Thinking About Him Again

thinking about him again

Part 2 of my little fencers drawings aka the full Sabre Sirius finally !!

I yearn for the day I can wear these outfits without experiencing gender dysphoria. For now, Reg will rock them!!

Some Reggie sketches.. trying to figure out what he looks like in my head is tougher than I thought it’d be, but I accept the challenge (no one challenged me)

Jegulus - Based on a post by @arcturism !

Hollow.

That was the only way to describe how he was feeling.

The emotion had always been present, ever since he was small- a nagging feeling of unfulfillment and emptiness. But he'd just chalked it up to stress, anxiety, and his childhood environment. Perhaps he was broken.

The feeling only grew, however. The fidgety, empty feeling in the pit of his stomach, an urge for something more.

He wasn't sure what it was. But it was beginning to consume him.

When he'd fist agreed to a date with James Potter, he wasn't sure why he did it. Curiosity, perhaps, or a lingering childhood crush. But as he sat in the dimly-lit restaurant, watching a nervous-looking Potter gnaw at his lip as he smiled anxiously at him, he realized he should probably feel nervous as well.

But he didn't.

Especially when, red-faced and awkward-looking, but still smiling, James reached hesitantly across the table and took his hand.

Because for the first time in such a long time, the empty feeling in Regulus's core melted away. James's gentle touch nearly knocked him over in shock, because the warmth that spread through him felt so good, so safe, that he could only smile softly and stare at their entwined hands for a few minutes, James's thumb brushing over his pale knuckles and causing more warm waves to wash over him.

"Alright, Reg?" James whispered, eyebrows raised, probably wondering if he'd been wrong to grab his hand.

But Regulus just sighed softly and sent him a smile. "Yeah. M'good." Because the realization had just hit him: nobody (besides Sirius) had ever touched him in this way- with loving gentleness and kindness in their eyes.

He wanted to bask in the glow of it forever.