This Isn't Otherkin, But It Was Funny Enough That I Still Want To Share:

This isn't otherkin, but it was funny enough that I still want to share:

My peer counselor: "So... I have a thing I've been debated giving you, but I don't want to upset you. It's- okay it's for this self-love workbook for women, and it's so cool! I really think it would do you some good. I was going to try and get you the one for men, but it's thirty dollars more-"

Me: "Thirty dollars is a completely valid reason to give me the workbook for women. Plus I bet you money that the one for men is ugly terrible colors, this one is pretty."

A short introduction for those from my main blog who would be interested in this one

I spent hours writing this post. These feelings are hard to articulate, something soul-deep that I know I’ve barely stepped into. The length of this post doesn’t reflect that, but believe me; I edited and re-edited so many times. Then, I realized as I was writing this post that I was no longer writing about my feelings on being a dragon and working with them, I was writing a post trying to justify and explain it. So let’s start again.

Hi. Most people who see this will be seeing it on my main blog, @tadpoles-and-daydreams. This is a blog built more around UPG, personal identity, and dragon work than my main one. This is… sort of an intro post. Not to me, you already know me- but to this part of me.

On my main blog, I don’t talk about my familiar. Here, I’ll refer to them as… well, admittedly the only current name I have for them. “Friend.” I’ll make another post about them and how we met sometime. They showed up in my life, told me I need to value my inner child essentially, and then promptly stepped back. I didn’t talk to them for weeks. I felt bad. I was talking with my deities and doing other things, but Friend- and the other dragon who works with my family as a whole- just completely weren’t a part of my craft. For Friend this was new, but I’ve been intending and intending to work with the other dragon I know for most of my practice. I’d always wanted to work with dragons, but just… never had.

Now I know why; because it feels like home. I wasn’t ready to go home.

“Home,” in this case, is a part of my identity that I’ve kept hidden even from myself. Home looks like wings of fins and feathers, swimming through the water or air, being one with the sea and protecting every creature within it like your own kin because they are. Home, to me, is learning about what my soul truly is; a dragon. I’m in a human body, yes. Whatever your beliefs are around life, mine are that I’ve chosen to incarnate as a human in this lifetime for whatever reason. It doesn’t change what my soul is, in its truest form, and it hasn’t changed no matter how much I tried.

I have repressed this long and hard. I’m a high-masking autistic, and I learned very quickly in my childhood that there are right and wrong ways to be. I was never, ever, the right way to be. I never will be, either; not in the eyes of most people. The “right” way to be certainly doesn’t involve being a dragon.

So I’m going to be “wrong,” as enthusiastically and loudly as possible, on this little corner of the internet. I’m finally coming home; to myself, and to my dragons. We have one hell of a journey ahead.

Intro post

Hello! My name is Frog. Don't ask me why I'm not frogkin, but my name is Frog, I don't know. /silly

If you're coming from my main blog:

Yup, this is the "super secret" otherkin account of @tadpoles-and-daydreams. I decided to make a separate account and blog for dragonkin and dragon work rambles, since... well, to be honest I just wanted to separate my blog for witchcraft writing, tarot, etc. from this. This is a more personal blog in which I mostly reblog and post random little memes and tidbits, heavy UPG, dragon work, and what the hell does it look/feel like finding out your soul is draconic anyway?

And just in case: if you're coming from my main blog and are unfamiliar with any of the shit I'm talking about here in terms of otherkinity, dragonkin, being a dragon- please feel free to send in asks. I plan on writing more in-depth in a bigger post about what it is, what it's like, how I found out about it, etc. etc. but that will take a lot of time and energy that I currently don't have. Further down, though, I give the best TL;DR I can!

If you have no clue what the fuck the main blog is:

I talk about my experiences as a witch and meme about the funny side of witchcraft over there. Go there and check out my tarot readings if you want a dragon to throw some cards at you, or if you want to hear more about my craft outside of dragon work! I write a lot as a witch over there so if you like my witchy posts here, it's worth checking out.

He/him pronouns

Trans, panromantic, polyamorous, just generally queer

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My special interests include: Writing, Genshin Impact (I don't associate with most of the fandom they scare me), music, anime, the ocean, and "weird miscellaneous facts."

Dragonkin, specifically an amphitere.

local funny little witch man, I work with primarily with my deities and dragons and get bullied by a deck of cards a lot.

My familiar- though I hesitate to use that word due to its connotations as an "assistant" rather than a partner in my practice- is the one who kickstarted this by implying my energies were draconic in nature.

For everyone, regardless of how you found me:

This is where I plan to blog about my experiences when it comes to working with dragons, and fucking being one apparently. I want a safe space to write about my experiences, no matter how much I change. I feel like I've only dipped my toes into a vast ocean, a whole new aspect of my identity and my craft. I decided that I wanted to be able to write completely transparently about it- fears, mistakes, flaws and all- without it reflecting majorly on my main blog/my professionalism as a tarot reader who's just starting out.

So expect it all; the funny, the cool as fuck, the ranty posts, everything. This is just as much a tumblr blog as it is a journal, for me. I heavily value transparency, and that's something I can't be in public as an otherkin.

So I'll do it here instead. ^-^

Important posts:

A post I plan to update continuously of everything I know about my kintype:

The current closest reference I have for what I look like as a dragon, although admittedly not fully accurate:

Tumblr

WAIT holy shit I never posted this

HEY YEAH BY THE WAY I used flight rising's predict morphology thing to try and make what I look like. I sort of just went through it intuiti

This is only sort of related, but the other day I was talking with my mom about being dragonkin and such.

And this woman, I love her with all my heart, had the AUDACITY to just go "Well you've been roleplaying nonhuman characters since you were in elementary school."

Cue the very long pause. Because while I'm aware that I've had a comically predictable pattern of DND characters being either "bird flavored" or aquatic (my dragon type has feathers and is aquatic) and I know I've been writing inhuman characters a lot since high school.... what was I doing THAT far back?

She just looked at me like it was obvious and went "Warrior Cats. You literally met your current partner roleplaying Warrior Cats."

IT MADE ME TRANS AND A DRAGON

reblog if reading Warrior Cat led you down the trans pipeline

YES I've talked to my mom about how, when I can't stim, I often stim in my head. I imagine doing the stimming motion, the image pops up in my head very literally.

Even though I don't get really strong shifts yet, because I don't feel like I've REALLY tapped into this part of me, I often still get the IMAGE. I shudder and get the image of my wings shuddering with me. I stretch and my wings stretch. I can stim with my wings a little bit, even though I honestly haven't learned how because my very literal mind is like "but do wings move like that though?"

I wish I could find a less infantilizing way to say this, but I feel like a fuckin' toddler who just discovered their hands. "HOLY SHIT WHAT DO THESE DO????"

i love tail and ear shifts so much cus even tho they aren’t ’actually there’ i still see them as another way to stim :3

I'm having a sort of time of really quick and intense discovery, right, and last night as I was going to bed a couple things just sort of popped into my head and they make so much sense now.

I've always slept on my stomach. I HATE laying any other way, I've never been able to articulate why it just bothers me. Now that I can borderline feel my wings, laying on my stomach goes from something I feel is important but can't articulate why to making perfect sense. I don't experience any phantom feeling or pain, but I sort of just "feel" them energetically like they're there, and I don't like when I have to have my back against something if I can feel them strongly.

The other thing I realized today; I've always felt, often, like there's something behind me. It never felt malicious or scary, I kept assuming it was one of my deities or entities that I work with because it just felt like some vague energy behind me- but I could never figure out who, or why. I eventually attributed it to the fear of something behind me, because typically that's what it's portrayed as, but I never actually felt afraid.

Well, now I know why past me couldn't figure out who it was. Surprise, it's you buddy, you've just sorta got wings. Have fun.