Celebrated My Homecoming Today And My Date Asked Me To Slow Dance!! It Was So Sweet And Romantic. I Thought

Celebrated my homecoming today and my date asked me to slow dance!! It was so sweet and romantic. I thought he was going to kiss me but we avoided eye contact the whole time. Even still it was very cute.

sometimes i don’t realize how much God is protecting me until time passes & i look back with gratitude

Everything I want exists and I will have it all. My Father is literally God. There's nothing He won't do for me, His beloved.

And while I love the Lord I still fall.

I still struggle to pick up my bible.

I still forget to pray.

And while I love the Lord sometimes I doubt him.

I wonder why and how he has let the world become a place of destruction and dissonance.

I allow my mind to convince my subconscious that I am not loved.

That I am not favored.

And while I love the Lord I sometimes wonder if I'll ever be able to love him the way he loves me.

If I'll ever be able to feel as completed and whole within the spaces of my heart for one and only person.

If one day I'll end in the mourning of the evening with no one and nothing and still be able to say, "I love you Jesus".

Will I ever be able to love the Lord the way he deserves?

While I love him, I may never know the answer.

John 13:34: "So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other".