I Was Thinking About Making A New List About My Favorite Books Of All Time But Id Start With A Little

i was thinking about making a new list about my favorite books of all time™️ but i’d start with A Little Life and would ramble about it non-stop. also — i would be so lost into it that A Little Life would be the ONLY book in my list. at this point of my life, that might be right.

(it is not! my 17 year old version still have A LOT to say about some books; my boring 20 yrs old version, however, got lost in track of time and — guess what! — barely reads anything but academic texts. what a shitty end)

@ jimin not even twitter being banned in my country is going to keep me from rambling about you. i love love love you deeply. i will write down my thoughts in a stone and yours achievements in walls with my — um — bl00d. yes. you Are the first korean soloist PERIODT. from now on i may not know exactly which records you’ll be breaking but i WILL know that you’re breaking them. tell em!

WHO song of the year. thats all im going to say.

and when bojack said

Life is a bitch and then you die, right?

and diane replied

Sometimes. Sometimes life is a bitch and then you keep living

AND WHEN LIFE IS A BITCH AND THEN YOU KEEP LIVING and there’s no resolution to your sadness or rage or whatever is troubling your mind. and then you come home after spending the whole day living that routine you despise, and there's nothing you can do about but accept it and collapse, exhausted, into bed, enjoying the counted minutes of a monotonous relief that never ventures beyond that. and then you wake up the next day to the same condemnation, knowing that your life will be a repetition of that Dull feeling, varying only in degrees according to the situation. and then you find palliatives here and there, useless little things that make you tolerate the next minute, but the next hour still comes — and the hour after that too. and then the years keep passing and you do nothing but keep accepting it, bc change is merely the illusion of a hope, a concept to cling to. and life is a bitch, and you're exhausted, and everything seems so desperately Wrong and Way Too Much, but you don't die. you don't die. worse, even: You Keep Living. and then you have to deal with everything you did and everything that was done to you.

And Then— And Then— and then what.

alicent feels the vibrations of rhaenyra kissing another woman and immediately goes to drown herself in the lake. real lesbian representation right there

the way every single one of those takes changed my life. you wouldnt believe it

When BoJack Horseman (2014-2020) said "you can't keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it ok. you need to be better" and "all we have are the connections we make" and "I really should've thought about the view from halfway down" and "sometimes you have to take responsibility for your own happiness" and "you do the hokey pokey and you turn yourself around, you turn yourself around, THAT'S what it's all about" and "things have to get worse before they can get better" and "in real life, the big gesture isn't enough, you need to be consistent" and "if we hadn't met each other until now, we wouldn't be the people we are now" and, my personal favourite, "every day it gets a little easier, but you gotta do it every day, that's the hard part, but it does get easier".

been thinking about them a lot lately

heavensghost on tumblr / F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and the Damned / Interview With the Vampire, Season 2 Episode 4 Review / Back to the Old House by The Smiths