My Thoughts On Ais & Love In The World Of Touchstarved:

my thoughts on Ais & love in the world of Touchstarved:

There’s these two quotes that I’ve seen floating around lately, I do not know who said this first one but the quote says, “to be loved is to be changed.”

The second quote are song lyrics from the Darkest Hour by Low Roar, and it goes, “It was love not hate/That made me hurt the thing/I truly love the most”

I feel the context of the first quote is supposed to be a positive thing, like love can change you for the BETTER. But I feel like in Touchstarved, for someone like Ais, someone who has done horrible things, someone who has been abandoned by his gang and has essentially been left to rot alone, I think love would embolden him to commit even more heinous actions - because he was a respected leader at one point of his life, he’ll probably operate from a place of thinking that he knows best and do things HIS way, a way that’ll be so off-the-wall insane, all to ensure our safety.

Anger and the need for dominance are the leading factors to Ais’s decision making skills(this could be part of the reason why his former gang left him but that’s for another post I have in the works). Ais already lost a gang before; if we get close to him, I think he’ll be more adamant about us staying with him because he “knows best”(this could be good OR bad news for us😭).

Like, we know NONE of these characters have healthy ways to express love and connection and intimacy(not even Kuras!) So with Ais already in a dark hole, desperately trying to claw himself out of whatever hell he is in, if love was a rope that was tossed down for him to use to climb out of inevitable destruction, I feel he would cling to that within an inch of his life - and protect that shit like an lifeline, like a dangerous dog clenching it’s most beloved possession within its jaws for comfort.

Once again, his fatal flaw is letting his emotions rule him to the point of ruin - no matter how hard he tries to suppress that side of him, things can start at zero and escalate to 257 for Ais. How anger & the desire for violence and dominance fuels him, I feel think feeling true love for the first time can motivate him even more. Despite his cool demeanor when we initially meet him, I feel he’s the type to love hard on the people most important to him but he’s gets so out of control with it because homeboy does NOT know how to properly regulate his emotions. He’s just wired to feel deeply - and that can lead to fatal consequences for everyone.

OMG SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

I think Kuras’s song on the quiz being “Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want” by The Smiths (extremely depressing song imo) and Vere’s being “WAP” by Cardi B (self-explanatory) is very fucking funny

getting massive veronica open the door please veronica can we not fight anymore please vibes from this dude

I interpret Kuras's "mortal mask" as him choosing how his human form looks which means he made himself 6'6" Idk why I'm pointing this out if I could I would choose to be tall as shit too considering Kuras is a whole foot and a single inch taller than me