The Fact That Simon Went From:

The fact that Simon went from:

Not touching Baz unless it was a punch to

Awkwardly bumping his shoulder for comfort to

Doing it again, less awkwardly

Grabbing his shoulder and giving Baz his magic to

Holding his hands as Baz showed them stars

All in about a day says a lot about Simon. He just wanted any excuse to touch Baz after he realized that they don’t have to constantly fight each other.

One of my favorite ship dynamics- in terms of thinking about it and I find them so fascinating is the ones that work, but thanks to their past you can’t ship them that much. Like, you can ship them but with questionable ethics and with using the word ‘but’ a lot.

Some examples:

Mika and Seiji from Durarara. They’re cute enough but I mean… he did almost murder her after she stalked him. But they do love each other in their own way.

Erza and Jellal from Fairy Tail. They’re adorable and I can’t wait for them to officially be together. But he did basically keep her friends as slaves while she walked free with that knowledge and guilt. I know he was being manipulated but it’s what Erza thought for like 7 years

The Reaper and Aguri from Assassination Classroom. I know they didn’t know together long but they were so cute. But the Reaper was the top assassin in the world who killed over 1,000 people so…

And the one that got me thinking about all this: Yukine and Nora from Noragami. She did a lot of bad things and as of Chapter 80 (where I am) she is most likely being manipulated or is manipulating Yukine. But he could teach her how to love and to be a human…

Imagine how much courage it must have taken Baz to ask Simon to his house for Christmas. Like he has loved Simon consciously for about 3 years now, and right when they stop fighting for a moment, he asks Simon to hang out with him for 2 weeks, essentially. To help find his mothers killer, of course but also they can’t spend all their time on it.

I feel like we missed a lot of Baz’s character from not getting his thoughts and feelings before he asked and after he was rejected.

People seem to care a lot about what Simon identifies as. He never outright says he is gay or straight or bisexual. This always struck me as weird, because as soon as I realized I liked women and men, I immediately labeled myself as bisexual. It felt right and comforting to me.

But Simon has been labeled since he was 11. By other, outside sources that he couldn’t control, about things he couldn’t control. ‘The Chosen One’. ‘The Mages Heir’. ‘The Greatest Mage’.

After the Mage dies, and Simon loses his magic, these labels that he had identified with for most of his life were stripped away, and now he is just a boy.

I think the reason Simon doesn’t outright label himself as gay or bi or anything else is because he subconsciously hates labels. They remind him of what he lost, and what he used to be and can never be again. So, he settles for ‘I like Baz, but women are cool too’ mentality.

That awkward moment when reading the Carry On series when I realize when Agatha says she doesn’t love Simon in the right way it isn’t because she got bored or fell out of love. It’s because she’s gay. Like, of course you don’t love him ‘the way you’re supposed to’. You’re into women.

I feel slightly stupid.