Literally, I Remember When I Had A Nonbinary Phase (/pos It Was A Very Important Phase!!) Before I Realized

Literally, I remember when I had a nonbinary phase (/pos it was a very important phase!!) before I realized I was just fully a guy, and the "My gender is a void," "my gender is just a lil creature," "my gender is simply a cryptid from the ocean," etc. etc. type of humor became such a staple in my own sense of humor.

Looking back, it definitely would've clued me in if I'd known about otherkin. I don't feel like it would've gone over well had I figured it out sooner, so it's okay for me personally, but it's outright comical how Very Not Subtle I was.

I believe i said this before on another account but imma say it again

If it was normalized to question your species then there would be so much more alterhumans 🙏

The amount of comments and posts i see of people saying they "miss having wings" or want fangs or are "just a floating orb" but never stating they're alterhuman, LIKE it's so many i can't even talk about them all here. I just got reminded because i saw a post of a so obviously Fictionkin person. But i didn't say anything bc they have to figure out what they identify as ofc.

But you get my point

you are not you.

and yet i still see you.

i see the wings beneath your clothes, rustling and trying to get used to being so small.

i see the horns beneath your hair, threatening to grow and point towards the skies like they did before.

i see the claws beneath your nails, wanting to poke free and scratch at the bark of the nearest tree.

i see the pads on your hands, soft and invisible, waiting to touch the snow of tundras again.

you are not you.

and yet i still see you.

HOLY SHIT fish inside a birdcage hits DIFFERENT as a dragonkin who works with dragons. Especially an aquatic dragon. Who gave them the right to call me out like that.

I feel this song in my bones, whoops, guess I'm stealing it from the characters I associate it with-

I was going to make an intro post first but I'm too excited-

I HAVE. A PROJECT. AND IT IS COMING TOGETHER.

So I've wanted to make a cloak/cape type thing for a while. A sort of Sky COTL type deal- preferably a wing looking cape. This has only become more relevant recently, because now I've realized that I just. Have wings. Even if I can't feel them without focusing, they're there anyway.

This has been completely off the table for YEARS because of money. Even now, I'm doing tarot readings but that takes being seen places- I have yet to reach that. I have hope, but it's still not happening YET.

HOWEVER I was talking to someone about this, and they brought up that they know how to sew. And run our art group. So they can buy me "art supplies," even for personal projects. They're outright offering to get me fabric and teach me to sew.

So I... Might be able to make my fucking wing cape, I might be able to just WEAR WINGS??? ALL THE TIME??? This also is a great starter to learn how to make things so I can do more in the future!!

Ayyy I can actually offer input here! Local pagan witch, and I was a witch WAY before I realized I just also happened to be a dragon. I've been actively practicing (admittedly in cycles/off and on) for about four years, and I've considered myself pagan since middle school.

My discovery or "awakening" or whatever word you'd like to use was because I started to work with my familiar, who is a dragon, and they basically.... gently implied that there might be a reason I loved dragons so much. And then left me to figure out the rest on my own. Love them, they're a bit of a cryptic bitch.

A little funny to me that I do follow a religion that suggests reincarnation is part of the afterlife (just part of it! it's complicated) but my inhumanity is 100% psychological in nature. It's interesting to me how a lot of spiritual alterhumans seem to intertwine their beliefs with their alterhumanity, I think it's so cool to connect different parts of your identity like that! It's just not me for some reason, they're pretty separate and I'm okay with it like that. I've also noticed a lot of spiritual alterhumans are pagans, which makes me curious if they were following their religion before or after discovering they were alterhuman

(I have also noticed unfortunately a lot of pagans in the community have very appropriative practices that stem from the modern wicca/witchy/neopagan movement that just cherrypicked several holidays from different cultures and then just made up whatever they wanted about them......but that is not really related to this post. maybe for another time lol)

Today on "no one could have prepared me for being a witch and a dragon"

for those seeing this somewhere other than the otherkin tag, I am a dragonkin witch and I work with Hades.

Me: "Idk I've always pictured Persephone as having [hair color]." (I get the DISTINCT vibe from Hades that I'm very wrong, to the point of it being comical)

My mom: "I.... I just got a very distinct 'Fucking dragons, colorblind' from him. Like dragons are weird about colors. Like.... maybe they don't see the same color spectrum or something?"

Me, gasping: "WAIT LIKE SHRIMP COLORS??????? Maybe dragons see shrimp colors!"

After some debate, it was essentially confirmed- although my mom burst into laughter after she asked why Hades was implying my face blindness was also dragon-related and got back "I DON'T KNOW I'M NOT A DRAGON."

Bonus tidbit-

Me, softly after getting really strong vibes of excitement after marshmallows are mentioned: "Do you.... want... a marshmallow, Hades????" (for context, his tastes are a lot more refined so this was WILDLY out of the blue. He is very salty that this has given us such a specific view of him, since "what, do you think I'm ABOVE a marshmallow??????")