TRIGGER WARNING -suicidal Thoughts- People Think It's Just The Thought Of No Meaning In Life, That They

TRIGGER WARNING -suicidal thoughts- People think it's just the thought of no meaning in life, that they end it, feeling no colours or pain. But it hurts. These thoughts are burning and chasing me everywhere i go. There is still that one voice pulling me back from the edge of the bridge or laying the knive back down. It's the knowledge of how far my mind/ body would go, that terrifies me the most. I never choosed to become like that, but there are times, when that one thing inside me, cries for the pain to stop. It are those times, i am ending up on the ground of a unknown meadow or stop myself from crying in public, because these voices keep telling me to finally end the pain, that i carry since my past and erase these horrible memories, that keep me awake at night. Everyone keeps telling me that it's going to be better soon. I am sick of taking all those meds, which make me more sick than i was before. It's not the end, yet. I would never know if it got better, when i don't try till the very last. There won't be a finish line, when i stop running and stay at the ground. It's my life and my choices. The past is something to learn of and not to get guided by it. I will get back up and be stronger than before. Fu@# those voices and all the people passing their problems to the other, cause they don't want to handle it. We got this only chance. Only one. Use it. Because some people would really wish to have onther. *this is text is based on my own experience and opinion. Not everyone feels the same way i do. I respect that. No, i don't want to kill myself anymore. Drawing helps me to deal with my disorders and traumatic experiences. Stay safe and if you have suicidal thoughts, then please get help of professionals to talk about them! **my english may have some... Or much errors. I'll blame the memes for that. :D #suicide #depression #disorder #suicidalthoughts #mentalhealth #anxiety #saddrawing #deepthoughts #help #scars #death #trauma #pastlife #childhood #crying #tears #sadart #pain #emotion #feelings #sadness #helpless #nolove #loveyourself #life #lifechoices #lovelife #smile #nevergiveup #fightforlife #artwork #coaldrawing #macabreart #lizzyeatsart

Angels live, they never die Apart from us, behind the sky They're fading souls who've turned to ice So ashen white in paradise - T.L. One drawing i made a year ago. I can still feel all these emotions flooding my body, just like when  i drew this, back then. There are some other drawings like that one. Each telling a story of a childs soul tortured by society. This one is about traumatic exerience. ( part one of three )

It's in the water baby It's in the pills that bring you down It's in the water baby It's in your bag of golden brown It's in the water baby It's in your frequency It's in the water baby It's between you and me It's in the water baby It's in the pills that pick you up It's in the water baby It's in the special way we f*@# It's in the water baby It's in your family tree It's in the water baby It's between you and me Bite the hand that feeds Tap the vein that bleeds Down on my bended knees I break the back of love for you I break the back of love for you... -Post Blue by Placebo We all were on some point in life, where we told ourselves, that we could handle it, that we could stop when ever we wanted to. Nobody could understand. It was no big deal after all. Nothing could possibly go wrong. Good can't be wrong. Right? It's hilarious until we realize, that we weren't able to control it from the very start. Stay safe and stick to your loved ones. Remember: Nothing ever stays the same. #placebo #postblue #awekening #drugs #addicted #fuckheroin #notodrugs #cryforhelp #deadinside #blackhole #drowning #feelslikedying #skeleton #goingunder #toabetterplace #restinheaven #mentalhealth #blackandwhiteart #macabreart #comingdown #freefalling #drown #darkness #youngartist #pencildrawing #saddrawing #darkart #coaldrawing #lizzyeatsart https://www.instagram.com/p/BnUPhNCAwg0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xge2lndgl0ft

Dead men lying on the bottom of the grave Wondering when savior comes, is he gonna be saved Maybe you're a sinner into your alternate life Maybe you're a joker, maybe you deserve to die They were crying when their sons left God is wearing black He's gone so far to find no hope He's never coming back They were crying when their sons left All young men must go He's come so far to find the truth He's never going home Young men standing on the top of their own graves Wondering when Jesus comes, are they gonna be saved Cruelty to the winner, bishop tells the king his lies Maybe you're a mourner, maybe you deserve to die Welcome to the soldier side Where there is no one here but me People all grow up to die There is no one here but me -soldier side (System Of A Down) What happened here? I only listened to this one song on YouTube and after 1 and a half houd drawing-hypnotic state it was just there. First, i was really unhappy with the first lines, but now it's one of those drawings, where i ask myself: what am i doing with my life. :D This is my own artstyle. My pictures speak for themselves. I fellt so many emotions there, which can't be described by my own words. I am just curious: How do you interpret this one? #soldier #guns #death #grimreaper #veteran #battlefield #scars #worldwar #brokensoldier #ptsd #nofuture #saviour #guardian #fighter #americanarmy #army #heavymetal #theforgotten #saveme #coaldrawing #pencildrawing #darkdrawing #war #systemofadown #myart #artist #nogod #artstyle #lizzyeatsart

Feuer! Sperrfeuer! Feuer-Los! Achtung! Deckung! Hinlegen! Halt!! Auf zum Schlachtfeld! Auf zur Front! Und bis zu eurem Tod! 💥💀💣 It's everyones favourite Nazi-Lolita, Tanya the evil from Youjo Senki. After watching the first epidodes, i was amazed by the art style and some of my friends said, that it reminded them of my line art. It was reeeaally fun to draw! Hope you also enjoy some Anime pics! :) #battle #empire #soldier #youjosenki #tanyatheevil #anime #lolita #war #battlefront #germananime #animegirl #blondehair #art #myart #drawing #magicwar #Manga #lizzywizzy #lizzyeatsart

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