I'm Such A Pig :(

I'm such a pig :(

My brother said I'm too thin, and that I need to eat more.

My mind can't seem to care for the last part.

All it repeats is "You're quite thin".

I'm quite thin?

I'm quite thin.

I'll get thinner.

I wish I was more feminine... I still don't know what a woman is, but I was placed here, so I should at least understand.

I'm a girl, I know. Yet I don't feel like one.

I can offer Him my mourning over His sacrifice, but He wants me to rejoice at His resurrection.

Oh, my melancholy.

I'm so tired.

Like, I know. I know what I have to do. I know Who I need to reach for. I know.

But I'm tired.

Too tired.

Always tired.

I struggle to express my feelings. That's tough. I need to get better, I need to tell my psychologist what happens to me, I need help.

It's just hard to explain, to translate my heart.