I Tried Not To Build Any Walls, But Now That She Is Not In My Life I Am Afraid That Is All I Can Do.

I tried not to build any walls, but now that she is not in my life I am afraid that is all I can do. 

Old Sport and I talked this morning about a lot of things I never thought I would talk about again.

Now that I am sitting here in my pool all I can think about is her. Why is she on my mind now? I wish that she could have loved me as I had loved her. I wish I could have fulfilled my dream of my life with her always in it.

I let her destroy me and now I am paying for it. I wish she would come back to me, but I know she is his. I know that I lost. 

Did you destroy me?

Or did I let you destroy me?

-M.N

She used my heart to come and go as she pleased and now it will never be open again. I thought she was my forever and now I know that she never was. 

My heart isn’t a place where you can come and go as you please. Either stay or don’t come at all.

-I don’t need temporary, I want something permanent.

-m.t.t.

I put my happiness into her hands and she dropped it.  She dropped my happiness very quickly.

Don’t ever put your happiness in someone else’s hands. They’ll drop it. They’ll drop it every time.

Christopher Barzak