Should Just Start Whacking Peoples Shins With My Cane If They Stare At Me

should just start whacking peoples shins with my cane if they stare at me

the concept of doctors is better than reality

some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues

he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"

and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold

fighting the occasional urge to scream, because being chronically ill feels unfair and it really is all too much sometimes

despite going to the doctor way too often there are still so many things wrong that i don't even know where to start

(the list of things i should probably get checked is loooong)

i know i shouldn'r be but i am kinda scared to use my cane out in public alone... i just use it with someone i trust around