So M Bored These Days And Then I Decided To Change The Colour Of My Hair From Brown Which Is What I Usually

So m bored these days and then i decided to change the colour of my hair from brown which is what i usually prefer to always renew, which is like sunkissed blonde to baby pink right? But things don't go as planned because i was duped by thr Instagram lady who sold me the hair color.

So i decided to bleach it to blonde just in case i was missing something and that's the reason why it won't turn baby pink. And you know how my luck is, being black and all. I haf to renew my visa and they said to me nope you need to have black colour for your hair because your are black. So what did i do. I went home and quickly changed my hair color to black within 10 minutes. Even for that was too quick but i had to go back for my appointment. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Fast forward a week later now my hair is turning gray 😁😁😁 OMG can i get a break. So i had to bleach it again. The good thing was i had bought new hair color from ashop close to my house from brand vida fire red and i was like at least it's not a shouting colour so i will be fine right? Or so you would think.

I still had my bleach left over and after bleaching i put on my fire red only to find out that it was not really red but pink, like bright, really bright pink. Now im spotting a very bright pink colored hair and all of a sudden i have some color in my life.

I mean who am i to complain right?

Im worried my therapist will think there is a reason to worry about me considering i have been making progress 😁😁 now all of a sudden i have bipolar too on top of all that i am being treated for. I mean... it would suck to get rhough another round of meds considering i have started new medication recently like last month already.

Talking about being impulsive, im adopting a dog tomorrow so watch this space!!!!

As always i will keep holding on

Until then🤗🤗🤗💋💋💋💋

My story began a few decades ago and i dont want to bore you with the details. My mum passed away about 28 years ago and that is when my fear of death sort of started I guess. Growing up without a mother was always weird and my dad over compensated for it but it was never enough. I feel guilty saying this but i hated sharing my dad with my step mother. It doesn't help that when i was 8 after my dad remarried i was shipped over to stay with my auntie who lived about 5 hours away.

Its a funny story actually, how it happened. So because i was young and and was still bed wetting because of lack of training since no mother was in sight and no female in the house meant no supervision but, still we were clean and all. As soon as she came after a few months my siblings and i had white fat worms coming out of our bodies 😨😨 from God knows what. I mean tbh what kind of step mother was that.

So yeah we were shipped to our father's sister's houses to stay with them. It's not easy though being an inconvenience in other people's homes especially when your own father is alive. So i guess i was always angry about that. I stayed with my aunt for 5 years until i was done with primary school. I was asthmatic but i was healthy in all other aspects. Everything else i guess was okay. I was happy had good friends.

However i will tell you one day the tale tells of the area we lived in. There's lots of stuff that happened behind the scenes that other students discussed at school that was scary but im not sure if they were true.

I miss my mum, i wish she was here with me today😏

Anyways, cheers for today..

I’m in love ♡

Map Of The Soul ON:E Setlist (Day 1 | 201010)

What is your greatest most fear? One that when you are asked you day goes from gold to blueblack. If it was sweet juice you sipping it suddenly turns sour. One that turns the heat up full blast. I mean the fear that makes you feel extremely uncomfortable.... That is my questions to you the blog readers today. I hope you identify that fear and find the thing that sometimes takes away your joy and or the thing standing in between ypu and your dreams right now.

I pray all goes well as you discover that thing

Until next time😘😘😘 and 🤗🤗🤗

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