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I thought I was happy, but as it turns out I was only distracted from the fact that she never loved me. 

“Are you actually happy or are you just distracted?”

- @ssnowflake

I put my happiness into her hands and she dropped it.  She dropped my happiness very quickly.

Don’t ever put your happiness in someone else’s hands. They’ll drop it. They’ll drop it every time.

Christopher Barzak

I will always have these feelings. She will always be on my mind. She was my dream. 

She never loved me back. She was always going to pick him and not me. 

“It scares me to love someone so completely, and not have them love you back.”

-you

Better to let someone walk away from you than all over you

(via lovendrugs24)

I did not let her walk away. She walked away on her own. 

I tried not to build any walls, but now that she is not in my life I am afraid that is all I can do. 

i think “i miss you” means even more than “i love you” because you can love a lot of people but there are really just a few you can miss

Camila Cabello (via heartsached)

I miss her so much. I also love her so much. She was my dream and she will always be my dream.

The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.

Nicholas Sparks (via what-strange-lives-we-live)

She forgot about me. 

I know that she does not miss me because she never loved me in the first place. 

I knew what I was getting myself into when she became my dream. 

“The moment we give our hearts entirely, we know that it is not a task, but a duty. We must embrace this responsibility. We must act upon diligently, soberly, withstanding love and respect to each one.”

— Chuck Akot, “We give our hearts e n t i r e l y.”

Now that I am sitting here in my pool all I can think about is her. Why is she on my mind now? I wish that she could have loved me as I had loved her. I wish I could have fulfilled my dream of my life with her always in it.

I believe it is time for me to use my pool. I have not touched it all summer and I think now would be a great time to go for a swim. I hope that this can get my mind off of things.

Old Sport left sometime ago now, and I am just realizing how lonely I truly am.

I told Old Sport about my past with her. I told Old Sport why I pretended to be the person that I am. I confessed to Old Sport all of the things I never thought I would. I told Old Sport why I loved her so much. I told Old Sport that she promised to wait for me. I told Old Sport everything.

Old Sport and I talked this morning about a lot of things I never thought I would talk about again.

Old Sport came to visit this morning. I think he was worried about me after what happened. I am glad he came by.

If I said something before you left, would it make a difference to our story? Would it make you change your mind? Would it make you stay?

Late night thoughts #97  (via hereliesmybrokenheart)

There was nothing that I could have said to make her stay, and I think that is why I am hurt. I am hurt because deep down I hoped that I could say something that would make her stay with me. 

My brain always reminded me that she was not mine, but my heart hoped that one day she would be.

Sometimes my brain forgets to remind me that you are not mine.

-simple-things

Why will I always love her? Why must I always think of her? Why must she always be my forever?

I’m fine when you aren’t here.

The problem is just that.

You’re always here.

On my mind.

In my heart.

In my dreams.

Why can’t I just hate you?

Instead of hating myself.

- M. N.

She used my heart to come and go as she pleased and now it will never be open again. I thought she was my forever and now I know that she never was. 

My heart isn’t a place where you can come and go as you please. Either stay or don’t come at all.

-I don’t need temporary, I want something permanent.

-m.t.t.

I let her destroy me and now I am paying for it. I wish she would come back to me, but I know she is his. I know that I lost. 

Did you destroy me?

Or did I let you destroy me?

-M.N

I would give my life for he to look at me like she use to. I thought we were headed there again, but alas she ended up with him once again.

“I’d give anything for you to look at me again the way you did back then.”

-16/01/2019

She is back to him and I know she does not think about me anymore. 

You probably don’t think about me at all..and that hurts.

She knows what she did, but I do not know if she truly cares. 

“You broke my heart without even knowing it.”