Dysautonomia - Tumblr Posts
can't completely stand upright rn, but i'm still gonna try to function tomorrow (we'll see how that goes)
my mom told me she doesn't know what to do anymore with all the different health issues i got... which is like fair enough, but i wonder if she realizes how i feel and how draining it is to actually go to all the different doctors appointments
i feel like i wasted all my healthy years with being sad
should just start whacking peoples shins with my cane if they stare at me
some guy invited me to go clubbing with him and his friends... i tell him i would go, even though it's not something i usually do, but i couldn't drink because of the medication i'm taking/health issues
he looked at me and just went "oh maybe some other time then"
and my question is why? WHY am i required to drink to hang out with people? and if that's just a rule then there won't be some other time, because i got a chronic illness and not just a cold
playing a fun game of anxiety or new chronic illness symptom
the concept of doctors is better than reality
despite going to the doctor way too often there are still so many things wrong that i don't even know where to start
(the list of things i should probably get checked is loooong)
the urge the give my dnd character a chronic illness cause i want representation
i can't get rid of this constant nausea ffs
grateful for everything my life is besides the illness
grateful for everyone i get to have close to my heart
grateful for everything i get to experience
i refuse to let being sick stop me from being grateful for the rest
made the typical joke about "being allergic to gravity" today and i got an understanding nod instead of a "wtf"... now i'm the one that's confused
i know i shouldn'r be but i am kinda scared to use my cane out in public alone... i just use it with someone i trust around
making jokes about being chronically ill with my friends, because somehow things are a little less heavy when you laugh about it
fighting the occasional urge to scream, because being chronically ill feels unfair and it really is all too much sometimes
just bonded with someone over the fact that both of our bodies seem to hate us
i'm in too much pain to sleep and i have to get up in a few hours cause it's a busy day
i am lucky if i get to close my eyes for a few minutes and it sucks
everytime i am out of a flare i convince myself i am usually dramatic and this won't impact my life in any significant way in the future... then the next flare is coming up and changes my mind real quick
someone told me that they would end themselves if they had even half of my health issues... idk what to do with that information...
i love teachers that offer accommodations in class without me even asking for it