4. 10. 2020 - I Finished Reading The First Chapter Of Demian Yesterday. I Know, It Took Me A While :D

4. 10. 2020 - I finished reading the first chapter of Demian yesterday. I know, it took me a while :D But this chapter titled Two Worlds instantly reminded me of when we were learning about Melanie Klein and child psychology in high school, so I spent a lot of time reading up on that aswell and adding sticky notes and scribbles into my book.

Semester starts tomorrow but I won't have many classes yet. Still, I'm vibrating with excitement.

“What came is gone forever every time – that is good! That leaves it open for no regret…” – Allen Ginsberg (Kaddish)

25. 9. 2020 - Eventually I sort of stopped talking about me trying to change my major on this blog, because a) I wasn’t sure if there’s anyone at all that’s following that saga, even though that’s why I made this blog to begin with and b) everything in the world got so complicated even I myself didn’t get the time to stop and think about my progress. But for anyone that was still wondering and wanted to know:

I got accepted to English Language and Literature and am starting school on 5th October. I still had some finals to do and other stuff so that fact didn’t register for me for weeks. But now that’s all done, I filled in a form to leave my previous field of study minutes ago and it has finally hit me, that I made it and it’s real and it’s happening. And although most of my classes will be distance learning and I hope I’ll get to make some friends and not be completely lonely, unlike last year when I was entering uni for the first time, I am so overwhelmingly excited for it all. And most of all, I am extremely happy today.

I might make some infographics about what I learned through this experience like I was planning on when I made this blog, but that will probably come at a later time. Now I want to take a moment to bask in this good feeling and live in the present; leave it completely behind just for a bit. I want to read some of the books I’ve had on my list for years, so I opened Hermann Hesse’s Demian this morning. Later I’m meeting some of my friends from high school and having a sleepover.

I wish every one of you a good day! 🥰

I’ve never felt this called out on such a personal level, damn.

1. 3. 2020 - Hello, social media! I took a break as I wasn't feeling well :) In the end I decided to approach one of the school psychologists that my university offers free consultations with. I feel so thankful I did and I have been dealing a lot better this past month ♡ So I thought with my spring semester starting, I could start posting again from time to time.

Trans.: Ahoj, sociální sítě! Dala jsem si pauzu, protože jsem se necítila dobře :) Nakonec jsem se rozhodla jednomu ze školních psychologů, se kterými má univerzita nabízí bezplatné konzultace. Jsem ráda, že jsem to udělala, a poslední měsíc o hodně lépe život zvládám ♡ Tak mě napadlo, že bych se začátkem mého jarního semestru mohla začít znovu čas od času postovat.

I want to say thank you to everyone who follows me on tumblr and likes my posts ❤

Unfortunately, it so happens that I don't really use the tumblr app anymore. Ever since I became a big fan of NCT, I started using Instagram consistently as I found more people posting on there and I gradually got used to the app.

As I only ever open tumblr to crosspost from my Instagram, I've decided to save myself the time and leave altogether 🙃 If you want to still see my posts, you can follow me @mymediocrestudyblr

2. 11. 2020 - Good morning, everyone. How are you doing? I'm watching my livestreamed lecture from my bed, because 😑 Probably will sleep some more once it's over 😅