I Was Struggling So Much On My Current WIP, Until I Decided That The Only Way To Fix It Was To Write

I was struggling so much on my current WIP, until I decided that the only way to fix it was to write at least 2 times more words, making the timelines and POV's hopelessly intertwined. This is my longest piece by far, and I haven't even reached halfway through the rewrite. Fml.

I finished the Tartaros arc and I have feelings. I’m making these feelings other people’s problems.

Lucy never wanted to be alone or neglected. So as a kid she always summoned Aquarius to be her friend. Aquarius only convinced Lucy to summon the Celestial Spirit King by telling her that Lucy has friends to lean on. But in the end, Lucy was alone again. Natsu and Happy left and Makarov disbanded the guild.

Juvia effectively killed Grays father. She loves Gray so, so much and had to take away his only remaining family. But the most heartbreaking part for her is that she told him. She said that she doesn’t deserve to love him but yet still does. And he thanked her.

Gray met his dad. But he ended up leaving too. The hug will never not make me sob. Sometimes a father’s hug is all you need and Gray will never have another. He didn’t want to fight Silver, let alone kill him. But he had to for his new family, Fairy Tail.

Erza finally admitted to the Tower hurting her. She locks everything so far away that any raw emotions are confusing. I don’t think any of the Tower kids will ever heal.

Natsu. All he ever fought for was to see Igneel. He wanted to talk with him, show him that he learned to write, and cook, and is powerful. It is all Natsu wanted. But he never got it. Igneel was murdered in front of him and they never truly got to talk and ask questions and be a father son. Igneels parting words were to “Look to the future, where the power of life lies,” so Natsu did just that. Acnologia would probably attack again in the future, so Natsu left to become stronger and protect his remaining family.

Sorry for the rants, this arc is so heartbreaking and good. Don’t get me started on Believe in Myself.

Part Three:

Baz knowing that Simon couldn't function without food, so as soon as they started to look for Nico, he brought food up to their room so Simon could think.

Simon was 1000% about to skip lessons to find Nico. Baz had to convince him that it was alright to go.

I've talked about it before but the lightning turnaround from not touching, to shoulder touching, to holding hands to laying hands on chests makes me rethink about how whipped Simon is.

Simon always went to Baz first, he always barreled forward when it came to Nico.

"Baz floats... it's the prettiest thing I've ever seen." SIMON YOU ARE CURRENTLY FIGHTING A DRAGON. Not a great time to admire your 'sworn enemy'.

We know everything that Simon was wearing when he showed Baz the stars. Except there were no details about a shirt. I feel so bad for Baz.

"It was just flirting, it's not like I tried to feed her to a chimera," What, pray tell, does that even mean Baz. Was the chimera an attempt for flirting? Baz really does the most.

Simon didn't think to call, even at least an hour into his travels to meet Baz.

The FIRST thing- not even a "hello" or "sorry I showed up unannounced"- out of Simon's mouth at Hampshire was "Baz- you're wearing jeans," Even when we switch to his POV, he is still talking about the jeans in detail. I want to know the brand. "Jeans so nice they make the person you are hopelessly in love with fall for you," could be the slogan.

"[Mordelia's] pretty, but not like Baz". I believe the word Simon is looking for is 'whipped'.

Simon defending that Baz is alive... it's so sweet...

"I fall asleep better, listening to Baz breathe, than I have since winter break started."

Fiona knows that Baz is trying to impress someone...

I’m rereading Carry On for the 4th time in less than 18 months and here are some things that stuck out to me. I was reading around a friend and they were so suprised about how into the story I was. But it’s Simon and Baz and Penelope and Agatha. How could you read it and not be fully engrossed? Anyways:

Simon and Agatha didn’t believe for a second Simon would live past this year. That’s why she broke up with him, because she thought she was dating a future funeral.

Penelope is in denial about Simon’s fragility. She believes that Simon would manage to live through the Humdrum if she also fights hard enough.

Simon- Baz’s-eyes-are-the-shade-of-gray-that-happens-when-you-mix-dark-blue-and-dark-green-together Snow.

Simon is obsessed with Baz because Baz represents what the Mage is fighting against. Dark creatures, the Old Families, power. He notices all that as a rebellion.

Also, head over heels in love. But we’ll get to that.

The Mage did everything to fix Simon. Instead of, I don’t know, being a good dad, he became headmaster, did away with the oral exams, reformed the entry so anyone (Simon) could enter, made Simon his heir, gave Simon his sword and wand, started raiding homes for artifacts to fix a child HE broke and made numpties kidnap Baz, and tried to get Simon away from Watford so Simon wouldn’t hear any visitings. Just keep the kid around, man.

Fuck the Mage.

Rainbow putting 3 straight chapters of Baz’s POV is such a good move. She was obsessed with him, Simon was too, and the world deserved as much Baz as we could get.

I will forever love how the millisecond we get Baz reflecting on himself, we get the line “And I’m hopelessly in love with him”.

I found it… I wrote an entire fanfiction based on this exchange, but at the time I couldn’t find it for the life of me. Randomly scrolling today, I found it.

Anyways, the fic is: https://archiveofourown.org/works/54709297 If you’re interested.

ok but this is so on brand for them 😂

Salim would like watching Bake By Mimo.

School essays are difficult because they want me to write something boring about apologetics but all I want to do is write a 14 paragraph well worded essay about the Hero’s Journey and how Simon Snow follows it and takes divergences off it. The second would be taking a look at what happens after that journey ends for other heroes and those around them, focused on picking up the pieces of when the hero’s story ends, using Wayward Son as a main source. Finally, the third would be about allegory and it’s affect on the story of the Simon Snow Trilogy. Instead, I am fated to write a 3 page essay on if gods are all the same.