Kiyoi

Kiyoi

There is something about the way Kiyoi has always been independent, aggressive, and often following the "I don't need anyone" archetype . This shows that he doesn't know what healthy relationships look like or why they matter. He never had anyone he felt he could rely on. He did not even want his friends to know what his dream was or that he took the idol thing seriously. He did not have anyone he thought would be his support if he failed and most likely assumed he would lose the artificial friendships that he did have if he showed his real self to them. His whole demeaner screams lonely, hurt, and scared.

Kiyoi has always been so sure that nobody is around him for any reason other than to use him. He does not think anyone takes him seriously. He doesn't trust that anyone could ever be sincere. That is why when Hira comes into the picture, he doesn't trust him. He seems to see it as a way to go from being used to using someone. He never truly accepted that Hira truly just wanted to be around him because of him. This is most likely why they parted ways like they did.

This has been on my mind because of the development we see later on. It becomes even more clear that Kiyoi does not want to be aggressive or the one to make the choice. He has always wanted someone to prove they take him seriously, that they want him, that they love him unconditionally.

We see Kiyoi struggle to open up and communicate and how hard it is for him. We see his tendency to flee when he is scared or hurt. We see there communication suffer because of misunderstandings. But most of all we see them fight for each other even well fighting against each other.

This leads me into the bathtub scene. Kiyoi is no longer this mean aggressive man that we once saw but instead someone who is quietly asking Hira to give him more physical attention. This is a big deal because we start out with him physically throwing Hira to the ground but now we are here.

I am leaving so so so so much out but this show really took over my brain and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. Its been a while since I watched it and these scenes still live rent free in my head.

Saintsup: We've seen each other since we were in high school. Seeing you grow up I saw that he was happy with what he did. Until now, my younger brother has graduated. Congratulations, my beloved brother

For those watching the uncut episodes on WeTV, what exactly happened here? Was there more to the FireDy scene? What about Samsee and Metha? Are our sides heating up?

Cooking Crush ep 5

Spoilers ahead.

I like it overall; it's a sweet dessert of a show, but at times the cuts GMMTV made for YouTube make it a dessert that feels like someone forgot an ingredient. Generally tasty, but incomplete.

First up: Chang Ma makes an appearance at Prem's uni. And he DEFINITELY recognizes Prem and, well, look at this expression:

Tem doesn't know it yet, but he has a competitor. (Not in Prem's heart, but I sense conflict coming. Thanks again, Doc Dad. Dumbass.)

I think Prem knows something's up with Chang Ma, but isn't really interested:

Later during the lesson, Chang Ma gives Prem special attention, and Prem's buddies notice.

Unfortunately so does Tem:

Despite his annoyance Tem doesn't say anything. (Unless GMMTV cut that scene, which wouldn't surprise me at all.)

And then Metha takes Fire out for a drive…to pick up a sex worker! Because he clocked Fire's bisexual uncertainty:

At first Fire demurs, not because the idea is bad.

But then goes ahead after being told no cops this time of day.

And then Unky and Dynamite arrive because they've decided that THEY should also get some sex worker fun times.

And Dynamite figures Fire out right away:

Dynamite has Fire clocked six ways from Sunday.

Then some kind of aggressive cut which ruins the impact of what's about to happen:

namely

Tiptoe kiss!

Dreams?

What I really want is for Phaya and Tharn to find out that these aren't just dreams, but that they're sharing them and projecting into each other's dream world. Here me out.

Last episode, Phaya "dreamed" Tharn in his bed as his bolster, but dream!Tharn was wearing what he wore to sleep that night -- an outfit Phaya didn't see because he was still fully clothed during that video call that the Dr interrupted.

Dream!Tharn in Phaya's bed:

Real Tharn in his own bed:

So how did Phaya's mind know what Tharn was wearing to sleep? The last time he saw Tharn during the video call, he was wearing this:

This episode, Tharn has a sex dream about Phaya, then they BOTH wake up horny. Tharn is feeling himself up while cooking breakfast and Phaya is making a series of over the top innuendos.

I do not believe in the institution of marriage, I never want kids, and I'm only showing up for the queers, but

I SWEAR TO GOD!

I need them to be together so badly that I'm not even ashamed of how hard I'm rooting for the heterosexuals in a queer love story.

Like good for Mork and Day and their cute little color-coded love story, but I'm here for these future parents taking pictures and videos of their kids.

MARRY YOUR FUTURE WIFE AND THE MOTHER OF YOUR CHILDREN, NIGHT!

RIGHT NOW!

They are gonna make such good parents.

Thanks, Last Twilight, for giving the straights their proper love story.

I'm blaming this on my bisexuality.

Thailand, you better legalize marriage equality so all my couples can thrive and Mork can take care of his HUSBAND properly, goddamnit.