I Tried Not To Build Any Walls, But Now That She Is Not In My Life I Am Afraid That Is All I Can Do.

I tried not to build any walls, but now that she is not in my life I am afraid that is all I can do. 

She knows what she did, but I do not know if she truly cares. 

“You broke my heart without even knowing it.”

Why will I always love her? Why must I always think of her? Why must she always be my forever?

I’m fine when you aren’t here.

The problem is just that.

You’re always here.

On my mind.

In my heart.

In my dreams.

Why can’t I just hate you?

Instead of hating myself.

- M. N.

I knew what I was getting myself into when she became my dream. 

“The moment we give our hearts entirely, we know that it is not a task, but a duty. We must embrace this responsibility. We must act upon diligently, soberly, withstanding love and respect to each one.”

— Chuck Akot, “We give our hearts e n t i r e l y.”

Old Sport left sometime ago now, and I am just realizing how lonely I truly am.

She never loved me back. She was always going to pick him and not me. 

“It scares me to love someone so completely, and not have them love you back.”

-you