So I Accidentally Backed Into Someone In A Parking Lot (a Parked Car Not A Person). I Didnt Do Any Damage

So I accidentally backed into someone in a parking lot (a parked car not a person). I didn’t do any damage as far as I am concerned so I left because… well there was no damage. Also, the were parked very close behind me and were not there when I had initially parked. I am just imaging how that is gonna flash before my eyes at the pearly gates, but I am honestly not very concerned. Also, there is this dude in my shrooms class, Jake, who has been talking to me and DM-ing me on instagram and liking my stories and I am just letting it happen. I don’t even have a reaction at this point. I also wonder if I seem really mean on campus because I have a very serious resting face and I have the habit of accidentally glaring at people. If you come up to me I am nice, but I probably come across so mean. I think it’s just a mentality thing because I don’t really care how I come across to people I don’t know. It is not my responsibility to control how people think of me. I would prefer if people didn’t come up to talk to me anyways.

Being a woman is getting crotch pics from a man, and then him playing fucking dumb when you tell him you didn’t like that

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Feelings are such a colossal waste of time. They make you irrational, obsessive, and inefficient. It doesn’t even take me an emotionally destructive experience to say that. That is just what I think all the time. I wish that I didn’t have feelings so that life could be easier. Most of the time I feel like I don’t. I kind of feel like my heart is empty except for a few people. And I feel a total absence of any romantic feelings. I don’t know if I can have them. They seem way to embarrassing. I guess I can admire people and want them to like me in some way but I feel gross when I think of them in a romantic way. It sounds totally sociopathic, but the times I have let myself get carried away I become obsessive yet avoidant. I don’t know how to be casual. It’s not even romance, it’s obsession, so I stopped that fast because that is embarrassing. Now, I feel like I have neither obsession nor romance. There might be a little bit of interest and thought but ultimately, because I can never read people, it feels like a waste of time. Also, no one is good enough. I get icked out so fast. Like I can think about the idea of having a boyfriend all I want and how great that would be, but whenever there are actual men it is so gross. I will always find something to criticize. Forget having “standards”, it will take one thing for me to want nothing to do with you ever again. I have to force myself to be nice. I don’t even know what my love language or if I even have one. I have had friends ask me, and I never know what to say. I would say the only one that really appeals to me is quality time, but I love being alone. I feel awkward receiving gifts, and I always find it hard to pick stuff out for people. I don’t like just be touched, and I feel awkward touching other people, like I don’t feel like myself. I have to make an intentional effort to hug people and it shows. I get awkward when people compliment me or tell me good stuff about me and I always feel like they are lying. I am bad at giving intentional words of affirmation because I am too in my head to form words that I feel like are actually meaningful. Also, I like my independence too much to let people help me with tasks. I have a way I do stuff and I don’t like people trying to interfere with that. I just can’t imagine anyone feeling attracted to me in the first place. When that has come up in the past I always assume it’s a joke or something. Also, when I find out, I never reciprocate because that is too gross to me. I can never see myself and romance so I just seem to avoid it. I don’t think I am unlikable, I have friends and family I know loves me, but romance is different. It feels unrealistic and unattainable to me. Those feelings make me feel way to out of control to be appealing.