We Split Tonight

we split tonight

and we will never find peace when driving again

to anyone who might be reading:

please remember to take your meds and get your refills if you need them.

we have been neglecting our health so badly because of our relationship that we put of four refills until we already had less than a week of them left.

we are now constantly feeling sick and experiencing symptoms, dissociating dangerously, anxious and terrified for no reason, cannot sleep until 4 am, and have split at least 3 times to handle basic every day stress and tasks because we cannot handle it.

we have our appointments with our professionals set up for as soon as we can get them, but even that is in a few days, and we are struggling to make it until then.

please do not be like we are. please do what you need to take care of yourself. please remember your medications and refills.

our relationship has finally ended and we are unmedicated and highly emotional. let's go gamers.

living is hard but we're doing it anyway.

Do you mask at home? Or are you out as a system to family?

i'm mostly out about it, but due to some incidents, we still end up masking for our own comfort and safety. maybe someday it'll get easier, but for now, we do what works best for us.

☀️🌍🌌

☀️- is your system bad at masking?

not necessarily bad, but the changes can be obvious with those who know we're a system and who know us well

🌍- do any alters in your system speak in a different language?

yes- various alters speak various languages. some introjects, others not. usually, we use a translator- having a gatekeeper type what they want to say in the translator, and they use that, as our body isn't fully fluid in the languages.

🌌- does your system have little to no amnesia between switches?

grey-out amnesia (emotional) and some minor amnesia, but we do share most memories and have collective memory we can draw from.