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𝘏𝘪𝘪 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘭𝘴!! <3

I'm new to tumblr, so here's a little bit about me and my account!

I'm 18!

I love listening to Ethel Cain and Nicole dollanganger! I also love the small town gothic and cutecore/pastel aesthetic >_<

I'm using this safe space to vent my deepest thoughts.

This is a safe space for everyone! ( homophobic, transphobic and racist ppl dni.)

that's all!! I hope you all have a wonderful morning/night!

I stay here rotting in bed, waiting for you. You promised you would eventually come back and we can finally be together. My heart hurts so much at thoughts of you never coming back..

I think I'm starting to realize that I'll never truly feel better again. Every day it just gets so much worse. I try to think of a time when I was happy and everything was okay, but there was never a day in my life when I truly smiled and said I was perfectly happy. I thought running away from home would help the terrible memories disappear but...maybe the trauma of it all is catching up to me. Do people truly recover from the horrible things they had to go through? Will I ever feel better? Sometimes I don't want to get better. Talking to people about how sad I feel makes things worse because I know they can't save me. They can't help me. Only I can save myself but I'm scared that'll never happen.

Ethel Cain saved me. ♡