Isolation - Tumblr Posts
the bruises that your bitemarks left on my thighs are the only remnants that i have of you once you are gone yet i still relish in them.
why am I starting this blog?
hello, I’m C. - no of course it isn’t my name, but just call me C ‘cause I’ve always thought of me as a “C”.
to answer my own question (lol) I’m starting a blog just because I need a place to write out what I feel, what I’m interested in ecc. - to sum up, I need a place for my stuff.
but why on tumblr? well, I’ve been on Tumblr since 2015 I think and I’ve never been truly using it. Yes, I found a lot of interesting stuff, thing I loved and thing I didn’t even know I could like but here we are.
I think this world can give me more and I can give my contribution to it too: one thing I’ve been missing is the chat, the interaction with others - this long quarantine period we are still experiencing made me realize just how much I need others. we are not only selfmade but, as much as someone think of this a negative side, also made by the relation, the interaction with others.
“I’m a mikrokosmos made for sharing and learning from others.”
Isolation is Trend now!
Isolation. That's all I ask for. A new life. A new chapter. A new beginning. It happened so often in the beginning of my life, why the fuck did it stop now when I need change the most?
*sneezes on you* bwa ha ha simon blackquill u got covid
Charming.
I suppose I will have to test for it now. Bloody Brilliant.
I do not wish to isolate, not over again. Isolation does things to the mind, it eats you alive from the inside out. I do not imagine doing it voluntarily will be much better.
At least I wouldn't be doing it in a box this time. I will have the ability to go outside, to see Taka.
Small blessings.
-Simon Blackquill
Logo for CheburNET ©
the Russian criminal government has a plan to isolate Russia from the global Internet, will create a closed network "CheburNET" for the people
Это грустно и страшно и уже не смешно : изоляция РФ от всемирного интернета входит в планы правительства РФ! 4-5 июня проходил некие учения и причем весьма успешно - перестал работать только сайт РЖД.
Хотя в 2017-2020гг такие заявления казались смешными и нереалистичными
Rain Cloud above My Head
Buzzing in the Head
i very much hate calling
i cannot escape
I love this one so much, will there be more ?
Isolation - Drabble 1
Title: Isolation
Genre: Just some random drabbles
Warnings: None so far
Paring: BTS x reader
A/N: So, this is the start of a series of drabbles I’ll be writing during the quarantine period we have. They won’t be long, but hey everyone has thought of how it must be to be stuck in a house with the boys… feel free to send in suggestions. I WILL END UP MAD IF I DON’T DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE.
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“And if you’ll just sign at the end of the contract, we can start moving you in!” Mr bang stated as he smiled at you.
You were finally here. This was where your life would start. Yes, this was unusual, to say the least, but when you posted your resume on glassdoor, the last people you expected to contact you was Bighit itself.
Afficher davantage
Old Friends..
My freshman year was actually ok but I kind of attached myself to someone and I feel pathetic if I beg for her to talk to me. She was the only person who liked me and my stupid ass pushed her away. She would always be smiling when she was around me and she let me come to her house when we first met. Its like we were inseparable. We were always together and we always hung out at her house or the park. It was really nice but the thing is, I wasn't vulnerable with her. I just kept a certain emotionless composure all the time and I feel bad because she actually cared about me. She asked if I was ok a lot and she even tried to convince her mom to let me run away to her house and live with her because my mom sucks... I feel really bad... I've changed and matured in the last year.. I wanted to talk to her but she just left me on seen. Another girl I know said she thought I didn't like her or she did something. no.. I just didn't know how to express my emotions because when I did, they were always brushed off or I felt like I was being annoying or overwhelming. I can't talk to her in person because she avoids me. I don't know what to do... I feel so lonely... I have a gf but she lives far away.
AI-Less Whumptober Day 12 - Isolation
Love Me If You Dare - Eps. 20 & 24
Sweet Tai Chi - Eps. 22/23
เซน…สื่อรักสื่อวิญญาณ (Zen The Series) - Ep. 47
Save Me - Eps. 13/14
Glory of Special Forces - Ep. 38
Star Crossed Lovers - Ep. 18
I am extremely convinced that I don't actually have "friends" and anyone who claims to be my friend is just wanting to remind me about how fucking alone I am in this world and they don't care about me at all
"oh but I care about you!" no you fucking don't.
if you did you wouldn't be ignoring my every attempt to try and hang out with you, you would actually include me in the activities you and the rest of the friend group are doing and not bullshitting your way out of not including me, and just in general you would actually be there for me when I need it.
I've wasted my whole summer not being able to talk to or hang out with any of my friends because they've all got plans that are apparently way more important than me, and atp, why even bother staying friends with any of the group when they all don't like me????
As for my online friends? They don't even bother to check in on me anymore. Not even a "hey hru?", and they just ignore my every attempt to rack up a conversation, it's exhausting. it almost feels like everyone thinks i'm dead atp.
And I know they're gonna ignore this post, because I know damn well they muted my posts, because they secretly hate me, they always have. They just say they care about me so that they can sleep at night knowing damn well they're part of the reason I got BPD.
And the worst part is: there is nothing I could ever do to change any of this. I'm going to die alone and nobody is going to show up at my funeral because I mean nothing to them.
if i'll be honest about anything, the only friend i truly have is the pencil sharpener blade i use to cut myself.
I hate my friends, I hate tony crynight, i hate myself, I hate this feeling, and i hate everything else.
I wish my mom aborted me. I wish that bitch never gave birth to me. I wish I was a stillborn.
why did god do this to me?
CREEPY THINGS THAT I ENJOY
A heavy thunderstorm. Large raindrops pummeling the ground and rooftops, the crashing of thunder above your home, flashes of lightning warning of their encroaching roar.
For only a short time, absolute darkness. The sensation of having your eyes taken away from you stimulates your other senses. Every sound you’ve learned to absent mindedly ignore comes rushing at you. Sounds you’ve never noticed now have your full attention. Is this what it looks like in the far reaches of space? A glimpse of nonexistence?
Isolation in nature. Listening to the sound of trees whispering with the wind. The snapping and twigs beneath your feet, the crunch of snow, the swish of leaves. The idea of you being the only human within sight is lovely and should be cherished. Even in the desert, where you may be the only life within your expansive view is beautiful. Although I’m not the biggest fan of being under the sun, its harsh oppression of a desert landscape is where some of its most singular work is done.
Places abandoned by civilization. Any part of a city or town forgotten by people, shrouded in fog is an eerie place of wonder. Every room, every object is a bit of a mystery; not of what it is, but why it’s there. Who left it and why there of all places? These stories can be sad or sinister which makes them all the more significant. The return of nature adds an aesthetic element and reminds us that she will eventually reclaim everything.
how it feels to turn off the notifications to all your social medias and hide all of the apps on a separate page in your phone because for some stupid reason you push away all your friends but you're still in that group chat for that project for that one class.
i’ve got an itch that only black hair can scratch.
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my sadness haunts me day and night, never leaving me.