12. 3. 2020 Sorry For Not Posting...

12. 3. 2020 Sorry for not posting...

...my life was kind of a mess to begin with and then schools in my country (among other institutions) got closed down as a preventive measure against the coronavirus. At first I thought: oh, no problem, we'll just get materials and presentations from our professors and we'll do it at home at our own pace. No stress, wash my hands and not leave the house if I don't have to. And then most of my professors got the idea that we would have lectures and tests via the internet, which is my ultimate nightmare, and my parents and classmates started panicking about the current events.

And so then there's my already anxious prone to panick attacks ass in the middle of it like: 'great, I live in hell now.'

I'll be sure to come back at you with some motivational positive energy as soon as I have any 😅

Unrelated to anything: Overrated by Three Days Grace is the ultimate gen z/millenial anthem and I dream it would one day be recognized as such.

30. 1. 2020 My first finals are over!

Today was my last exam in this semester and it went waaaaay better than I could have dreamed of. I feel really proud of myself on this day, so I'm just having a quiet afternoon to myself reading Robert Louis Stevenson's The Suicide Club.

I know some places people have to annotate books for school but we don't really teach literature like that here in the Czech Republic. It's just something I'd started doing for fun, because I really enjoy it. Some books just fill me with many thoughts :D

Now I will have two weeks off before the spring semester starts :) I'll see what I get up to and if I'll have something to post for you ♡

19. 7. 2020 - Time flies way too fast!

I didn't even realize it's already been like a month since my last post. 😅 I passed two of my finals and am having the rest at the end of summer. My uni lowkey saved my ass by stretching the finals period all the way into September, since mental health and social distancing really hit me like a ton of bricks and for some of my courses I haven't studied or read any of our material yet. 😓

Now I'm back home and I decided to clear out my room and change the layout. It's been the same for my eight years of highschool depression, so getting a fresh space seemed like a good idea. 🙂

27. 3. 2020 - Has life been serving too much depresso to anyone else? I've done literally nothing since my last post but today I've been summoned from the dead to do an assignment that's due by midnight. I've never before even handed something in the day off (always a few days in advance) let alone less than an hour before the 'homework vault' closes :( But it's still on time so I should be happy about that!

17. 3. 2020 - 1/30 days of productivity

So I'm doing slightly better and trying to motivate myself to make the best of this uni close down.

Since I had hit a wall in my studying even before all this covid-19 mess happened and now I can't go to the library for a pick me up/change of space, I was procrastinating this whole time.

Not sure if this can apply to anyone else but for me the most daunting thing is getting started with a task, and the easiest to put off. So today a bit the pill and started a lot of things, as in this anxious headspace I'm more likely to do tasks that are already started and just need to get finished.

I'm hesitant to share my personal 'tips' here, since at least seeing my classmates and the tips going around this community, I feel I'm maybe an odd person so my tips wouldn't be helpful to others. Let me know if you are interested in me sharing what I'm trying to get slowly more productive over the next month, what worked, what didn't - that kind of thing :)

And remember that every bit of progress adds up, you deserve breaks and snacks and if you get too into your own head and need a distraction, my Reading Homer's Odyssey professor reccomends Boccaccio's Decameron :D