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"If only" has to be the saddest two words in any language.
TRIGGER WARNING -suicidal thoughts- People think it's just the thought of no meaning in life, that they end it, feeling no colours or pain. But it hurts. These thoughts are burning and chasing me everywhere i go. There is still that one voice pulling me back from the edge of the bridge or laying the knive back down. It's the knowledge of how far my mind/ body would go, that terrifies me the most. I never choosed to become like that, but there are times, when that one thing inside me, cries for the pain to stop. It are those times, i am ending up on the ground of a unknown meadow or stop myself from crying in public, because these voices keep telling me to finally end the pain, that i carry since my past and erase these horrible memories, that keep me awake at night. Everyone keeps telling me that it's going to be better soon. I am sick of taking all those meds, which make me more sick than i was before. It's not the end, yet. I would never know if it got better, when i don't try till the very last. There won't be a finish line, when i stop running and stay at the ground. It's my life and my choices. The past is something to learn of and not to get guided by it. I will get back up and be stronger than before. Fu@# those voices and all the people passing their problems to the other, cause they don't want to handle it. We got this only chance. Only one. Use it. Because some people would really wish to have onther. *this is text is based on my own experience and opinion. Not everyone feels the same way i do. I respect that. No, i don't want to kill myself anymore. Drawing helps me to deal with my disorders and traumatic experiences. Stay safe and if you have suicidal thoughts, then please get help of professionals to talk about them! **my english may have some... Or much errors. I'll blame the memes for that. :D #suicide #depression #disorder #suicidalthoughts #mentalhealth #anxiety #saddrawing #deepthoughts #help #scars #death #trauma #pastlife #childhood #crying #tears #sadart #pain #emotion #feelings #sadness #helpless #nolove #loveyourself #life #lifechoices #lovelife #smile #nevergiveup #fightforlife #artwork #coaldrawing #macabreart #lizzyeatsart