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Nym

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I Know The Confession Is The Big Takeaway From This Episode/scene, But I'm Captivated By Everything That

I know The Confession is the big takeaway from this episode/scene, but I'm captivated by everything that happens after Dean and Cas split from Sam and Jack. The whole thing.

Cas gamely follows Dean into the most suicidal plan imaginable, pulling 'I hate this but I'm with you, dear moron' faces behind his back along the way. Then when it goes south and Dean's spiralling into self-hating despair about the bigger picture, Cas... fixes it. During his literal heroic-sacrifice death scene he turns around, assesses the Dean issue, and fixes it. The no-win situation and Dean's self-perception. Not a word or gesture wasted because there's no time. That's badass-warrior!Cas dovetailing with doe-eyed-lover!Cas, and it's beautiful.

Kiss, hug, full-frontal sexytimes... whatever, lovely. Irrelevant. This is true love in action. This is knowing another person the way you know yourself. Better. This is Castiel's absolute devotion and commitment to Dean, if 'proof' of his love be needed (it's not needed, it's right there).

Dying is easy, any hero can make the sacrifice play and Cas has already made it - for Jack, without hesitation - but reaching out to touch someone in the exact way they need it at the exact moment they need it most... Being selfless when time's run out. Opening your heart like you're opening a vein to pour out the right medicine for the other person's damaged soul... when did Cas even learn that? He came so far.

15.18 Despair

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D'you still have the NAs or EDAs?

Mostly no - I sold them after I got too ill to work. I kept the Timewyrm quartet, Damaged Goods, The Left-handed Hummingbird... maybe the Ben Aaronovitch ones?