I Thought I Was Happy, But As It Turns Out I Was Only Distracted From The Fact That She Never Loved Me.

I thought I was happy, but as it turns out I was only distracted from the fact that she never loved me. 

“Are you actually happy or are you just distracted?”

- @ssnowflake

I would give my life for he to look at me like she use to. I thought we were headed there again, but alas she ended up with him once again.

“I’d give anything for you to look at me again the way you did back then.”

-16/01/2019

She knows what she did, but I do not know if she truly cares. 

“You broke my heart without even knowing it.”

I told Old Sport about my past with her. I told Old Sport why I pretended to be the person that I am. I confessed to Old Sport all of the things I never thought I would. I told Old Sport why I loved her so much. I told Old Sport that she promised to wait for me. I told Old Sport everything.

She used my heart to come and go as she pleased and now it will never be open again. I thought she was my forever and now I know that she never was. 

My heart isn’t a place where you can come and go as you please. Either stay or don’t come at all.

-I don’t need temporary, I want something permanent.

-m.t.t.

I let her destroy me and now I am paying for it. I wish she would come back to me, but I know she is his. I know that I lost. 

Did you destroy me?

Or did I let you destroy me?

-M.N