First Generation.

First Generation.

I am the first generation who hadn’t been to a Residential school.

This may be shocking but it’s a reality that I have to live with.

I am proud to not have lived through the horrors.

But I am also not proud of this fact as well because I have family members who had to live through it.

Because my grandmother and my father and many other family members when to Residential schools.

My heart is full of sorrow and resentment.

Sorrow for those who have gone to residential schools whether they have passed or are still alive.

Resentment towards those who presided over the residential schools.

I know that those who are responsible won’t say sorry because it was all in the past and that they never practiced such behaviour.

However, I’m the first generation to not go to a residential school.

And I am not the only one, but I am one of many who are the first generation who hasn’t attended a Residential school.

I am afraid that this fact will be overlooked because it may not seem important to people.

But there is nothing I can do, but accept the fact that this is my reality.

And I don’t want it to change but I want people to acknowledge that all this happened recently.

Let us not forget those who have been lost to Residential schools and those who have survived and those generations who are lucky to not experience the pain of Residential schools.

My heart aches.

My heart aches, there is no doubt.

It is because I have learned something so tragic.

On my reserve, more souls have been found after all this time and it is more than I think anyone had thought would be found.

These souls have suffered from abuse and many other horrors that they can not speak for they are gone.

And only the stars know their names now because they didn't have their names preserved.

I know that it may seem odd for me to mourn for those I didn’t know but you must understand that those souls and I could have had a shared fate.

Within the last generation before mine was when the last Residential School closed.

This pain is fresh and will last for far longer than anyone can anticipate.

the trauma of these places called Residental schools is still fresh in the minds of many of the people who went through those doors and survived.

The trauma of these places is thrown aside and many want to pretend that it never happened.

Open your eyes and see that it did happen and that it shouldn't matter if you are Black, White, Indigenous or Latino, children are gone because f these places.

My heart is aching because many will tell me to shut my mouth and to get over it.

How am I to get over it?

This pain is real it is not some fantasy, that I made up.

It doesn't just affect me it affects all Indigenous peoples.

I understand that I am ranting but I can’t help it.

So many people have suffered and many more are suffering from Residental schools.

And I won’t apologize this time.

I have nothing to be sorry for.

My heart aches and it will ache for a long time.

For how long I do not know.

But hopefully, my rant has given some people something to think about.

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gatekeeping is Ridiculous its got nothing to do with our goals as a community.

Submitted by Anonymous

I was tagged by @mayhaps-a-blog

Here is the drink I made I call it. moonlit dreams, I don’t really want to tag anyone if you wish to join go ahead and join.

Guys!! I wanna see what you all would look like as a drink!! Also, please give your drink a name!

Here’s the link!

I hereby tag everyone!

I give yoooou… the Berry Lojito!

Name courtesy of @littlebluebarista

If you are still doing ships?

I would like men. (Star wars please)

I am very sarcastic, kind, with a lot of perseverance, I am also a no BS kind of person and I will scold people for rude behaviour. I also love music, reading and writing.

I hate unnecessary violence, if a situation needs violence then okay I’ll let it slide but other than that I will probably scold them pretty badly. I also hate being called rude names.

I am about 5 feet 5 inches tall, I am of Indigenous descent. I have short hair because I am still mourning the loss of my kokum.

I would ship you with Poe. He seems like someone that would put you first before himself and you seem to care a lot about him.

I ship you with Obi Wan Kenobi

Sass battles? Sass battles. You and Obi Wan would have instant banter that the pair of you thoroughly enjoy much to the annoyance of everyone around you. He enjoys you're no bullshit attitude and usually lets you have your say before stepping in to smooth over your less than tactful comments. Like you, he does not approve of unnecessary violence and he appreciates that you can recognize when it is necessary. He's also very understanding of different cultures from his own and will educate himself on how best to help you through your time of mourning.

Ah yes. The original space husband. Thank you. XD

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