I Love Star Wars

I love Star Wars

One of my favorite underutilized bits of Star Wars worldbuilding is how feelings literally soak into the physical world around you, if you’re Force-sensitive. Sometimes in really awful ways–Maul’s rage is still radiating off the walls in the Theed hangar 30 years later, because nobody goes in there to put new feelings into the walls, Luke can still feel Rey’s imprint on the meditation stone on Ahch-To after she leaves, Anakin and Ahsoka can still hear the screams of the dying in the Jedi hangar after the bombing–but that would also be there in good ways. Imagine walking into the Room of a Thousand Fountains where you touch a stone bench where Master Yoda was just meditating on, you’re not even psychometric, you can just feel the warmth and calm he left behind while he sat there.  Imagine walking into the the Temple gardens where a Jedi Master was watering their space azalea bushes and you can feel their contentment radiating off the walls.  Imagine walking into the refectory and feeling last week’s younglings class’ excitement over their upcoming field trip, how golden and glowing it is in the Force.  Imagine walking into the Jedi Temple aviary, where they keep their pet birds, hearing the gentle cooing of the convors, but also feeling the connection all the Jedi before you have had with these animals, the joy that’s been permeated into the floor and walls with how much they’ve loved their time spent there. Imagine how being a psychic space wizard that can soak feelings into the world around you would change how you interact with that physical world.  Imagine how giving a river stone isn’t just giving a neat rock, but giving someone the ability to hold affection and care literally right there in your hand, because you focused on putting all those feelings into the rock beforehand.  Imagine how art performances would change, if you’re psychic and your audience is psychic, how you can literally hand them feelings or sit them on a cushion that you put a specific feeling into it, when you get to the climatic part of your play. Imagine how being able to put feelings into physical objects and then hand them to someone would play out!!!!

Why do I do this to myself 😭😭

Crosshair x GN!Reader Drabble: There were many days where the band almost burned the skin of your fingers. Memories dripping, love and pain all the same. For him, it was strange. Foggy memories that he didn’t know if he would ever quite reach.

Genre: Haha, wanted to write some fluff, and then I ended up with angst instead. There’s like a tiny amount of fluff, and then it gets blindsided instantly by the angst, oops.

Warnings: Angst, established relationship, but not much else (talks about marriage and mentions wedding rings, in case anyone doesn’t like to read that content).

Word Count: 1,064 words, 5,711 characters

*Disclaimer: I do not own anything relating to the Star Wars universe, nor do I own anything relating to the Clone Wars universe. I do not own any characters, places, or things unless they are of my own creation.*

Picture is from @dinbeskarbaby

Words italicized are flashbacks

(This is proofread)

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I love you. Very much. I miss you. Very much. I hope I see you again someday. Maybe soon, perhaps? - Moons

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> Forever, But Not Always <

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The ring reminded you of everything. Or nothing at all.

It burned through your fingers, leaving an imaginary scar in the shape of the band that you had worn for so long on your finger. The stone glaring menacingly in the light that reflected off it. You tried to ignore it, but it was there.

Always.

He had given it to you when you had least expected it. The Marauder had been stationed on Kashyyyk, the forests surrounding the ship in lush green trees and wildlife far beyond your knowledge. He had told you there was a surprise. Blindfolded eyes, excited smiles, knots in stomachs. He had guided you, even chuckled and rolled his eyes at your attempts to figure out what he could have planned for you.

…

“It’s not my birthday…” You trailed off, still pondering on what could be waiting for you just behind the folds of the cloth that were draped on your eyes. A warm chuckle settled into your ears, a shudder repressed on your part.

“No. Do you really think I would forget your birthday?” It was your turn to laugh, shaking your head as fingers still guided you up a slope.

“Of course not. Then again…”

“Oh hush now, mesh’la. We’re almost there anyway.” You felt your grin grow, excitement and nerves fluttering in your stomach. This was something different. You knew that whatever he had planned, it was not ordinary, and it would surely be something that would warm your heart.

For whatever reason, you just couldn’t pinpoint what “it” was.

Warm fingers left yours, but they came behind your head to where the knot of the blindfold had been.

“Okay, are you ready?” You only nodded, too excited in the moment to really voice your opinion.

From where you stood, you could see the sun setting. He had brought you to see the sunset.

It was glowing, shining so bright that even though it looked far away, it almost touched you in warmth. Blush painted itself quite close to the sun, but then it faded softly into tangerine. Peachy tones and golden hues followed, on display for the whole planet to see.

Crosshair was closed off. Stoic. It came with being the one who had to stay behind, the one who took on grueling tasks in the field. He was the one who had to have everyone’s back, even though it felt like no one had his sometimes.

You changed that. You, filled with hope and passion. You, quiet and soft. You, practically dominating his beating heart with dreams of the future yet to come. You had nestled yourself in his mind, slowly breaking down the walls. Not with a hammer or a pickaxe, but with a love that held deep and true.

It was a clearing of his throat that had pulled you from your reflections. It was a turn of your head to the noise that had altered the course of your relationship with him forever.

He was never good with words, but you didn’t need him to be.

One knee, arms positioned, hands holding the one thing you had long dreamed to see one day gracing his fingers gently.

It was silver, and made of wire. It was bent into the shape that would fit your finger, and a stone perched between the wrap of the wire. It shone white and crystallized, the sunset reflecting little rainbows off it.

The pooling of adoration was the first thing you registered in your heart, followed by something you couldn’t quite discern in the wake of this moment.

“I-”

“Yes.” He stared up at you, a blink or two going by, a wide smile that was rare in itself adorning his cheeks at your quick response.

“I haven’t even asked yet.” You only smiled back at him.

“I don’t need you to. I already know my answer.”

…

It was months later when it finally became true and real. Surrounded by the rest of the Batch, it was quaint, but no one really minded. Tech officiating, and Hunter standing right beside Cross. Wrecker standing opposite, handkerchief in hand as sniffles sounded from the man. Echo linked to you, a look of pride over the fact that you had chosen him to lead you down the aisle.

You were the center of attention though. Radiating only love and affection, Hunter could feel the waves of happiness that stirred inside you. It was almost like you were seeing Crosshair for the first time again when you finally arrived at the altar.

He was bathed in a new light this time. Peace spreading over his face, a smile appearing at the sight of you.

It was perfect…

Perfect could only last for so long.

Now all you felt was an emptiness. A hole that wouldn’t go away, but grew in size as you went longer and longer without the man you had deemed to be the one person who knew everything about you, and still loved you all the same.

Running from the Empire did nothing to ease your worries, but it distracted you from the grief that still swirled terribly in your mind. It gave you something to put your effort into, instead of focusing on what you had lost.

The ring reminded you of a lot of things. There is sat on your finger, stone still reflecting rainbows when the light would hit it just right.

You just couldn’t decide if the memories were enough to keep the heartbreak at bay.

It meant everything, and nothing at all.

…

He didn’t know what it was. It was silver and it was on his ring finger, but he didn’t know why he would have it.

The silver of it would glint in the light of the facility, and it almost caused a feeling of sorrow when he would gaze upon it at night all alone.

The ring reminded him of a lot of things.

Foggy memories he couldn’t quite get through, feelings of love surrounding them. He really didn’t know what to make of the band on his finger. It did not burn, nor did it leave an imaginary scar.

He didn’t understand why you came to his head every time he looked at it.

There was only one thing that kept going through his mind.

Only one.

“Always.”

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I know I’m gonna sound like an idiot but. I JUST NOTICE THAT LEXA DOSENT PAINT THE BRIDGE OF HER NOSE!

Sorry for wasting your time

I’m weezing

Random Thoughts #2

Several times a year, Coruscant holds festivals. The majority of them are usually food, party, dance and welcoming festivals. However, Twice a year, they hold Cultural Festival that celebrates all cultures and species. And it’s big.

The Jedi take part and usually have surprise performances

The Clones also attend

The festival lasts a week

During the first two days,they have parades

Each culture/species have a float/performance

In the evening, hundreds upon hundreds of stalls open

Sooo much diversity

There isn’t much crime during the festival, half of the food stands hand out freebies. Criminals usually take this time to celebrate

So which means the Coruscant Guard get to slack off and enjoy the festival

Fox looks forward to the festival

During the afternoon, he usually dozes off by a fountain

Strangers and Children alike put flower crowns and plants on him lol

One year, Ahsoka and Mama Ti decide to perform a traditional togruta dance. I’d imagine that Togruta dance involves lots of flexibility in the hips, like the traditional Tahitian dance.

Anakin thinks the dance is inappropriate

It’s not

Another possibility is that Traditional Togruta dance is basically like Capoeira (An Afro-Brazilian martial art but also a dance)

Every year on the last night of the festival, a mysterious Jazz band performs.

It’s a mystery on who the musicians are

There’s conspiracy theories and bets over the band

The band only appears on the last night each year

Never seen for the rest of the year

Obi-Wan is at each performance

The band is oddly familiar to him

The lead singer looks like Mace Windu, but with a bowler hat?

The Person who plays double bass Is very short, oddly the same size as Yoda

The drummer is a Togruta, but Obi-Wan doesn’t want to assume its Shaak Ti since she’s Togruta

The pianist has oddly similar fingers to Plo Koon, but Obi-Wan thinks he isn’t able to play piano with the little amount of fingers

A Nautolan plays the trumpet, but he’s blue?

The Sax player sorta looks like Quinlan Vos, but their hair appears to be blonde?

The Trombonist oddly also looks like Adi Gallia

The musician who alternates between Clarinet and Berry Saz suspiciously looks like Eeth Koth

The percussionist (plays from tambourine, shakers, the marimba, or cowbell) kinda looks like Depa Billaba

Obi-Wan shrugs it off, the band all wear masks and suits, making it hard to identify them

A certain amount of Jedi council members disappear an hour before the Jazz band appears

Kit Fisto suspiciously disappears 2 hours before

A clone catches him holding a bucket of body paint

Quinlan Vos is seen with a blonde wig

They shrug it off

Why do i do this to myself?

Inspired by @paperback-rascal ‘s prompt and glorious artwork where Crosshair, after being left on the landing platform on Kamino, suffers from sunstroke, I wrote this fic!

Sun-Kissed

Hot, sunny days were rare on Kamino. However, as the sun beat down and Crosshair began to feel faint, he stared up at the cloudless sky and realized that he had made a mistake. Perhaps the Empire wouldn’t come for him after all.

Characters: Crosshair, Wrecker, Tech, Hunter, Echo

Wordcount: 3,303

Chapters: 1 of 3

Warnings: Blood, vomit, talk of death, descriptions of heat stroke, descriptions anxiety and feelings of betrayal.

Hours ago, (Days? Weeks? Years? The time seemed to slip through his fingers like sand) Crosshair had watched the Havoc Marauder become smaller and smaller until it was nothing more than a single point of reflected light, far, far away, and he’d been certain that the Empire would come to retrieve him. He was important, after all. He was a commander. They needed him. Didn’t they need him? Wasn’t he important? Did he matter at all? Or was he nothing more than a dark stain on a pinprick of light, so small and insignificant that nothing in the great vacuum of space could hear his tiny cries for help?

After hours and hours and hours, the skies remained silent.

Yet Crosshair, ever the good soldiers, persisted. He had used his com to alert the Empire of his escape from the ruined Tipoca City; he’d given them his coordinates and tipped his head towards the sky, certain that, at any moment, Rampart’s star destroyer would emerge from hyperspace and appear at the zenith to take him home.

The skies, however, remained silent, and Crosshair’s requests for rescue remained unanswered. Crosshair, however, was steadfast and waited patiently. He had been loyal to the Empire. Surely, they would come for him. He had earned that right—the right to be rescued, the right to be needed. He had proven himself worthy.

Did they know that he had disobeyed orders? That he had turned his gun on the TKs in order to protect his old squad? Did they understand the depth of his failure, as his brothers did?

Crosshair’s armor was thermo-regulated, designed to withstand any weather. He could spend hours in the sweltering heat, crouching on burning sand; he could endure sub-zero temperatures, buried in the snow and ice for as long and the mission required; he could brave hail the size of his fist and comfortably wait out torrential downpours, all without consequence—

But this black shell was not his armor.

As with every faulty simulacrum the Empire attempted to recreate in a more “perfect” form—like his squadron of conscripted soldiers; like the medical treatment he’d received after Bracca; perhaps even like Crosshair himself—Crosshair’s fancy new imperial armor was nothing more than a cheaper, poorly-designed, less functional recreation of something the Republic had done right.

As the hours ticked by, heat began creeping into his dark armor until his sweat-soaked blacks were plastered to his back. At some point, to wipe the sweat out of his eyes, he removed his helmet with trembling fingers, and it slipped from his weakening grasp, tumbling off of the platform and disappearing into the dark waters below. He cursed and dug the heels of his palms into his eyes to keep himself from screaming in frustration.

Where was the Empire? Weren’t they coming for him? Hadn’t he proved he was worth-while? He felt stupid and childish and jealous and afraid. What if the Empire never came for him? Would the Batch come to his rescue, if he cried out for help?

Tech and Echo and Wrecker had pointed their blasters at him. In the pods, when he had lifted his rifle to rescue the girl, they had pointed their blasters at him, as if they thought he had intended to slaughter Hunter or the child. Why would they think that? Hadn’t he proved, over and over and over again, that he was unwilling to kill them? Even under direct orders and the heavy influence of the chip, every shot he fired missed. In the end, he had picked his brothers over his sloppy TK squadron; he had murdered them to rescue his brothers. He had sided with them. His loyalty, as fierce as it was for the Empire, had always been to his brothers first. Hadn’t they seen that? Hadn’t he proven himself worthy of their trust?

They had turned their blasters on him.

Crosshair’s fingers dug into the side of his head, pain sparking across the length of scarred flesh. Their lack of trust was understandable, he supposed. Perhaps they hadn’t known about the inhibitor chip. Perhaps, when he shot Wrecker, they assumed he had done so of his own volition, and their trust in him had shattered in an instant. He hadn’t wanted to shoot Wrecker. He hadn’t wanted any of this. Did they know that? If he told them, would they believe him? Would they rescue him if the rains came and the violent waves threaten to swallow him whole? Had he earned that right?

The heat was becoming unbearable. The platform was small and there was not place to take shelter from the rare, sweltering sun. His legs hurt. His head began to swim. He began to pace to keep himself concentrated on his objective.

...what was his object, again?

Right. To be rescued.

So Crosshair waited. The Empire was coming for him. Somebody would come for him. Right?

Why would they? His traitors thoughts asked.

Crosshair’s chapped lips curled into a snarl. Because I am a commander. He answered. Because I am important.

You are expendable. His thoughts replied. You have always been expendable.

When he was a child, he had struggled in social situations. He lacked Wrecker’s sense of humor, compassion, and good nature; he lacked Tech’s inability to be effected by the cruelty of others; he lacked Hunter’s rationality and empathy. He didn’t consider himself an enjoyable person to be around and, for the most part, kept to himself for fear of further ostracization. Unfortunately, his lowered self-esteem began to effect his team-mates during training courses. It was easy to become so consumed by his fears that he was somehow a burden on his teammates, that he lost focus on his objective and his accuracy suffered. Like a self-fulfilling prophecy, his worst fears began to manifest: his team began to fail because he couldn’t keep up.

So he trained. He trained and he trained and he trained. He spent hours on the shooting range, forgoing sleep and food to refine his craft. He wasn’t created to be somebody’s brother or friend, he was created to be a sniper. It was in his DNA. It was, in his head, the only reason that people kept him around. During those long, sleepless night, as he set into the routine and his mind began to wander, anxiety festering like an abscess, it was easy to imagine his three older brother barring the door of their barracks and refusing to let him enter unless he proved his worth.

Hunter was an incredible leader, wise and dedicated, and his senses were incredibly sharp; Wrecker was strong and kind and gave good hugs; Tech was intelligent and witty and he could fix anything;

And Crosshair was angry and rude and he could shoot good.

A drone could do his job.

So he practiced. He practiced and practiced and practiced until he was better than everybody, and he was certain that he had proven his worth and secured a place in Clone Force 99-

And they abandoned him.

The taught the girl to shoot. They gave her his com. They replaced him.

They turned their blasters on him.

Crosshair’s face began to hurt. The skin that stretched across his cheeks and forehead began to burn, as if they had been pulled too tight. He knelt at the edge of the platform, hoping the spray of salty water would cool his sunburnt face, and his legs gave out from under him, nearly sending him plummeting into the water, where he would be swallowed up and forgotten.

“Expendable. Adjective. First definition: describing an object of little significance when compared to an overall purpose, and therefore able to be abandoned. Second definition: describing an object designed to be used only once, and then abandoned or destroyed,” Tech recited. His voice came rolling in on the waves, and Crosshair propelled himself to his feet, twisting around frantically in search of his brother, but nobody was there.

“That’s why we never came back for you!” Wrecker’s disembodied voice boomed over the nothingness. “Because you don’t matter at all!”

“Actually, we were pretty happy to get rid of your sorry ass. Things are better now that you’re gone,” Echo’s voice made Crosshair stamp his foot and clamp his hand over his ears.

His head was pounding. His heart was racing. Suddenly, he pitched forward and vomited into the ocean. With such desperation that his fingers dug into the sharp edges of plastoid and bled, he pried off his armor and stripped off the top half of his blacks, practically throwing it into water with the hope that the wet material would cool down his sweltering skin. But the water-logged cloth was too heavy for his heat-weakened grasp and was eventually tugged away by the current.

Crosshair laid there, on his stomach, for a long time. The sun kissed his back until it blistered. The skies remained silent. Nobody was coming for him. His lips cracked and oozed blood. His mouth hung open and his dry tongue felt too heavy and made swallowing painful. At some point, he stopped sweating, and his skin dried in the sun like leather.

He wanted to go home. He wanted his brothers. He didn’t care if they never trusted him again. And... of course they wouldn’t- they held him at blaster-point. They came back for Hunter, but not for him. Never for him.

They abandoned him.

He was expendable.

Crosshair laughed, almost hysterically. He wanted to cry, but there wasn’t enough liquid in his body to produce tears. Would they forgive him if he apologized? Would they rescue him if he begged them to come back?

Forcing himself up onto his hands and knees, he vomited again. There was nothing left in his stomach, so the convulsions brought up only bile until his stomach was empty of that substance as well. It was liquid he couldn’t afford to lose. Unfortunately, the spasm didn’t stop. He heaved and heaved until his sides ached and his throat burned. When, at last, the cramping stopped, he collapsed onto his side and gasped for air.

He was frightened. He was dying.

Moving as if on auto pilot, he retrieved his com and inputted the Marauder’s frequency—he knew it by heart.

He said something into the com, but he wasn’t sure what. He couldn’t hear himself speaking anymore. He felt like he was standing above himself, watching his body bake in the sun.

Slowly, slowly, he once again tried to push himself onto his hands and knees, but the effort proved to great, and he lost consciousness.

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When Crosshair woke, he was laying on his bunk in the Marauder. He didn’t even need to open his eyes to know where he was—the smell was pungent and familiar. Slowly, he cracked his eyes open. The room was dim. Pain coursed through his head—he could feel his pulse pounding behind his eyes—but the bed beneath him was soft and cool, and he felt so relieved he wanted to cry.

“Hey there, Cross. How’re you feeling?” That was Hunter’s voice. Crosshair squeezed his eyes shut, afraid that, if he turned his head, nobody would be there.

“Cross?” Hunter asked again, voice gentle, and the sniper felt a firm hand rest on his chest.

Crosshair cracked his eyes open. There he was, right beside him. There they all were, playing a round of sabaac on the floor beside his bed. He wanted to cry, but no tears came. He couldn’t help but think of all those hours he’d spent alone, on the shooting range, and he was happy. They’d come back for him, hadn’t they? Had he proven his worth?

“There he is! We thought you were never gonna wake up!” Wrecker boomed with a grin. There was no greater sight in the galaxy.

“You look like shit,” Echo said with an equally warm smile, and Crosshair allowed the corners of his mouth to twitch upwards.

“I feel like shit,” he agreed, his voice hoarse.

Wanting to be with his brothers, Crosshair rose from the bed slowly. His body was numb and his head felt hazy, like he was hungover, or waking up from sedation. It was hard to think straight. His skin hurt. Once upright, he paused for a moment as a wave of nausea rolled over him. His mouth suddenly tasted tangy and Echo, scowling, passed him a rag.

“Here. You’re getting blood everywhere and I just cleaned the floor,” he grumbled.

Blood?

Crosshair knit his brows together as confusion welled up into his throat and his stomach twisted with worry. He pressed the cloth against his nose and his eyes widened in surprise when it came back coated in blood. His nose was bleeding. Why was his nose bleeding? Should he be worried? Should the others be worried?

There was a heavy, uncomfortable pressure that suddenly swelled in his abdomen, and he groaned, doubling over and pressed a hand to his hip. A sharp, hot pain spiked across his lower back and, for a moment, he thought, with some panic, that he was dying. However, after a moment of labored breathing, the pain subsided (or grew distant and numb) and his fear eased.

“Acute renal failure,” Tech surmised, pushing up his goggles with one finger. “Your body is too hot, and it’s lost too much fluid. Your brain is swelling and your kidneys are shutting down,”

Too hot? No, no, no, that wasn’t right at all. He was on the Marauder, wasn’t? They’d rescued him, they’d cooled him off. He was home, he was forgiven, he was safe. Right?

Crosshair grit his teeth as panic flashed through him. As usual, he attempted to stuff the more vulnerable emotion away, hiding it behind a thick layer of anger. His brothers were watching him, but nobody moved towards him. They didn’t seem to care. Why weren’t they doing anything?

“Help me!” he snarled, stepping towards his brothers, and Tech merely quirked a brow.

“Crosshair, we can’t help you,” he said, as if the fact was obvious. “This isn’t real. You betrayed us. Surely we wouldn’t give you this much autonomy if you were actually on board the ship with us. Don’t you remember? You commed us for help, and nobody answered,”

“You’re lying,” Crosshair’s voice was tight and practically dripping with vitriol.

“Why would I lie? How would that benefit me? Or you, rather, as I’m not really here. Thiis,” Tech said, gesturing to the room around them. “Is just your brain, processing what it feels like it needs to,”

“What?” Crosshair cried, sharp and indignant. Blood continued to stream down his face. He tried, with great irritation, to wipe it away, but it always came back and the flow only grew heavier.

“You probably just wanted to pretend like you weren’t going to be alone when you died!” Wrecker exclaimed with a hearty laugh.

The panic, in that instant, was blinding. Something tugged on his leg and, when he looked down, he immediately wished he hadn’t: the room was filling, ever so slowly, with tar. Crosshair grasped, nearly choking on the breath as it caught in his throat, and tried, desperately, to pry his legs out of the muck.

“There’s no use fighting it, you know,” Echo said gently, moving forward and resting a comforting hand on the sniper’s shoulder, just as the sniper had done for him when they’d rescued him on Skako Minor. “It’s going to be okay,”

Echo’s words of comfort sparked a wildfire of furious, blind anger in Crosshair, who violently shoved the ARC trooper backwards.

Crosshair twisted around, as if he could find somewhere else to escape. Behind him was a white, sterile hallway—like the ones in Tipoca City—so impossibly long that he couldn’t see the end of it. One by one, the lights began to switch off, and darkness began creeping up the hallway.

“A clever analogy,” Tech said, intrigued. “Your organs are shutting down,”

“Fuck off,” Crosshair spat and Tech merely shrugged.

“Hey! Leave ‘im alone! He’s only here ‘cause you want him here!” Wrecker bellowed. He was still sitting on the floor, unbothered as the tar swallowed up his legs and continued to climb.

Crosshair squeezed his eyes shut. “What’s going to happen to me?” he croaked, his voice hoarse from the dryness of his throat.

Hunter knit his brows together and put a heavy, comforting hand on Crosshair’s shoulder. “You’re going to die,”

“And when high-tide comes, you’re body will be swept away and eaten by the aquatic life. Eventually your armor and bones will sink to the bottom and falling sediment will collect on them until you’re buried. If you’re lucky, over millions of years, you might be fossilized,” Tech explained. “So, at least your life won’t be a total waste,”

The pressure in Crosshair’s abdomen was mounting. Behind him, the lights continued to flip off, one by one. “How pleasant,” he sneered. Then, suddenly, his shoulders slumped. “Will you remember me?” he asked his brothers.

Hunter smiled. “Of course we will,” he said.

Crosshair’s eyes narrowed and flickered over to Tech. “Will you really?”

Tech smiled. “Not likely,”

“What d’you want, Cross?” Wrecker asked.

The sniper’s eyes drifted shut and he swayed; one hand gripped his abdomen, and the other hand gripped his head. “I want... I want to go back home,” It was a horrible, frightening thing to admit, but he was so tired. He didn’t want to be angry anymore. He didn’t want to fight. He wanted to go home.

When he opened his eyes again, he was no longer on the Marauder. Instead, he was in their barracks on Tipoca City. His brothers were small and dressed in red and blue outfits they had worn as cadets.

Everything was so much easier back then.

Tech looked up from his workbench, his goggled a little too big for his head. Hunter, who sprawled out on his bunk reading a holo-novel on his datapad, sat up and grinned.

“Cross! You’re back! Where were you?” he asked.

Crosshair stepped closer on wobbly legs. “I... was at the shooting range,” he explained, and Tech frowned, sticking out his bottom lip.

“You spend too much time there. You’re not getting enough sleep,” he tutted.

“Yeah! And we miss you!” Wrecked exclaimed. His face was not marred by any blast scars. He had a full head of curly, dark hair and two big, brown eyes.

“You missed me?” Crosshair echoed, almost in disbelief.

“Of course we missed you. You’re our brother,” Echo protested. Echo... Echo wasn’t supposed to be there. He was small and healthy and whole, and Crosshair was glad he was there.

“What if I can’t shoot good enough?” Crosshair asked, and his bottom lip quivered.

“So what?” Hunter asked. “We don’t care how good you can shoot. We’re just happy you’re here,”

Crosshair took another wobbly step forward and rubbed his eyes. His vision was starting to blur around the edges. He looked to Tech, expecting the clever young clone to tell him not to fall asleep, but he merely smiled.

“It’s okay, Cross. We’ve got you,”

“Are you sleepy?” Wrecker asked. He wiped his sticky, jam-covered fingers on the bedspread and rose from his bunk. The gesture was disgusting and so, terribly familiar. Crosshair wanted to cry.

“Yes, Wrecker. I am extremely exhausted,” he croaked.

“Aww...! Come here!” His older brother exclaimed and outstretched his arms.

The sniper stumbled forward, desperate for the comfort and safety of his big brother’s embrace. He felt awful. Wrecker would make him feel better. Wrecker always knew how to make him feel better.

Crosshair collapsed, alone, on the landing platform in the middle of the Kaminoan oceans. Far above him, the skies came to life as the Havoc Marauder emerged from hyperspace and appeared at the zenith.

Still love him

THE BAD BATCH SPOILERS!!!

CROSSHAIR

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