I Was Struggling So Much On My Current WIP, Until I Decided That The Only Way To Fix It Was To Write

I was struggling so much on my current WIP, until I decided that the only way to fix it was to write at least 2 times more words, making the timelines and POV's hopelessly intertwined. This is my longest piece by far, and I haven't even reached halfway through the rewrite. Fml.

I finished the Tartaros arc and I have feelings. I’m making these feelings other people’s problems.

Lucy never wanted to be alone or neglected. So as a kid she always summoned Aquarius to be her friend. Aquarius only convinced Lucy to summon the Celestial Spirit King by telling her that Lucy has friends to lean on. But in the end, Lucy was alone again. Natsu and Happy left and Makarov disbanded the guild.

Juvia effectively killed Grays father. She loves Gray so, so much and had to take away his only remaining family. But the most heartbreaking part for her is that she told him. She said that she doesn’t deserve to love him but yet still does. And he thanked her.

Gray met his dad. But he ended up leaving too. The hug will never not make me sob. Sometimes a father’s hug is all you need and Gray will never have another. He didn’t want to fight Silver, let alone kill him. But he had to for his new family, Fairy Tail.

Erza finally admitted to the Tower hurting her. She locks everything so far away that any raw emotions are confusing. I don’t think any of the Tower kids will ever heal.

Natsu. All he ever fought for was to see Igneel. He wanted to talk with him, show him that he learned to write, and cook, and is powerful. It is all Natsu wanted. But he never got it. Igneel was murdered in front of him and they never truly got to talk and ask questions and be a father son. Igneels parting words were to “Look to the future, where the power of life lies,” so Natsu did just that. Acnologia would probably attack again in the future, so Natsu left to become stronger and protect his remaining family.

Sorry for the rants, this arc is so heartbreaking and good. Don’t get me started on Believe in Myself.

Thinking about when I first decided to write fanfiction, without really understanding the community. I was dead set on only writing if it was some new idea that hadn't been touched on yet.

The first thing I wrote? A coffee shop AU.

When someone you love offers a bid for connection, you say yes every time. When someone sends you an article, a video, a funny post, it’s a bid for connection. They are trying to connect with you. When someone shares details about their day, their life, their thoughts, or their feelings with you, that is a bid for connection. They want to connect with you on a deeper level. They are trying to pull you into their world. If you love them, you say yes every time. Yes, even if the article they send is not particularly interesting to you. Yes, even if it means listening to them ramble about a game you don’t care about and think is stupid. Yes yes yes. And let’s hope they always say yes to your bids, too.

I’m mad about how accurate this is.

Smith Smith-Richards gives off youth pastor energy

I love Fairy Tail Zerø so much. Something about the characters is so endearing. Mavis has all the ambition and heart it takes to create a guild. Yuri has the energy and reckless abandon that the guild later embodies. Warrod has the heart of the guild and Precht has the brains. They were all a perfect match for each other.

Zera’s story hurts me fundamentally. She and Mavis agreed to be friends right as Zera died, then Mavis inadvertently created the illusion so she wouldn’t be lonely. The boys caught on so quickly and it was so kind of them to pretend with Mavis. They never once let slip that they couldn’t see her.

Zeref and Mavis. These two are so tragic. Mavis knew his curse on the spot and was able to relieve his loneliness for a little while. I can’t believe their story later on. It’s terrible what they (specifically Mavis) have to go through.

Anyways, Fairy Tail Zerø is so close to my heart. I cried so many times through but that’s alright. These kids deserve a few tears. I think the ‘what comes next’ blurb at the end severely downplays what actually happened to all these characters. They all met such a tragic end, save Warrod (who suffered too. He lost his best friends to horrible circumstances). I’m so close to the end of the series it’s insane…