anything happen to you, I promise.”

Lee Hongbin:

Hongbin wouldn’t hesitate at all at saying yes. He would be so happy that you had some interest in the family “business” that he wouldn’t even think about the consequences. That is until you got shot in the leg and he had to rush you to the emergency room because you were bleeding probably more than you should. Luckily, it didn’t hit any serious arteries. Well, not dead on but it did graze the artery in your left leg, which explains why you were bleeding so profusely.

“I’m so happy you’re okay. God that was probably the stupidest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Y/N, I’m so sorry that this happened. It’s my fault that you’re here right now. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.”   

Han Sanghyuk:

Hyuk would be the one to tell you yes then go back on his word right before you guys were supposed to leave. He would realize that it would be an incredibly stupid idea to put you in harms way and he knew that if something happened to you, he’d never be able to forgive himself.

“I’m sorry Y/N, but it’s way to dangerous for you to be there. I promised you and myself that I would take care of you and never let anything or anyone hurt you, and I’m not about to let that happen.”

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